An Open Letter To Someone Who Confessed To Love This Blog

"Hai [nama (hampir) penuh] :) I really like your personality. Cool but you had yr boundaries in doing things. Sometimes i dont get the way u study, but whatever, u're here in Intec. And i love your keretapitutttutt :)"

sape yang confess pasal blog aku ni baik confess sekarang. nak confess sangat kan?!

ingat kelakar?! tak lawak ok. memula aku baca aku dah terbeliak biji mata. pastu aku baca part last tu terus tersembul biji mata aku. ada biji mata kena korek ni kang, pepandai je mention blog aku eh. tak cukup dengan nama (hampir) penuh aku. memula aku baca aku cam "tak boleh ke kau sebut ama je ke takyah sebut nama ke ganti ngan star star je ke ni nak jugaaak letak nama (hampir) penuh aku, ic number taknak letak sekali?" pastu aku cam "ok at least dia tak cakap buruk pasal aku, er, terima kasih..." tapi kemudian aku cam "APAKAH?!" berapa kerat la sangat baca blog aku ni, tapi sekerat yang sikit ni kemain ye.

okla. meh aku berlembut. guna cara berhikmah. takde korek korek biji mata ni semua. ehhem.

dear mr/miss confessor (because in english i sound nicer).

i know you read my blog, thanks to your confession. so i know this is the only safe place in which i can talk to you about this (which might not be so safe anymore, thanks to your confession). firstly i really thank you for reading my blog, and er for liking my personality, and errr for thinking i'm cool (aww stop it you), and last but certainly not the least important reason, for loving KERETAPITUTTTUTT.

i used caps lock because that is the main point of this open letter and because i am screaming. now kindly imagine me saying all that in a polite tone but SCREAMING at the word keretapitutttutt, thank you.

at least you didn't say what it was. people probably think you love my train set toy like Thomas and Friends or something. phewh. because it sounds ridiculous?! i came up with the name keretapitutttutt when i was 14! if i were to change the link, you, and the rest of you, ALL OF YOU wouldn't be able to read this crap! i'm sacrificing here by sticking with the childish url. but you just had to tell the world about it didn't you? but yeah, thanks for not stating it was a blog -..-

i don't know who you are but i will find you and i will... buy you a cup of tea.

like i said, buy you a cup of tea.

at first i was thinking about asking the admin of Intec Confession to remove that post, but maybe i should just act cool and let it be. maybe nobody cares, yeay!.... hoping no curious college mate and nosy stranger googles it. i already hide my blog from google, so nobody will find a direct link. however, my junior blogged about me and mention my full name and include my link so if anyone googles my name they will find her blog and then mine. my dear junior akak already asked you to remove my full name in your post did you notice? please do it asap, thanks honey. in fact just recently somebody googled my name looking for my blog. not cool. and what you did, the confessor, also not cool, ok.

why don't i want people to read my blog now you ask? because i don't want people to know things about me. because i don't want them to know how i think. because i am embarrassed and reserved eceh. because some people think they know me enough to hate me or like me just by reading my blog. because i don't want any drama anymore. because just because laaah.

anyway, if you do read this blog, and if you do know me, at least that's what your confession is implying, you would know that lately i have grown to desire, even more accurate, require, this blog's confidentiality, in other words, my privacy (despite it not being private but that's another story). i guess maybe you haven't sworn to secrecy? i know, you meant it well. probably. and i appreciate it, i do :) but i would appreciate it more if you did preserve my anonymity, as you did yours.

i don't know who you are, seriously. i can guess, though. 

the first person that crossed my mind is somebody i crossed off almost immediately. and indeed i was wrong, maybe, if you didn't lie to me (you, because if you read this it meant you lied). but i don't think it was that person. because that person swore to not read this blog anymore. i have trust issues, but i trust that person. another reason why i think it's somebody else is because of what the confessor said.

we want to do Conan now? ok bring it on.

1. if it's somebody from intec, the list of people who know my blog is very short. those who knew about it before i met them in intec, those i told about the blog to, and those who found it; by accident or because you stalked me for it, and you told me that i was busted. unless there are people who know about my blog, but i don't know about it. so i think if anyone from intec made the confession, it's these people i can't track down. 

2. what made me think the confessor isn't from intec is because of what they said. they don't get they way i study? it sounded like somebody from my high school, or who has been reading my blog for a long time, or probably someone i just know who has read my old blog posts. that's how they know how i study. they probably meant to say that my results didn't reflect my bad study habit... but it was said in a nice way so i don't mind. although, the following line saying i'm here in intec made it sound like it was an intec student after all. intec or not, it's quite insincere of you saying you love my blog when you don't even read the posts in which i said i would like this blog to be personal, that's the only explanation why you didn't act accordingly. unless you didn't because you didn't respect my preference.

3. i have boundaries in doing things? what did you mean? it's true, in some aspects. so i figure you know it because you either know me in person and have experience with me and my boundaries haha, or you just... well, figured it out yourself from my blog posts. this is the reason why i thought that person was the one who made the confession. because that person should know better about me and my boundaries. turned out, not. but what did you mean by boundaries tell me!

fyi, if i'm used to someone, i usually know the way they talk and write. so reading the confessions on that page, sometimes i think i know who makes a confession, or who doesn't, but someone else makes a confession for them, or just fake a confession entirely i don't know why, maybe they're just trying to be an ass.

so yeah. dear mr/miss confessor, just leave a comment and tell me who you are, i won't bite. okla if you're afraid of me biting you or buying you a cup of tea you could just leave a comment about whether my attempt to be Conan was a success or a failure. whether i was right or wrong.

geez these silent readers are freaking me out. thanks for reading though :) but don't read silently and talk about it publicly!

please don't do that again, anyone :( Allah sees you :( i'm gunna tell me mommy :(

ok thanks, tata.