sometimes i'm gonna have to loose, but please dont.

LET ME ESCAPE A DAY LA, PLEASE DOWH. TOO MANY PEOPLE BRINGS TOO MUCH SOURNESS, ALONE OR TWO IS JUST FINE.

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as my days are horse-galloping towards PMR, i seem to be lost a lil bit. no more hari hari semangat membuka buku, baca, latihan, why eh? not like how i used to be, FIRST TWO MONTHS OF SCHOOL. time tu memang lah babe, aku cakap kau, dua bab boleh habes satu hari. bukan nak bangga, but showing how different i am now and then, kenapa? buatpe bangga for something that didnt even last long?

after that, i changed to my old, upsr-hampir-tiba, honeymoon-year, relax-time. just did my revising when exams or tests were about a week to come. aint i suppose to be revising NOW?
deliMMa deliMMa (no spelling error made this time heh).

actually i'm not taking this seriously, my laziness. or i am, but now is not the moment when i really go like, urghhh, i NEED to change. but still, even for thinking the worst doesn't bring out any good. am i too laid back?

sekarang aku nak tengok the irresistable magic box, wallah.

siape tau biodata superman?

semalam aku mimpi pasal mighty minds dowh, for crying out loud. TWICE pulak tu, in different situations. and i can no longer wait for the MCDONALD sponsored by them, terbaek. gosh, i am jumping for this competition yet i am sooooo not ready for it, and i will suck as much as a person can be. but anyway, lets just be optimistic, shall we?

guess what they asked at terengganu state level?

What is this character's name? (Picture of Timon from Lion King)

and

Which planet did the superhero who wears his underpants on the outside orginate from?

like what thee? i am so not into cartoons since i was in kindergarten, and where did superman come from? my guess is mars, well it is i think the most famous planet just yet, besides ours. i have no time to dig answers for past questions, just like i dont have a freaking minute to study for the upcoming kl/selangor state level, darn.

what have i been doing? misteri sepanjang masa.

and a participant from elsewhere said

'ALL THE GENERAL,
SCIENCE AND MATHS KNOWLEDGE
WE CRACKED OUR HEADS TO
MEMORISE WERE USELESS!!
WHAT THE FISH?'

so i was right. TEAMMATES, mari tumpukan kepada science and mathematic, and google sebanyak mungkin doing extensive research, sebab kalau nak belajar pasal general knowledge kita kena bukak buku pasal filem, superhero komik, dan semua benda pasal dunia ni. just read what we are able to, but make sure it doesnt take our eyes off of the main subjects we know they're gonna ask.

*TIPS INI BUKAN UNTUK TEAM LAEN DALAM KATEGORI MENENGAH BWAH SELAIN TEAM AKU, HARAP MAKLUM. hehehe.

if they ask about harry potter though, no doubt i will emerge as the state winner xD



ohterbaek! : harry potter is on 16 july yo!!! pmr, mighty minds or even H1N1 cant stop me from running into the cinema, seriously. agaknya ok tak kalau aku masuk panggung pakai penutup muka yang kembung tu?

one's participation is another one's present.

tahniah!!! kerana anda telah dengan rajinnya meninjau blog saya yang berbau belacan ini.
untuk menghargai jasa anda, anda kini telah diberi peluang untuk menyertai satu pertandingan yang saya anjurkan. masuk free, jika anda berjantina lelaki. pompuan sila bayar 10 dirham.

permainannya begini ya.
anda dikehendaki memikirkan setiap jenis perkataan sumpahan dan carutan yang wujud di atas muka bumi ini, tidak kisahlah drpd zaman mana, negara ape, dan perkataan rasmi atau tidak.

mula!













oi every humanbeing that seems to piss me off lately whoever whereever you are,
thanks for making my day suck and these swear words these readers are thinking are meant precisely for you people, have a very good day.

The Snack Shack II

MEMANDANGKAN DUA CLASSMATES SAYA IAITU SI BEDAH DAN JENAB eh asal aku batak tulis besar besar nih. ok memandangkan mereka berdua dah mencapai tahap boiling boint sebab perangai budak laki kitorg, eh poyo pula. budak laki KELAS KITORG yg TUTT, tapi bukan semua lah. contohnye aku suke je berklasmate dengan due pupu baru (syok sendiri). aku pon nak turut same serta dalam misi mengutuk classmate sendiri lah tapi in a less emo version, hofkos.

kenape? sebab aku dah faham sangat dah perangai budak laki ni so aku pon lantaklah mereka nak jalani kehidupan sedemikian yang dibenci oleh kaum hawa, bukan aku nak kawen ngn dorg pon. lagipun aku tadelah benci dorg, sebab aku dah biase ngn laki mcm ni. kire lulus lah bab mereka ni, bak datang satu. fuaaa konfiden.

PALING PENTING AKU BUKAN SEXIST YA.

alkisahnya tersurat tadi apabila perempuan di kelas naklah berbincang mengenai gerai yang akan dibuka. mula-mula beberapa masalah timbul sebab kelas kitorg hampir semuorg nak masuk explorace yang bernilai 500 RINGGIT MELESIA tu tapi masalahnya lagi hampir separuh kelas tidak akan berada di sekolah pada hari karnival. 6 org termasuk aku akan bertarung nyawa di mighty minds (overover), 3 pengakap perempuan yang bersemangat akan ke compori, dan seorg mamat poyo akan jaga PA.

jadi bakinya yang available ialah 12 orang je. woih. konon2 nak pompuan satu team explorace, lagi satu team, berjuang demi kelas bersama. tapi takkanlah dua org je akan jage stall? kalau yg nak jage tu tak segan silu sebab rakan setugas berlainan jantina tade hal. tambahan pula stall kami akan laris lebih laris drpd disko hari tu nanti, manela cukup tangan.

tapi kami letak itu tepi, dan rasenya budak pompuan terpaksa mengalah tak masuk explorace sebab lelaki kot. cis. maka kami pon blur nak jual ape, dan budak pompuan dah siap tulis2 dekat papan hitam lagi idea dan kami sangatlah MENGAPPRECIATE GILA KALAU PIHAK LELAKI BEKERJASAMA MEMBANTING TULANG MEMERAH OTAK MENYUMBANG IDEA, LAGI APPRECIATE IDEA KAU WALAUPUN TAK SEBERAPA DRPD IDEA AKU YANG MAHA HEBAT NIH sebab kami tahu amat susah untuk pihak lelaki fokus dekat pihak perempuan dan berfikir untuk memajukan kelas, jadi sekecil2 buah fikiran pon dah bwat my eyes watery u no.

tapi malangnye mereka diam tak sampai 1 tahun cahaya je jarak masenya, lepastu mula membluekan diri dan maen roket baling2 merentas angkasa kelas pulak dah. rase mcm nak sekeh, tapi sebab mereka lelaki batas sentuhan perlulah ade.

budak pompuan laen dah hot bertambah emo, aku maseh rilek sebab this is a normal thing la dengan lelaki kan. lagi kau marah lagi dorg nak selamatkan ego, lagi bertambah menyakitkan hati. tetiba dengar suare laki ckap

"budak pompuan nak conquer je"

dan adelah jugak budak laki nak sumbangkan pendapat tapi tenggelam dek bunyi2 blue oleh si NAMA TIDAK DIDEDAHKAN dan oleh gelak tawa seisi kelas termasuk aku *malu malu. aku pon rase kasihan kat mereka, ialah pendapat mereka ditentang mentah-mentah oleh pihak pompuan yang bajet power. kesian idea bernas zul untuk jual spender tak dilayan.

KAMI TAK BAJET POWER YA, KAMI SERIUS NAK BERBINCANG DENGAN KAMU SEMUA TAPI LIHATLAH KECHILDISHAN KAMU SEMUA, MANA KAMI TAK MELENTING TOLONGLAH SERIOUS KAU NIH TAKDE SENTIMENTAL VALUE LANGSUNG KE???

tiba tiba aku rase dejavu. macam pernah ku lalui cuma saat ni kurang dramatik dan melodramatik dan tragik je berbanding saat sila tekan sini (bahagian bawah ye).

tetiba ustaz datang, and all the endlessly chaos perished into nothingness.

nilah malas nak speaking tetiba berliterature bahahahaa
*muntah tu sila cover.

mase tengah boring-boring belajar (belajar dalam kelas boleh pulak boring eh, sila jangan teladani), aku terdapat idea yang bernas. weh hazirah be honestla and dont take the credit all to yourself, i was the one who PRACTICALLY invented THE *rahsie* ek and came out with all the nonsense ideas and was UNBELIEAVABLY INNOVATIVE to have turn a *rahsie* into a completely new *RAHSIE*. ECECEH. BUT IF things go wrong the blame is on the others, siape suruh sangat naif dan desperate menerima idea yang NAMPAK MACAM bernas walhal tidak pernah dicuba oleh satu manusia pon (terbukti otak innovative pergh) dan tidak dijamin selamat oleh mana2 badan kerajaan dan pulak tu dicadang oleh orang yang barely pandai masak pon.

dan kalau ape-ape terjadi aku akan dengan innocent nya akan berada sitapak mighty minds challenge pada hari itu mwahahah.

nak tahu ape yang konon hebat sangat nih padahal budak ni saje je batak sebab dapat idea baru untuk memasak bwat pertama kalinya?

SILA DATANG KE GERAI KAMI, THE SNACK SHACK II (pronounce as THE SECOND).

PERINGATAN; hazirah jangan lupa hantar borang stall orang dah promote dengan muka tak malunya di sini.

membaja tahi di kebun sawi.

trivia hari ini; aku online sejak dari (tatabahasa salah) pukul 2.30 tadi yo. sekarang pukul 7.15 lebih kurang dah yo.

tercenganglah kalian kalian yang naif lagi berfikiran sempit yang tergolong dalam kumpulan sengkek yang fikir aku ni nerd sejati walaupun aku pakai speck bila online tu sebab aku rabunlah tapi aku sebenarnya lagi pemalas daripada kalian-kalian semua kahkahkah.

aku benci ok, orang melabel aku dengan sifat2 seorang nerd sejati padahal aku tidak layak pon (macam aku heran). nampak sangat ape yang korang tau orang cam aku yang perform camni camni kat sekolah tu ialah nerd takde life sebab tu je yang korg ever tau pon. korg taktau ade budak hebat genius lagi gemilang gi clubbing malam malam, lagi teruk dari aku, ecececeh. tu maksudnya pada pandangan korg kalau nak jadi orang hebat tu kena berusaha bermati-matian jela, dan korg pon untuk menjadi hebat kena mati sebab berusaha jugak la tu.

claim; aku tak menggelabah or kembang kuncup langsung ye untuk perenggan atas ni. ni untuk mengetuk deria ke dalam kamu je (knock some sense into you).

sebenarnya pagi tadi aku da bangun dengan semangat yang jitu weh, nak blaja ape tah lagi pmr makin dekat dan mighty minds challenge tu dah depan batang hidung aku je. maka dengan itu aku pon berhajat untuk online selama 30 minit lepas sekolah semata-mata untuk mengusha berita mighty minds terbaru malangnya takde, lalu berusaha lagi mengoogle dengan lebih mendalam untuk mendapat lebih banyak info tapi hampa-takde pape berguna. lepastu aku pon onlinelah myspace kejap, sayu tiade sape menegur. kalau ade pon aku malas nak reply comment kaulah, tolonglah faham dowh jangan hantar spam 'hye . . .' banyak2 boleh tak? kemudian aku bace blog orang lain, wah hebatnya mereka.

aku suke bace blog orang because it gives me a new perspective about other people's being tahu? mungkin perempuan yang nampak macam tak semegah ni rupanya berkelulusan tinggi dan mungkin lelaki yang nampak blur ni sebenarnya memikat kalbu dan mungkin seorang yang nampak hot dan glamour pada luarannya sebenarnya sangat baik dan solat lima waktu sehari. thats why aku selalu tak ske bile people tend to come up with personal view like;

"pompuan ni dah lah pakai cenggini mesti taktau adat agama mak bapak tak ajar"

atau diorg tayah cakap, diorg buat muke terkejut or keluarkan tanda seru je. aku bencila.
tolonglaaa open sikit, kau ingat setakat pakai tudung dan tak buat maksiat kire kau dah bagus sangat? mungkin orang tu tak dapat hidayah lagi, tapi believe me they are much better a person than you are, in some specific ways.




shoot. asal lah aku tak reti nak stop?

dowhhhhh ni lah delima dalam rutin harian; sesuatu yg perlu ade.
i will regret not using my time wisely enough, i will promise to my self not to repeat the same mistake again, i will set a target to do this and that, and i will end up not doing it, eventually.

imagine what i could have learnt if i just spent my time from 2.30 pm tadi until now burying my nose in books? PLENTY.

dahlah jangan menangis di sisi susu yang tertumpah dan there's no use blaming yourself when you have knocked yourself down. marilah kita prepare the umbrella before the it rains cats and dogs. takde kena mengena langsung doee. alang-alang take a bath, better get myself wet.

translate; dont cough while u are on the staircase and dont be like the chicken's poop;
its warmth doesnt last long. dalam erti kata lain, habiskan hari ini dengan mengonline.

oh yeah.

aku ponteng lagi ;(

pagi ni sepatutnya aku dah kat sekolaa, menghirup udara pagi yang segar, dengan nasal cavity yang terbuka luas.

tapi aku tidak. aku tengah blogging kat bilik, tidak menghirup udara ape-ape walaupun udara kipas, sebab nasal cavity aku tersumbat.

hadeh, aku ponteng lagi ;(

i have to admit, its cool to have a qualified medical certificate to show to ur class teacher how you
"ohh cikgu, saya tak tipu. saya tak dtg sebab sakit. tengok MC ni, tengok!!!"
takdelah tiap2 kali tak dtg mak kena tulis surat, dan bila ade MC dapatlah kite berehat drpd hari2 belajar di sekolah yang boring kan.

but its NOT COOL bila dah selalu sgt dapat MC. kalau ade MC tapi jiwa sehat dok rumah takpe, ni tidak. tak cool ok, salu sgt tak dtg. bukan semua cikgu tau kenapa aku tak dtg, bukan semua kawan tau kenape aku tak dtg, tau nak condemn aku jee. tiap2 kali org tanye kenapa aku ponteng, aku nak je kasi link blog ni kat dorg-bacela sendiri. buang saliva explain panjang2.

post semalam pasal tonsil; TEKAN SINI BACA.

lagi satu benda aku lemah bila tonsil ni, ubat die punyela banyak. kang kalau tak makan betul2 tak sehat pulak. bila dah makan, tido jela memanjang. tak produktif langsung ok. tak makan kang, buat rugi duit mak aku je beli ubat. aku rase klinik tu pon kaye sebab mak aku la.

dahlah kalau tonsil, orang tak nampak sakit kite. kalau demam, orang boleh rase. kalau selsema, orang boleh nampak. tapi, tonsil? tu pon ramai lagi taktau tonsil tu ape.

takkanlah aku nak kena merungut tiap mase kau kena tonsil kan. sekarang ni pon aku dah rase aku merungut. tengok, tak dpt pahala org sakit.

hari ni dahlah ade subjek penting-penting. terpaksa aku berdikari bukak buku sendiri.
tu pon kalau aku tak high lepas makan ubat tadi.

none other than mighty minds, again.

aku tau tak akan ade org nak bace bnda alah ni kecuali orang yang masuk competition ni aje.
mane mane pon, adalah lebih afdal sekiranya korg bace entry sebelum ni yang masih fresh di post. sila lah tekan sini kalau dah malas sgt nak mengscroll.

ini adalah serba sedikit tentang mighty minds dan tip tip yang aku dapat daripada mengusha internet. objektif utama adalah untuk membantu diri sendiri dan rakan2 sesekolah yang masuk mighty minds. objektif kedua adalah untuk mengfemeskan blog di kalangan contestants satu malaysia, oh yeah.

aku yang pada mulanya nak masuk benda ni atas dasar saje-saje dan nak dapat sijil dan nak challenge and experience baru dan nak berseronok ternyata tak bertahan lama.
sebab walau camne pon aku kate aku tak kesah taknak menang pon,
man,

I AM AN UNBELIEVABLY NATURALLY-BORN COMPETITIVE PERSON there is.

walaupun aku tau aku akan kalah, tapi old habit dies hard.
susah gak doe kadang2 jadi org yang competitive ni, haish.
mane laa aku blaja.

RESEARCH ON THE MIGHTY MINDS CHALLENGE.

1. The idea was to create a mechanism that was reliable and consistent. We didn’t want it to be complicated because more parts mean more chance of a malfunction

2. hands-on challenge as a fun and exciting experience which required efficient teamwork

3. recently done their revision and knew exactly how to go about the task of constructing a portable water purifier using sand, charcoal and crusted corals.

4.

The Star’s F4F5 Physics columnist A. Alagesan, who set the hands-on tasks, emphasised that the challenge did not lie solely in producing the model.

“Some students are able to produce very good models.

“However, if they cannot articulate the concept well, they may still lose out to the other teams,” he added.

5. team members would have group discussions with their mentors to prepare for the competition.

6. Sheer grit, team work and creativity were the main ingredients for the champion teams to secure their places in the national finals

7. “We were also not aware we had to use keypads, so as a result, we only managed to get six out of the 20 questions correct. I regret not reading The Star beforehand or we would have been more prepared.”

8. LISTEN UP! Contest participants, you’ve got to read the task for the RHB-The Star Mighty Minds hands-on challenge carefully or risk being penalised.

9. “We did quite a bit of revision and held several sessions of group discussions with the teachers before we came,”

10. KOTA BARU: A rural school beat fierce competition from several boarding schools to take three of six prizes in the RHB-The Star Mighty Minds 2009 Kelantan state challenge.

“We never thought of winning because we knew that we were up against the boarding colleges but because of the long journey that we had to take, we told ourselves that we would do our very best and not return empty handed,”

11. “Using a keypad to log in our answers is new to me and I only managed to correctly answer six out of the 20 questions posed. Iregret not reading The Star to find out about the first challenge in Malacca or I would have been better prepared,”

12. For some students, it was group prayers at the mall’s surau, while others (read girls!) decided to go shopping to calm their nerves.

13. But for the Kolej Yayasan Saad students who emerged champions in both the categories, sipping cups of whipped-cream-topped Mocha Frap-puccino at a designer coffee bar and going online to do additional research (and playing Solitaire!) while waiting for their turn were part of their winning strategy.

14. Chief judge A. Alagesan, who had set the hands-on challenges, said all the teams did quite well, and it was a close call when it came to selecting the three winning teams.

He advised students to be mindful of the time frame, as many teams could have done a better job working on the functionality of the model instead of labouring long and hard over the aesthetics.

Cases in point were the many highly-creatively designed cars which could not move for the Lower Secondary category and “pretty” lamps that lacked stability or couldn’t light up for the Upper Secondary teams.

“The hands-on challenge encourages students to think differently and find solutions to problems. It is important to think out of the box, an ability many students lack,” he said.

15.

“I am so happy we won because we studied like crazy!”

16. “All we did before the competition was advise our students to read the newspapers, and find out as much as possible about what to expect.

17. We had to make a volcano out of the materials & apparatus they gave us.

18. We had to build a compression weighing machine. And I tell you, it's not easy to come out with a model in an hour and thirty minutes. It took a lot of thinking and creativity.


hope this will help. as oprah winfrey says

"to not do your best is to sin".

saya ada M.C KOT cgu? dan Mighty Minds lagi.

its almost 12 pm, and im blogging from home with a running nose and a jar of PURELY-DISTILLED-UNCONTAMINATED-BACTERIA-FREE water.

camni, i'm at war with my swollen tonsil again. haih. and apart from being malas dan ade hal lain, tonsil might be the main reason kenape aku salu ponteng.

eh, jap. M.C.

aku malas nak cerita penyebabnya because im quite sure ive posted an entry about it, so aku nak ckp di sini yg satu2nya care utk cure tonsil aku ialah melalui pembedahan. cet. kenyataan yang aku akan dua minggu dok hospital dan maybe sebulan M.C amatlah tempting sekali, and will definitely jadi pilihan aku, tapi mungkin ketika aku sekolah rendah(tak masuk darjah 6). harapan lah aku nak ponteng sebulan tahun pmr ni (wahh, godaan), tahun depan pon harapan jugak since form 4 is as important as form 5 is, sebab kena belajar basic2 subjek baru, and maybe aku akan operate time form 5 kalau ade laki kaye datang meminang aku so aku pon tayahlah blaja tinggi2 sebab nak kawen n jadi suri rumah sepenuh mase jaga zuriat.

atau aku hanya akan operate bila aku dah pencen dan menopause, mcm kawan mak aku.

die terpaksa operate sebab bila tonsil je, die dah start demam2. itu petanda yang tonsil anda makin teruk dan dah affect jantung anda, ya. buat mase ni kalau aku tonsil aku tak demam2 lagi, cume selsema je. nauzubillah la. tapi aku percaye my tonsel wont go that far, and allah wont take away a life whose body is not so innocent, and is sinful, and tak buat solat taubat lagi. thats why annoying people tend to live longer than good and saint people. but of course, just an observation and bukan semua org lah. hm. this is why sometimes i want people i love to be a lil bit bad, so that they wont go first.

gila tak?

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aku peliklah. kak nurlin google mighty minds, die dapat past year question, how to do this and that, and mcm2 lagi. aku google, aku dapat official web je nngn web mighty minds yang rupenya satu syarikat publication dictionary kat singapore (oh, itu satu general knowledge!).

maybe not enough effort kot what more with this kind of connection.

petang sabtu tu

[iklan jap; sabtu is a tragic day in my life, and it had been a long time since i cried like hell and felt something i rarely felt befor (or never) and the first time i trembled so much]

sambung sambung.
petang sabtu tu, aku koreklah almari dalam2, last2 berjaya jumpe a set of encyclopedias called 'britannica' bought by my father for my ungrateful BROTHERS years ago.
kenape ungrateful pulak? sebab, set tu mak aku cakap mahal woih. gila mahal bapak aku beli untuk kegunaan anak2 laki die, tapi mak aku cakap dorg tak sentuh pon. yelah, name pon budak lelaki kan. kalau dah ade game belambak2 kat rumah tu dgn satu tv untuk dorg melantak maen game je, ngn skateboard, ngn kereta control, takkan lah dorg nak pilih buku ilmiah.

kalau aku pun aku pilih skateboard. ecehh nak skateboarding pon ukur baju di badan sendiri la kann.

jadi setelah kot2 20 tahun dibeli, segala lapisan habuk pon ada menutupi buku2 tu. lepas dah lap, aku start drpd volume one (ade DUA PULUH volume doe). satu volume je dah lebih kurang 300 muka surat (sumpah aku tak exagerate kat sini). gila lah kan. mcm boleh hafalll jee. pastu malam tu jugak aku habes aku start bace volume two. ahadnye pulak lepas ade life sikit tengok friends back to back dua jam, aku start volume three. ni semua kak nurlin punya godaan lah ni.

bahahaha.

bagaikan aku takde homework teacher pat je, bagaikan aku taknak pmr je kurang 100 hari dari sekarang ni, bagaikan aku takde lapan subjek je menunggu aku untuk blaja. haih.

lepastu seharian ahad semalam aku contact semua budak laki dan pompuan mrsm aku, mintak kat dorh number budak2 yang masuk mighty minds. shoot je. dua org je balas ok. dorg ni pon satu, suka sgt tukar2 nombor la, hape la. last2 aku dapat number elisa.

trivia about the three contestants aka state level winner from MRSM SERTING aka tempat aku dulu;

1. elisa : die ni dulu satu aspuri ngn aku. die homesick gila bapak arh. tetiba kang kau tengok die terbaring kat ceruk surau, menangis2. bila pujuk, taknak lak luahkan. die pernah tanye aku

"amalina, kite dgr awk nak kuar mrsm. family awk kasi ke?"

"kite tak conferm lagilah elisa. bukan kite nak pon kuar mrsm. family kite kasi je lepas tau reason kite. kenape?"

"ape reason awk? awk tolonglaa wak, kasi la idea pape untuk kite kuar mrsm. kite dah tak tahan dah ni. kite memang nak kuar sangat tapi parents kite tak kasi laa. tolonglaa"

gila tak? kesian die kan. well elisa, lihat lah kau berjaya jadi state winner sekarang. kalau bukan kerana aku tak kasi kau alasan yang munasabah untuk blah, engkau mesti skg dok kat rumah macam aku kena usaha sorg2 untuk mighty minds tu.

2. ummi : die ni roommate aku doe dulu. kire paling dekat ar. die mmg pandai, nerd, tak boleh buat lawak sgt ngn die, serious, dan yang sewaktu dengannya. die juga tak pernah backup aku bila aku gaduh ngn roommate yg tercinta, die takot kena majal lah tu. tapi tape, halal je lah.

3. acap RADZI (bukan acap awi, fuh) : die ni dulu homeroom ngn aku doe. kitorg salu compare ranking ngn pointer dulu. die mcm budak2, sikit transformers2 siap main tembak2 gune tangan lagi. tulah salah satu sifat budak pandai yg korg taktau-bukan semua kena nerd je.

sambung sambung.

aku msg elisa siang, pastu die tak reply. aku dah mcm, the last hope is gone with the wind.

last2 pukul 11 semalam, die reply yo! die ckp die pon tak well prepared sgt. maen pegi je. and die tak amek pon contoh2 drpd sem type kat mrsm. sem type ni pesta science, yang setiap orang akan ade kumpulan masing2, dan setiap orang akan invent bnda baru atau buat penemuan baru (ala ala student Ph.D lah konon) dan ade orang yg akan buat model pasal science tujuan nak tunjuk dengan lebih jelas mcmane principe science tu berfungsi. aku ingat lagi dulu group abang firdaus buat rocket. ceh. nak ingat pon abang firdaus je eh.

sembang punye sembang, dapatlah conclusion nya. die cakap;

1. kalau jadi top 5, kena present projek. mase present tu kena cakap ngn confident.

huraian aku; mungkin kalau taktau ape kejadah aku buat pon, aku kena present dengan muke yakin dan sengih2 je atas stage tuh. (that is something i do when i have brain breakdown mase kat depan orang. kahkah).

2. tumpukan je topik form 1 sampai form 3 untuk math and science. die kate general knowledge takleh agak soalan die tapi taklah susah sgt.

huraian aku; memang tumpukan kat math and science tulah motto aku untuk mighty minds nih, tapi tu sebelum kak nurlim mengrevealkan past year question kat blog die. sebelum aku tau tu pon aku dah tanam; alaa. general knowledge might be about anything, so why dont try our best kat something yg mmg kite blaja dan masuk pmr lak tu kan. but after i knew the kind of question they ask, terus aku 'whoaa, tukar plan'.

3. untuk hands-on challenge, ikot je ape soalan nak.

huraian aku; maybe maksudnya jgn nak cuba care sendiri dan beranggapan kite punya care lebih hebat daripada arahan kot.


tu je lah yang aku dapat drpd a WINNER. sebab die byk terangkan pasal care competition tu berlangsung. anyway, THANK YOU VERY MUCH ELISA!!!


lepastu die kate "hope we can meet at national level", which i silently "ha-ha".
ha-ha meant i was laughing and also meant 'harapan' which brings about the meaning of 'jangan berharap'. janganlah optimis sangat nak menang weh, tau takkkk, pemenang untuk melaka dah KOLEJ YAYASAN SAAD.

trivia sampingan pasal kolej tersebut; dulu aku hampir nak masuk dah. sekian.

dan pemenang untuk negeri sembilan pulak MRSM SERTING. durh. semua asrama asrama punya jenis sekolah. laenla kalau sekolah aku walaupun tak asrama tapi sekolah bandar yang elit lagi berprestij dengan bantuan guru2 bolehla aku yakin sikit nak menang.

thinking of our rivals. schools like alam shah, seri puteri, mrsm kuala kubu bharu, sekolah sains yang merata2 bersepah2 tu, victoria institution lagi, convent lagi, methodist lagi, macam2 lah.

dahla bace article pasal sekolah2 yang menang tu semua kan, semua winner and contestants buat headline mcm

"kami ketepikan perkisa mid year untuk bnda alah ni, and we've won!"

"we've been studying from the start of the year, and it paid off"

"the teachers have been a great help in guiding us to build macam2 jenis model"

"aldo we suck at our school examination, but we dont suck at this state level!"

gila.

tapi takpe, back to my volume three of britannica.

a bag of latest issues; Mighty, Jacko, and the FLU.

entry ni sepatutnya dipost semalam;

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thanks to kak nurlin, kali ni aku betul betul sedar pasal Mighty Minds tu.

soalan mcm gilaaaaaaaaa lah. seriously. ya allah. dan aku tak ready pape lagi.

mostly not ready for general knowledge, no idea of what to read? where to start?
yelah general knowledge kan like probably keluar pasal the whole world ONLY.

serious gila. kali ni betul betul  nampak langit itu sangat tinggi dan tidak rendah.
(ape pon yg lagi rendah dari aku? gahaha)

since connection is so unbelievably frustrating, AGAIN, so i cant use the online encyclopedia every single day kan. what i have to do now is just read math and science. which, neither i have done with much determination. hanya menghighlight mane2 bab yang tak disentuh lagi je.

gosh there is absolutely not a tiny possibility for me to win this. but i take it as something fun and not something i have to burn my midnight oil for. its a new challenge, a new experience for me. and the best yet i know would happen is that contestants will be eating mouthwatering nikmat dunia sponsored by McDonald. hahhh.

dahlah esok ujian. gila sekolah ni. hari cuti korg buat ujian. wajarlah kan kalau aku tak belajar pape pon lagi. friday is a lepak day lah, the start of a weekend.

tapi kang kalau aku buat perangai mereng aku tak blaja, result turun nanti dah dikecam oleh orang-orang yang tak puas ati tgk hidup aku senang.

terpaksalah bace sikit. tu pon malam ni. kain2 yang terendam dalam baldi tu dah lame menjerit dengan makian suruh aku basuh mereka. yelah, yelah.

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tribute to MICHAEL JACKSON, an idol which wrote a history for the world of his own, one of the greatest entertainer that can never be replaced by anyone.

i was really shocked to find out about his sudden death, and somehow i feel sad for him. maybe it was out of pity, seeing his pathetic life; from on-the-top-of-the-world superstar until what had he became on his deathbed today. it must had been so awful living as michael jackson, i applaud him for being so strong given how much suffer and issues he had to face.

imagine if we were him, what would we do???
i bet some of us were already overmedicated thinking how we were being evicted from our mansion, i bet some of us have already drank pesticides thinking how our great life once and great experiences had to be sold so that we could afford to buy half of our mansion back,
i bet some of us have been laying on the railway, thinking how our habit of loving children could be the reason for us to be nearly convicted by the act of sexually harming young children.
i bet some of us have already carved our face with a knife thinking how more wrong could we be by making hideous plastic surgery.

he was superbly strong, man.

even the plastic surgery he underwent wasnt because he hated to be a black or something.
i have long known that firstly he wanted to do a nosejob only, but badly after that he had some skin disorder which reduced his skin pigment. being a billionaire and not a muslim who would go to hell by changing physical appearance, why not he change his skin colour terus? he thought his skin would be fine again, and he would have a better look.
but who knew the plastic surgery had failed and one thing led to another, one failure led to another surgery, and every surgery had made him look nothing but awful and scary.

kesian, seriously. imagine the pain and regret he felt, if only he didnt do those things.
i believe the regret and the pain of unable to undo a thing that cost almost all your life hurts much than experiencing thousands of surgery.

what more when he was charged abusing kids, and did oral with them. Rasenya die pon dituduh meliwat jugak. He pleaded guilty and was free of all chargers but that didn’t mean he didn’t have like 20 million dolar to pay for the court issue.

i just pity him doe, he was used of being wealthy and famous and lovable and people would cry when seeing him on stage, but later he had to face false accusations, being hated by his fans, and he would melt when his skin wasnt in good condition, especially not good with sunlight.

know about the time when he had to be taken to a hospital by an ambulance during his stage show? it was due to the melting of his face, if im not mistaken. Or something involving his skin lah for sure.

kesian.

his death brought about the same atmosphere just as when JFK died. hundreds of his devoted fans boleh bercamping lagi depan hospital yang tengah bedah siasat die. Ape tah lagi from all the people around the globe. they were shocked.
tanyelah mana2, sape2 pon, semua kenal die.
cube tanya mak aku kenal tak taylor swift? tak dapat.

Michael Jackson was the first black who was a phenomenon, able to reach success in THE STATES, where black dudes usually weren’t given the chance to be on top of white people. Wayyyy before oprah winfrey. Wayyy before tiger woods, even wayyyy before barrack obama.

with his mistakes or without it, he had touched people's lives in many different ways.

plus, rumors said he had converted into islam, but i dont know whether it is true or not. channel berita melayu kat astro ni siap cakap yang die gi haji last year. and abang die yang bwat press conference about michael's death, ended his speech with
"may allah always be with him"
dengarnya macamtu. i hope so. i cant help feeling sad for non muslims yang baek; it is a shame they are not muslims. if they were, some of them dah tentu jadi lebih baek dan perfect drpd muslim sebenar mcm aku ni.

I am not a fan of him, tapi michael jackson tu uncomparable doe. Personally I think takde musician or artist yang macam die or elvis-type-of-people zaman sekarang ni. Name it, but he was the end of an era, the end when people went hysteria and passed out during his stage performance. Berapa ramai pon artist Hollywood sekarang dengan macam2 jenis lagu, they are nothing kot.

it is weird for me to talk about him like this, but is that a wrong thing?

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H1N1 has increased very abruptly in malaysia. if im not mistaken (harini tak bace paper),
4 schools stay closed, while maybe 3 schools have had some of their classroom quarantined.

'orang orang atasan' said if the matter are to get worse, all the schools in malaysia would be closed. yeay. i'm tired of normal, borink days sampai bnda serious mcm ni pon aku nak gembira.

the thing is, kenape sekolah perlu ditutup, tapi kenape tempat kerja tidak ditutup?
doesnt it seem relevant on what i am conveying here?
work place is still a dangerous place, as much as school is. why? is it because people are employed to work, thus they dont have any right to take safety measures? or they do, but then they have to be unpaid? or fired?

even if the son is quarantined at home and positive not infected by the flu, still his parents are free to go to public places such as work and supermarkets. that would make them equally threatened with the disease. it would be either his mom or dad that would bring home the virus, and contaminate the whole family, whether his son undergo a quarantine or not kan?

entahlah, i'm just worried of swine flu. if any of my family member, relatives, friends or associate is infected, i swear i would kill every living pig in the whole world. even if the flu isnt actually their fault.

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update harini;

OMG. aku baru tau yg MRSM SERTING, menang lower secondary untuk state level dalam mighty minds. its on the net. goshhh. aku kenal mereka2 yg masuk tu. they were my friend, and i talked to them once. same batch ngn aku. goshhh.

takleh banyak pressure lagi keeeeee?

dude aku takkan menang first round pon.

cikgu kat mrsm serting tu semua tolong budak2 yang masuk tu. grrh.

dan aku?

terkebil2 sorg2 depan pc yang internetnya mcm haram.

aku taktau mane nak start, aku taktau nak search ape dlm online encyclopedia,

hell!

MightyVAL.

tahu tidak?
mighty mind competition yang akan aku masuk tu same hari dengan karnival amal pibg sekolah.

dua2 hari. 18 and 19 july. dua2 hari ade mighty mind, dua2 hari ade karnival.

tidakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.
kenapekenape? dua bnda aku paling tak sabar2 menunggu, dua bnda yang agak best akan aku lalui, dua2 pada hari yang same. kenapeeeeeeee???

akak2 form 5 yang masuk tu siap dah tarik diri dah tak silap aku, sebab nak join karnival puas puas. school leavers lah katekan.

dahla mase karnival nanti kelas nak bukak stall, sabar je lah.
dah tentu tentu tak masuk untung nanti. ye la pelarisnya takde.

aku lah tu.
bahaha.

memang banyak bnda aku akan rugi kalau tak gi itu karnival. siyes arh. sedikit terkilan la jugak. hadoiii. tak dpt menayang diri di stall. tak dpt kecoh2 bawak dulang gi merata2 promote barang jualan. tak dpt pakai apron. tak dpt makan barang jualan free2. tak dpt nak buat perjanjian ngn stall laen; kau beli barang aku aku beli barang kau. tak dpt tengok farabi sorg je lelaki yg tolong kat stall nnt. tak dpt ni, tak dpt tu, tak dpt gi karnival. haih.

dahla last year ngn kelas tercinta, and ade la jugak sebab laenn. . . . .

heh heh heh heh.

selama beberapa minggu before dua tarikh tersebut, sekolah mesti happening. ade orang akan practise kawad, ade practise nasyid. ade bincang untuk stall. ade beli barang, jual barang, bawak barang, lukis iklan, kaler poster, tampal merata2.

tapi aku? aku akan practise ngn buku science and math. takpelah.

tapi, mighty mind bukan calang2 wooo. rugi kalau lepaskan peluang keemasan tuhh.

memang aku dah confirm masuklah. sebab, mighty mind tu ade banyak level. kalo menang, gi level atas siket. kalau kalah, dapat sijil drpd new straits time pon dah cukup sangat.

kalau kalah pon ade bonus; takde la selamanyaa dua hari tu aku nak terikat ngn mighty mind. boleh gi karnival. yeayyy.

aku tengah consider untuk kalahkan diri ni.
win-win situation.

lagipon aku rase kalau aku yg masuk competition tu, percubaan untuk kalahkan diri dengan sengaja takdelah susah sgt. kemungkinan besar akan kalah sendiri tanpa niat.

mase dan kreditku terbuang.

aku benci kau aku benci kau.
dah lame aku tak fikir pape pasal kau.
pastu kau muncul mcm hantu malam2 ni,
tapi takde makna.
buat semak otak je.

sia sia.



baek hantu betul datang.


ok celupar gila. atok, nenek maafkan patik.







ade siape2 nak nyanyikan aku lagu Kristy Are You Doing Okay oleh The Offspring?

i'm a durian. nyummy yet biting.

i dont want to be just a durian, the king of fruits.

i want to be THE durian, with a matching stiletto heels, a diamond tiara on my head, lipstick on my lips and an mp3 in my pocket.
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post yang pendek di sini.
sebab aku tengah sebok mendownload lagu.
ape lagi lagu baru yang sedap ek?

btw, tomorrow i'll be going to the, erh, somewhere,
untuk penyampaian hadiah for the essay i've won.

i am the only student who is going.
siot, man. how come? how could i survive the journey?
i will definitely look pathetic.
awkward silence is the only one which will accompany us. greatt.
takpe, tulah gunanya mp3 dengan lagu yang banyakkan,
especially the new ones.

i'm done here. ingat nak tulis something panjang and berguna, terutama internet tengah laju dengan gemilang ni, tapi tiba2 malas pulak.

well i'm done here.

a fact; technically i think i was the only one who entered the menulis karangan sempena minggu mencegah jenayah competition thingie, so thats how i won the prize ;D

LAPAN A.

ya allah ya allah ya allah.
two weeks has ended today. two weeks of fooling around has ended. a period which i supposed to use it 'wisely', studying every minute of the time. two weeks that i'm sure my friends have had the liberty of spending every hour revising. and two weeks in my case of doing nothing.

i know there's no use crying over a spill milk. but frankly i dont regret, that regret if u know what i mean. i dont want to miss the fun, i dont want to miss my teen moment. i have had two weeks of stalking some of my friends myspace who dont even talk to me anymore, two weeks of making up my mind what to do with him, two weeks of hugging and kissing my malmal gemokk, two weeks of texting with my bestfriend and hearing his problems, two weeks of doing nothing but living and kicking.

and now school is about to start, and i have to set my mind to climb up the mountain. i know i havent give much of an effort to get 8 As, i know him and her have surely done everything whereas i'm stuck here being 'alive', i call it. but at least, i did normal things everyone should do during the holidays, and i WILL do and pull my best try to be serious starting tomorrow.

walaupun aku sangat malas, that will not be the reason i wont get 8 As. i am surprisingly and worryingly overoptimistic now, but i guess thats just a start of a day of a girl who sees nothing but her future. i AM going to the states no matter what although it is very unlikely now, but i'll do what it takes. ceh dramatic.

i have had my ups. and i have had my downs. will face another tomorrow i think. i dont really care about what my mid year result says, but i will try hard to turn a deaf ear towards stinky mouths which will condemn my mistakes and make me regret over every step i have taken. you are not me, so why even bother? dont u should be thankful that i dont get as good as i did before, and that gives u a chance to have your ups? thats the spirit i want.

hope this wont be temporary. although i dont say it often. although i goof around so much. although i'm not as serious and as studyhead as some of my fellows are,
i know i want this than anyone in the world. for so many reasons.

amin.



now get back to my homework.

EmArEsAm. Serting.

i asked hazirah what to blog today. sebab ilham haram tade. what people say is true. to be a real writer you dont just write, you write with your heart. okay technically i made that up.

blimey, i have a quote!!!

gahahahaaaa. yelah selama berblogging ni aku dah jmpe beberapa quote best yang aku sendiri tulis secara tak sengaja. dan semuanya terletak di category 'words and saying'.
seperti yang telah diquotekan, beberapa entry aku sendiri aku rasa best sebab pada mase tu mood menulis menyusup dalam kalbu, dan aku juga jumpa beberapa entry tak best daripada aku sendiri bila menulis nak tangkap muat je. contohnya entry bawah ni (sila scroll bawah). time ni aku tergopoh gapah sikit dan desperate nak menulis sampai hasilnya jadi takbest.

tapi sekarang aku dah relax, takde benda nak bwat (yo-yo-o je, homework Bi banyak lagi tuh, pmr nak dekat, blaja tak habes, latihan belum buat . . .)

takpe kite lupakan itu dulu ya. jangan pula jadi seperti mengejar ayam di laut ikan di tangan keciciran (serious aku lupa peribahasa sebenar ni, haih).

hazirah pun cadangkanlah blog pasal cameron atau kelas. tah mengapa, ilham untuk berblog pasal cameron takde. atau auranye dah ilang. jadi aku nak blog pasal kelas. bukan kelas 3cem1, tapi kelas 1 al-faraby di mrsm dan sepupu sepapatnya. aku sangat berniat tamau budak mrsm bace ni woh. harap2 diorg tak usha profile aku dan terdiscover blog ni. serta, harap2 ejen carian di google tak dedahkan rahsia aku, amin ramai2.

kenape taknak?? sebab aku akan dedahkan saat kegedikan (hofkos bukan semua) aku dan pasal kawan2 aku, BRIEFLY lah. tapi still aku takkan bocorkan rahsia kat serting yg amat menyengat dan menyakitkan. kalau boleh aku nak cerita, tapi aku ragu2. siapa yg tau, taulah. biarlah kat sini aku cerita benda2 yang happy je kan.

okay. kelas aku kelas al faraby, singkatnya af. presidennya ialah FARHAN. farhan ni time baru sekelas ngn die, sumpah aku menyampah. baran bapak arh, memang asek mengamuk je. sikit2 menjerit, mengamuk die bukan maen2 wo, ni memang mengamuk hilang akal. muahahah. deskmate aku si irah, memang cam cibai sikit. die melawan paan ape ntah, paan hot siap balik penselbox besar lengan kat arah irah, hampir2 nak kene aku. tapi lame2 die okayla jugakk. aku pon lupe asal lame2 baran die kurang, malah tetiba nampak charming di mata aku. bahahaha. time khb mase nak cek buku latihan, kitorg salu random exchange buku. salu buku aku terdapat kat die, buku die terdapat kat aku. sama2 lak tu . . hahaha good coincidence. and adela aku ingat time minggu aktiviti sem 2, klasmate smue berhimpit2 lukis banner merdeka. nak menang ni, tak kesah dah laki pompuan. pastu paan masuk sebelah aku. guilty pleasure babeyh ;D zaman jahiliyah. gahaaa. then die blah sebab nak amek cat. pastu ade budak replace die, die datang die cakap kat budak tu "weh kau ni masuk line aku arh. kacau je".

tak semena2 aku perasan sorg2 time tu. hahaa. for sure paan maksudkan bnda laen, aku plak poyo tetiba. kesian. and pastu aku banyakla jugak dapat group same ngn paan, kene teamwork ngn die. aku mentor die dalam mentor mentee, pastu kitorg group same dlm sivik. best weh =D

naib presiden lak MIAA. mia ni die macam kecoh2, bajet kasar punya pompuanla. die dulu maybe tak kesah pasal pape, handsock tak pakai, lengan terkeluar2. kat serting weh, mane bleh kan. tapi satu bnda aku kagum pasal die. die mcmtu pon, die takbuat masalah ngn sape2. die tak ngumpat, majal sape2. ala setakat gosip2 berkumpulan saje2 ngutuk tu biasela kan. tu pon kdg2 die senyap je, die tak campur. tp kalau yg serious busuk hati mmg xpnah. die kasar, tapi hati lembut sebenarnya. mase aku nak kuar, die over gila nangis, muke merah padahal kitorg classmate je kot? rapatla tp takde la cam aku ngn fasha. die ade click sendiri. paling penting, wpon tak pakai handsock ke, lipat lengan ke, die solat memang aku respect la. subuh hari2 kat surau. kdg2 aku pon tak. setiap waktu die kat surau. daripada certain budak yg pakai handsock kat maktab tu, yang tudung labuhla apela, ramai je yg busuk hati, buat fitnah, layan fitnah, solat tinggal, menipu period, layan abang2, mesej manja ngn laki kat maktab. i mean common ar. org da ingat kau alim gila, sekali jmpe mcm2 kat fon kau. kalau ye pon tunggula kat luar maktab kan. mcm mia, die nmpk je tak semegah. tapi sebenarnya lagi baek dr yang konon menutup aurat penuh tu. see, this is what i meant by saying each person is ready to compromise at different levels, kalau die tak pakai tudung maybe die mengaji tiap2 kali lepas solat untuk dptkan hidayah. yg pakai tudung tu buat ke mcmtu?

then ade FASHA. die ni mmg paling rapat ngn aku kot sepanjang kat serting. ngumpat bersama, nangis bersama, call mak hari2 bersama. bilik die ngn aku laen, jauh2. so aku salu lepak kat bilik die jela. esp bila gaduh ngn roommate KESAYANGAN tu, mmg aku masuk bilik bila nak tdo je la. kat bilik die tu ade roommate die yg perangai tak berapa nak semegah tapi best2 n baek2. fasha ngn aku ni org ckp mke same. dulu siap org konfius lagi. tapi die lagi hot kot. ataupun sbb die layan abg2 ngorat, aku pon taktau. aku kan low profile je. bwekk. fasha ni mmg jenis brutal sikit, ske gaduh ngn orang, ckp lepas, berani la kirenya. die dulu masuk pertandingan taekwondo. lawan ngn skolah laen termasuk skola sukan. dlm skola kitorg under 15 kot, die sorg je menang emas. aku ade time tu. gila laa aku bersorak untuk die. mase die menang, mate aku lak berair. haha. rindu gila. lagi ape ek. kalau ade jualan2 yang hantar tu, kitorg mmg salu barter ah. haha. die sorg je kot tau pasal sme masalah aku. org len tau siket2 je. bila aku terkena, tgh berhingus, pintu bilik die la aku ketuk. fasha, aku syg kau, aku rindu kau, dan aku harap kau stay mcm dulu. kau jgn ckp kau berubah sbb aku da kuar do :(

HAYATO :)) my favourite guy. haha. budak ni baek je, name die azman arif hayato. aku panggil die toto. die dok depan aku, sblah lili yg name asalnya fadhli. haha. die separuh jepun, sumpah comel dowh. dan die sangat, sangat innocent aku rase. mase perjumpaan homeroom die, mak jepun die pnah kasi msg kat ayah homeroom die, ckp dgn bahasa melayu yg sangat baku. mak die suruh tolong hayato dalami adat melayu ngn agama islam, mcm2la. sangat comel. haha. dulu diela budak kundang aku time rehat. aku salu kasi die note time cgu tengah mengajar, dlm note tu ade duet pastu suruh die belikan breakfast untuk rehat. hee. aku belanjalah die skali. kalau aku suruh die letak sambal penuh polisterine tu, die letak. kalau aku suruh die kipas pakcik kafe kasi ayam kecik free, die buat. sangat baek die tu :D. and time kat maktab dulu harry potter kuar. pastu aku suruh die gi carik semua gambar n keratan akhbar pasal harry potter. die buat weh. gila sayang die. haih. kitorg jugak salu ngade2 adekan scandal sendiri. die pnah kelip mata kat aku kan. pastu aku pon layan jelah. tiap kali baru jmpe ke, nak balik ke, kitorg akan kelip mata. kelip mata kat kitorg tu maksudnya mcm hai atau bai atau saje2 la kot. irah ngn aril salu je kenenkan kitorg. sikit2 hayato ama. tapi kitorg kebal kot. haha. die pon pnah barter ngn aku time senior jual stokin yg dlm die ade gula2. aku amek dua2 stokin, toto amek dua2 gula2. die baek sangat. will never find another friend like him :)

then there's lili aka FADHLI. die ni memang klaka. die bahasakan diri die 'kite' tapi die bahasakan diri orang 'kau'. bayangkanla kalau die ckp camne. "eh kau dah dpt dah buku yg kite kasi tu?". kahkah. dahla laki. tapi die memang baekk. die dok depan aku, tepi dinding. kat maktab, langsir memang panjang gila stock langsir kat rumah tu. lili salu maen ngn langsir tu. bila die tido je mesti die tutup muke ngn langsir tu. haha aku ingat lagi mase budak2 laki sme gelabah dpt cte cgu firdaus (cgu kaunseling) nak cek rambut, sme masuk toilet time prep petang bawak gunting. cam sial je potong rambut sendiri guna gunting kertas. haha. banyakla time tu rambut keluar toilet cam sakai drpd elok je hensem2. si lili ni die suruh homeroom sib aku aka roommate die iaitu adhwa haqeem aka qem potong rambut die. si qem ni mmg bangang sikit. die potong rambut lili sampai sebelah sideburn hilang. bayangkanla muke die camne time tu. die malu gilaa la haha. pastu kat kelas salu bajet nak tutup sideburn die yg hilang dgn langsir panjang tu. kahkah. haiya. die pon ade rahsie besar yg aku simpan. rahsie yg mmg betul2 rahsie, bukan setakat pasal crush je. taktau ape jadi ngn rahsia die skg. lili, lili.

IRAH, my deskmate. die memang terlampau byk nak describe. die gila2, bangang, cam tut, joker, muke tak malu, bajet alim pakai handsock segala tapi banyak je perkara sial die salu buat. haha. kitorg dulu mmg rilek je gune perkataan cmni. tu la namenya rapat ;) die mmg bajet n poyo tak terkata terlampau banyak contoh sampai aku malas nak cte. tapi die sgt motherly. terutama bila aku ade problem, aura homesick dtg, bila aku ckp nak kuar mrsm, sifat die yg satu tu salu dtg bserta nasihat yg aku salu anggap bebelan. pernah aku lukis gambar rumah pastu tulis 'home', die nmpk die trus "ahh, amaaaaa," pastu usap2 pipi ngn tepuk2 kepala aku. haha. bila aku dgr lagu feeling cam breakaway and ckp betapa lagu tu dekat dgn hidup aku pastu ckp nak kuar mrsm, die trus serious je. die salu kenekan felix. bila prep je die mulalaa bace sajak cinta kuat2 untuk felix saje bg smorg dengar. felix lak akan mencarut baek pnye dan muke trus merah. haha. she can be said as the heart and soul of the class la jugak. die ade, orang menyampah. die takde, orang rindu. dan die juga boleh jadi sangat over. bila die mula bercakap ngn cgu mintak berkat periksa ke ape ke, mula la keluar sme madah. die juga penah malukan diri sendiri time die masuk pertandingan bahas minggu bahasa. time tu aku bangun lambat n tak sempat tengok bnda ni secara live but thanks to paan, paan salu imitate die depan kelas. camni, irah kan mmg over dan beriya. bila die da depan juri tu die speaking punyala slang, tapi tiba2 die stop. blank. pastu die ckp "sorry i cant do it" depan2 org ramai dan trus lari turun pentas. gila dramatic budak tu. haha. kitorg memang pair sesame naek bas bila cuti sbb kitorg turun kat tempat same yg org laen tak turun; petronas sungai besi. kat bas tu, memang kitorg salu dengar lagu english lama2 zaman 50an, 60an kat mp3 aku. mase aku nak kuar mrsm, time tu die trus speaking2 merayu kat aku takyah kuar. haha. beberapa minggu before aku nak kuar tu aku agak tak ok ngn die sbb die percaya org laen dan bukan aku, die backup orang laen dan salahkan aku, padahal die tau orang yg die backup tu camne. kecewa la. tapi tape. pernah satu ahad tu aku tdo kol 3 pagi sebab siapkan presentation sorg2 padahal team member aku si roommate KESAYANGAN gi melalak lepak kat bilik laen, aku jee yg kne buat sme kerja. aku jugak yg kne siapkan folio die semata2 nak markah tinggi untuk kumpulan. pas subuh aku terus sambung kerja. time tu mmg aku terbaring dkt hall besar, ngn tak mandinya siapkan benda alah tu sambil mata berair2. then irah dtg, tenangkan aku pastu suruh aku mandi. pas mandi, kat tempat kerja2 aku bersepah tu irah tunggu aku. die kasi gelas yg ade milo separuh. pastu aku ckp "kau agak2 ar nak kasi aku pon yg kau dah minum!". then die balas "woi aku tak minumla! aku buat tu air sikit nak bagi milo tu pekat! kau jugak yg minum sedap kan nnt NGOK!". pastu kitorg dua2 gelak. haihh. aku salu gaduh ngn die. aku salu baek ngn die. die mmg satu dlm sejuta :D

walaupun muke aku dalam gambar ni macam ***, tapi memandangkan ni la satu2nya gambar bersama kelas yg aku ade, jadi aku rela la pertontonkannya di sini. buang perasaan malu untuk zahirkan rase syg. haha.
hayato yg berbaju merah depan ni, blkg die yg baju kuning tu miaa, yg sebelah aku tu mangse yg digosip bersama iddin, yg belakang aku tu lili, sebelah lili acap, sebelah acap yg kuar lidah tu irah. paan ngn fasha tade dlm gambar ni. syahmi baju kuning yg besar tu.

IDDIN the blue boy aka mathematic genius. name die naqiuddin. cgu math kitorg, cgu mior salu panggil iddin tu na'cute'din. geli gila haha. sejak tu kat buku die, meja die sme die tulis name tu. iddin ni blue melampau. tayahlah ye aku cte selanjutnya. tak baek tak baek ;D tapi die la salu buat aku gelak dan bukak mata aku tentang beberapa perkara tertentu. heh heh heh. tapi die baekk. die salu tolong aku. dan die salu bajet macho, that's for sure. die mmg pandai gilaaa mathematic oh. cepat je die tangkap. paling best, die tak cube pon utk jadi hebat kat math. die still budak gila yg blue tp a math geek. aku dulu pnah kena gosip ngn die. keh keh keh. case closed. iddin ni jugak kawan kepada hazirah, diorg skola rendah same dan pernah 'bercinta'. kahkahkah. lagi, aku ingat time roommate KESAYANGAN buat slideshow fitnah sme budak pompuan kelas pastu pas2 pas kat azam ngn iddin suruh hebohkan kat satu aspura, time tu aku merayu kat iddin. pastu iddin ckp "kalau kau tak merayu pun, aku tau korg tak camtu. die yg masalah". sebab tu lah kau best, iddin.

turn AKMAL HAZIQ. name punyela comel, tapi mcm2 petname orang kasi kat die. felix sebab muka die sumpah cam felix af. yang serupa bab diorg blur2 tu. bila gelak muka blur. bila marah muka blur. blur sebab mata die camtuuu je. takde expression. mulut je menggambarkan die tgh maki ke tgh puji. bila die ckp ngn aku, aku salu gelak tetiba. sebab aku tengok mata die same je, tak mcm org laen. haha. yang TML tu singkatan kepada tiger mat ******lah. tu budak2 laki panggil. aku taktau betul ke tak kata adjektif kat name die tu. die mmg salu kena majal ngn budak2 laki, ade je dorg nak kenakan die. irah lak mmg salu tarik attention die, bila dorg gaduh mmg bingit gila kelas. aku ingat lagi time prep petang, die dok depan aku. pastu aku tanye betol ke kau ske hamna. pastu aku ckp kat die "kau tau tak, budak pompuan sme ckp kat aku yg dorg ingat kau ni gangster, takut kat kau. hamna pun ckp camtu. tapi aku tau kau tak camtu pon, kau bajet je lebih". time tu la aku betol2 dapat sembang ngn die, kenal die. time tu die bgtau aku banyak rahsie pasal perasaan die. hakhak. sekeras2 dan blur felix tu pon aku boleh lembutkan. lagi satu aku ingat, time ni tade sape kat kelas except aku ngn irah. irah ngn rase tanggungjawab seorg isteri gi kemas meja felix yang memang bersepah tu. pastu die jumpa jurnal felix. kitorg disuruh untuk tulis jurnal dlm bi oleh tcer shakira hari2 dan kasi kat die. semua rahsie boleh cte dlm tu. dlm jurnal tu felix speaking not bad la jugak. die siap ckp yg die hepi sebab dlm kumpulan sivik die (same ngn aku ngn paan) jadi leader tapi die sedih sebab parents die tak jadi lawat die kat maktab. then die ckp die rindu gila diorg. time tu aku ngn irah berair mata. nampak je mcm tak kesah ape2 si felix tu, tp pasal jd leader pon die da gembira. banyak yg die pendam. satu malam sabtu ni pas ceramah nak masuk isyak, kitorg dengar abang yg ceramah tu ckp kat mikrofon "hah tiger kau azan lah". time tu mia tgk aku ngn muke-biar-benar-tiger-yang-kaku-tu-nak-azan?. sme klasmate pompuan aku pon sengih tak percaya. bila dengar azan yg merdu tu, kitorg lagi gelak2 sambil geleng kepala dan tunjuk muka-sah-ni-bukan-tiger. bila prep malam esoknya, tiger sangat offended bila tau budak pompuan tak pcaye suare merdu tu suare die. haha. lepas aku kuar mrsm, lame camtu die msg aku tapi die perkenalkan diri die haziq. aku pon, haziq mane lak ni? pastu die ckp akmal haziq. ceh. dah matang tak gune dah kot name2 TML tu. haha. felix banyak ade catchphrase die. antare yg paling best "itulah namenya B-O-D-O-H, BANGANG!". kalau orang cakap something like "kau ni macam sial la felix", die ckp balik "bukan memang, macamm..." dengan intonasi istimewa die tu. bila orang ckp kat orang laen lak contohnya "kau ni macam sial lah amaa", felix lak jawabkan "bukan macam, memangggg..." dengan intonasi cool yang same. hadoi. sayanglah die.

ATIQAH. aku dulu memang anti sikit budak ni. haha. bukan aku jelah, ramai gila termasuk klasmate kitorg. laki pompuan. bukanlah benci serious, tapi mcm ade je bnda tak kena pasal die tau. kalau borink, cerita pasal die yg kuar. even homeroom die pon termasuk sibs laki semua mcm taknak same homeroom ngn die. die 2nd intake, tp hofkoslah bukan pasal tu kan. cume perangai die yg konon2 mcm comel (ok mmg cun, tp dengar; PERANGAI) ngn menggelabah tu. at least kitorg banyak tolong die, terutama pasal tudung. die pakai tudung ya masyaallah, ke depan gila. bapak selebek. orang memang panggil die selebek ar dulu. alasan die pakai tudung ke depan sebab muke die nnt merah, panas dan hitam kalau kene cahaya matahari. bagaikan tudung tu payung la jugak kot. meruapp je kitorg dengar. satu peraturan pompuan kat mrsm, pakai tudung kene kemas, KENA LIPAT(aku dulu pon tak lipat tudung). cgu kaunseling jumpe die je, salu tarik tudung die lagi ke depan sbb tak ikot peraturan. so kitorg la yg tolong die pakai betul2. lagi satu kan, die ni makan pedas sikit pon taboleh die kate. nnt lidah die hitam. mentang2 lawa cam anak mat salleh, makan pedas pon trus tak boleh ye. ramai gak hot sbb die pandai, dan die 2nd intake, pastu salu tanye soalan mcm kenape 2nd intake cam die bleh beat first intake cam kitorg. mase 2nd standardize sem 1, aku dapat ranking 22 daripada satu batch (ye teruk aku tau. da masuk mrsm aku da ta kesah sgt haha). die pon same. pastu die ckp "kite 2nd intake tp boleh dpt same ngn awk kan?". 1st standardize sem 2 plak aku still 22 dan die 18 kot. die ckp kat aku depan board ranking tu "awk dulu 22, sekarang pon 22 kan. tak berubah pon". ye la atiqah. aku tau la kau bukan maksudkan yg aku tak menurun, tapi maksudkan yg aku tak meningkat whereas kau pulak dah maju kan. hesh. dan die ade cte bnda kat aku konon2 pasal seorg senior femes ni punya mak sangat berkenan nak jdkan die menantu masa jmpe kat kfc time dorg same2 outing. sampai mak senior tu merayu pilihlah anak die. which aku sangat 'percaya' la. banyak lagila cerita lebat die.

adekah ini dikira mengumpat? tape2 aku tak tunjuk die yg mane satu kat gambar tu. haha.
ape2pon, kau tetap baek, lembut, dan tak sakitkan hati org secara sengaja. kitorg yg tetiba cari pasal muahaha. aku takkan jmpe lagi kawan yg menyakitkan hati manja2 mcm kau tqa selebek.

ADIBAH. atau dikenali sepagai adibah beepox. sebab die byk jerawat kot. die ni kecik je comel, tapi jadi bahan umpatan gak kadang2. trademark die ialah care gelak die yg kelakar tu. dulu time lepak2 kat bilik fasha, kitorg salu imitate gelak si adibah. haha tade keja. tangan die kecik gila, sumpah kecik. tangan aku yg memang kerdil dan berjari pendek ni pon kalau nak banding dgn die, jari die separuh drpd jari aku. bukan itu sahaja, aku juge ingat gaya manja die nak ngorat azam. azam dok depan die, and dorg salu sembang mcm2. bila azam buat lawak, adib mulela goyangkan tangan die depan muke azam, kemudian bawak ke mulut untuk cover gelak die yg kelakar tu. tahla, aku takleh nak tunjuk kat sini tapi memang lawak ar. nampak sgt tu gaya flirting. die jugak bila nak exam, akan bace buku mcm bersyarah. rilek la kan, aku pon bwat mcm tu. bace buku, sambil nak hafal dan feel tu kite goyangkan tangan. masalahnye die buat mcm die choral speaking lak. dengan mata2 muka semua nak feeling mcm tgh bercerita. haiya mmg jadi bahan gelak la. satu kelas tau pasal die tipu tentang hometown die. personally i think there's nothing wrong coming from a kampung, dah die mmg pandai dan layak kan. satu bnda pasal adib ni, die tak pernah ade kawan btol kot. die akan mcm ikot giliran tau, mule2 bilik RAA1, pastu RAA2, pastu semua bilik bergilir2 sampaila RAA form 1 habes. maybe sbb die nak friendly atau test sape sesuai kawan ngn die kot, ntah. die pon boleh tahanla bab prank org secara kejam. die jugak menimbulkan beberapa issue hot yg membuatkan akak2 sme masuk bilik die utk selesaikan secara rahsie. wallahuallam. aku bukan nak aibkan die, tapi aku nak cerita je pengalaman aku jmpe ngn orang mcm2. plus, aku tak tunjuk die yg mana satu kan. sorry adib, tapi aku mmg akan ingat kau ngn kepelikan kau sampai bila2. and aku tak lupe mase kite baek same2 dulu dan semua bnda baek yg kau buat kat aku ;)

SYAHMI atau panggilannya mimi ni homeroom aku aka classmate aka group member aku dlm math yang tak guna. die ade perangai yg org tak ske iaitu die ske ckp lepas je dan tak fikir perasaan org. at leats kalau nak menegur pon buatla care nak berlawak. ramai gak ar sakit ati ngn die and suruh aku tegur die. other than that, die ok je. pape nnt die salu tanye pendapat aku contohnya bila nak ngorat orang ni boleh ke tak, mcm2la. die pon pandai gak berlawak kadang2, kalau lawak tu tak jadi bodoh dankejam la. hmm ape lagi ek. bila die badmood, susah nak pujuk sampai satu homeroom nnt rase tak seronok time perjumpaan. aku tade cite sgtla pasal die ni. atau aku lupe. tapi aku still ingat yg die seorg homeroom dan klasmate yg baek, tapi bukan group member yg baek sebab asek aku je kne buat sme keje, die, roommate KESAYANGAN dan sape tah name budak sorg ni yg aku dah lupe goyang kaki jeee. still mase die group ngn aku bm die adela jugak tolong kot. mimiiiiii.

gambar ni selepas aku blah dari mrsm. time ni BKP cool sikit, camera dan fon boleh tunjuk public. kena rampas kalau tak reti jagela kan. time aku ade dulu, nak charge fon pon sampai kena letak dlm cerek kat kelas waktu prep petang. prep petang sebab tak ramai kat kelas, ramai gi psp. dlm cerek lak sebab konon2 tgh panaskan air nak minum milo beramai2 kat kelas.
kononnyalah.

next, AZAM. azam ni memang kaki lawak lah jugak. die salu kenekan orang ngn lawak2 yg mcm kurang ajar tapi boleh diterima. kalau dah start melawak tu, aku mmg taleh benti gelaklaa. die pnah dok sblah felix rapat2, pastu ckp felix nak mengg-gay ngn die. asal felix lari je, die ckp something like "dah banyak saksi la felix, dna kau pon da ade kat aku. tulah die org kalau dah salah, lari je la kejenya". haha. banyakla lagi ragam si azam ni. dulu irah pernah tanye ape tah kat cikgu, pasal halal haram, boleh makan tak ape tah. azam ckp "si sabirah ni kalau dah bab makan semua nak telan. kalau boleh buku tu pon die nak kunyah. tau makann je". azam mmg lawak die simple, tp care die ckp ngn muke selamba die tu yg buat kelakar. ahakahak. aku takleh lupe pasal die nakal sgt sampai salu kena marah ngn cgu, secara serious. bukan tegur saje2, tapi betul2 kena tu. pernah lepas die kena tegur, die terus jadi pendiam, baek semacam. die mcm dah takde mood nak berlawak, nak bersiul dlm kelas. semua perasan die dah berubah. semua tau die jadi camtu sbb ape. kitorg sme pujuk die. last2 die ok jugak. banyak lagi sbanye nak cte pasal budak ni. tapi malas lak aku. hee.

ALIN. alin ni ade kembar, ape tah name die aku da lupe. kembar die pon mrsm aku jugak, kelas laen2. alin ni orgnya baek je, lembut. cakap pon slow je. kembar die plak lebih tegas dan lancang. aku ingat time ade presentation bm kat kelas dgn die, azam n mimi sebab kitorg segroup, kitorg kena syair. aku syair agak ok lah (muahaha tetiba). sampai part die je, die maluu sgt sampai suare yg keluar pon terketar2. last2 aku habeskan part die. die wakil maktab dlm minggu bahasa untuk debate, kalau die nak practise depan aku je mesti muke die merah tak kuar suare. akak die salu marah die, akk die konfiden sikit. mase dorg nak lawan, tgk pihak sane semua form 3, diorg sme form 1. pastu pihak sane plak ade coach yg memang mat salleh. trus tiga2 debater kecut perut n nangis. but it was alin yg nampak paling kuat dan berani, dan cool kan teammate die. die sikit je mate berair, pastu die bangun kasi kate semangat. gila respect die time tu. alin ni penah bestfren ngn roommate KESAYANGAN aku, dan die pnah dihalang drpd bekawan ngn aku. tp die tak pecaya sgt cite2 buruk pasal aku. sampai sekali tu die da terkena teruk, die dtg kat aku nangis2. takpe, aku faham. sebab die pnah terkena, adela jugak sikit2 cerita rahsia aku aku bukak kat die.
taktau camne die skang.

hmm dah panjang gila dah ni. yang laen tu, aku tetap ingat korg walaupun aku tak cerita panjang lebar pasal korg kat sini. terutama aku ingat si ROBOT (lupe name betul die tapi dulu aku ejek die robot) yg aku salu ejek secara kejam. its something about him yg buat aku muak sikit. macamane die jln straight dan tgn tak bergerak, macamane die tak berckp ngn orang pastu asek usha hot aku, macamane die group math ngn aku dan aku sgt bnci, macamane die salu bajet cool dan buat lawak bodoh after aku kuat2 perli die, macam2 ar. ni bukan love-hate relationship, this is indeed pure hatred. muahahaha. tapi tape, benci saje2 je pon. die tau aku benci die, tapi kitorg cool je jugak as classmate.

last but not least, si ACAP AWI. die ni time aku kat mrsm aku tadela rapat sgt ngn die, bila dah kuar baru rapat gilaaaaaa. tapi skg kitorg dah kurang rapat sebab something and even if chatting pon, dapat rase laen dan tak macam dulu ;(. takpelah. time kat maktab aku takde bnda sgt nak sembang ngn die ni, kecuali aku ngn irah salu sgt ejek die pasal something yg agak memalukan. kdg2 kitorg sembang kosong and bnda tak gune je pon. and die baekk sangat. dulu. die pernah nak hantar kat aku bnda2 yg senior jual tu. tiap kali senior jual kan mcm ade hantar2 pesanan. so amat ideal lah kalau nak kasi kat orang yang kau minat tanpa die tahu kau sape. time tu prep petang. mimi dengar je, mimi terus warn die jgn dekati aku. bahaha bodoh. classmate aku mmg ske buat org perasan kadang2. then aku pon nak kasi die jugaklah sbb die kasi aku, jadilah barter. dlm speech die tu, die tulis 'moga pointer kau bertambah tinggi dan kau pun bertambah tinggi'. siot gila xD taulaa die tinggi mcm galah kan. haih acap, aku rindu kau jugak. but if things are not to be the way the were, its okay.

lagilagi?? dah la kot kan. dengan diorang ni, aku memang sayangla walaucamne benci pon kat certain dorg. haha. except sorg lah. dah dah. walaupun aku ngn dorg 6 bulan je, tapi aku lagi rapat ngn dorg compare ngn classmate sekarang (dgn lelaki lah). mungkin sebab dah hari2 tengok muke masing2 kan, and banyak teamwork sesame kitorg. aku rindu sangat kenangan2 di bawah ni (bahaha ade lagi weh);

mase minggu aktiviti. ade game ni kitorg kena reka lagu berkaitan kelas, dlm mase 30 minit je kot. cari la ape2 object pon kat green square ngn dewan makan tu utk buat music instrument nanti. budak2 laki kelas aku sngat tak matured dan menyakitkan hati, dorg tak berlatih bersungguh2, tak dengar ckp pompuan, and dorg maen sesame dorg. aku time tu dah saket tekak menjerit2 suruh dorg practise. bila sampai masenya, kelas kitorg dipanggil. memang teruk gilalah. TERUK. TERUK, paling teruk. buat malu aku je. habes tu, kitorg duduk balik kat meja makan tempat kitorg tadi. aku dah tensyen n malu sampai tak fikir ape lagi dah. aku tanak pandang pon muke budak2 laki. pastu aku nampak amira azrin, air mata dah jatuh. aku nampak mia, muka merah dan air mata pun jatuh. last2 air mata aku sendiri jatuh. naseb baek time tu presiden homeroon aku aka hamizan aka mizan aka presiden 1 ibnu battuta, yg dok blakang aku time tu buat cheer utk kelas aku. die jerit, semua org ikot. appreciate gila time tu. then aku tulis thank you note kat die, goyang kerusi die and kasi note tu. die ambek, bace and sengih je. haihh rindu gila kau mizan.

after that, aku ngn budak pompuan semua sehati sejiwa suruh budak laki masuk kelas time tu jugak. toto, lili ngn iddin muke dah takut. paan, mimi and meor serta felix muka dah tak puas ati. time dlm kelas tu semua budak laki dok belakang, kitorg pompuan sme ade dok atas meja la, berdiri la, semua membebel kat dorg. hayato dah menyorok belakng langsir. dlm marah2 aku tu, sempat gak aku gelak tgk die. budak pompuan siap ade yg menangis sebab dah lame sabar ngn perangai budak laki. time tu baru semua nak meletup. laki ckp dorg tak puas ati sbb asek2 pompuan je nak control kelas, asek2 pompuan je nak kasi arahan. yang ni aku paling ingat aku balas kt dorg;

"sebab korg tu tak buat ape2! maen je tau. kalau kitorg tak amek tanggungjawab ni, kelas kite takkan bergerak gi mane2 tau tak. kalau korg nak sgt jadi ketua, kalau paan tanak lepas kan jawatan die, speak up la! kitorg suruh korg buat mcm2 utk kebaikan kite jugak. kalau pompuan tak lead, sape lagi???"

cam gempak je kan. haha. tp time tu aku ckp tak jerit2 sgt la. aku duduk, cool je. dah malas nak over2 ngn diorg ni. irah laen la cite kan, die mmg over. haha. lame laa time tu kitorg balas2 makian, sampai ade budak laki yg mengamuk, sampai budak pompuan bertambah tensyen, sampai paan, meor ngn felix terus kuar kelas. after that, kitorg kasi jawatan presiden kat budak 2nd intake, amirul. sukahati mak bapak kitorg lah. then akak bkp masuk tenangkan smorg. smorg blah.

malam tu plak, hot tak hot pon, kitorg terpaksa berlatih sesame walaupun semua takde mood nak tgk muka masing2. kitorg berlatih untuk koir malam esoknya. ade dua lagu. paan, felix ngn meor siap tak masuk kelas lagi. lame2 cool balik smorg. aku still ingat yg aku sgt bossy mase dengar budak laki nyanyi. aku ckp yg suare dorg keras sgtla, garaula, pecahla, tak merdu la, takde alunanla. pastu dorg ckp dah mmg camtu, bukan boleh ubah. haha. aku ingat ngn acap la aku paling hot sekali dengar die nyanyi. walaupun aku dah nyayi (sanggup tu nak tunjuk contoh) tapi die takleh wat gak. taula suare kau dah garau. muahaaha. sampai sekarang die pon ingat lagi yg dulu aku salu marah die. hee.

malam koir tu plak, kitorg nyanyi lagu patriotik melayu satu ngn season in the sun. time season in the sun tu, memangla boleh rase joy sebenar. time tu kitorg terus goyang2 badan n tepuk2 tangan, semua org ikot. mmg sambil nyanyi tu aku ingat balik sepanjang minggu aktiviti ngn dorg, cat banner, cat muke, marah2, nangis2, practise, mmg best gila. bila habes je, lepas amek tempat duduk, baru aku perasan bukan aku sorg je pompuan yg nangis time tu :)

seronok sangat. tu la antare kenangan ngn kelas yg paling best. beyond words la. mungkin nothing pade diorang dan korg, but everyhting pade aku. ngn lirik lagu tu lagi, "goodbye to u my trusted friend", "wonder how we got along", ngn banyak line lagi yang memang mcm menggambarkan saat aku nak blah dr mrsm dan tinggalkan semua org lebih kurang seminggu lepas kenangan pahit manis ngn kelas tu ;D

the best goodbye =)

is there a right place?

Can't find all the words yet
It's still not the time yet
And my mind can't think of anything
it only sees you

You know I am trying
God knows I am trying
And why does the wind keeps shouting out
it's still not over

I keep on trying
I think I'm learning
To live in hearts you leave behind
is not to die, Grace

Can't find the right place
Is there a right place?
Where I can make it all make sense somehow
and face tomorrow

I keep on trying
I think I'm learning
To live in hearts you leave behind
is not to die, Grace

The world go 'round some
We move along some
To live in hearts of theirs and mine
is not to die
Grace...

words of the song Grace Is Gone by Jamie Cullum is playing in my head.
beautiful, sad song.
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okay. i have some personal issues here. whick would be extremely long if i write it in this blog, and which is stupid and shouldnt be considered as an issue at all. i really need someone who i can talk too. who wont be judgmental over irrelevant and irrational things i would talk about.

but who on earth?

here comes the time when i really long for a frictional character to exist in my world.
the best one for this case; jor fox from You've Got Mail.

and i even dont have the ability to have an imaginary friend!
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okay okayh. cube cakap something yang tak memalukan aku. hahah.
hm.

erghhh. the mood to write isnt here yet.
bila tenet aku ok plak idea dan ilham taknak datang
time tengah bangang berpusu2 plak perkataan mencurah2 dalam kelapa otak aku.
eeeee.

okay, akan bersambung apabila idea datang dan tenet tak masalah.
sekiann.

for your pleasure ;D

due to the limited time i have for blogging,
i will only post some short and simple but rather 'berisi' (la sangat) blogs.

this time, something for u to occupy your holiday with.
watching superb motion picture :D

the list of movies and books and tv series from the turn of century till the latest day of the earth
that are worth-watching, that some of u maybe never heard of.

MOVIE
1. Grace is Gone (painfully tear-producing tale)
2. You've Got Mail
3. Pride and Prejudice
4. Freedom Writer
5. Miss Potter

BOOKS
1. Pride and Prejudice
2. Sense and Sensibility
3. Where Rainbows End
4. A Gathering Light
5. The Series of Unfortunate Events (one of the best ever)
6. HARRY POTTER (hofkos, the best yet)

TV SERIES
1. Heroes (those who miss this ialah golongan rugi duniawi)
2. Friends (all time favourite)
3. Lost

that's all for now.
seriously, go digging at youtube or bookstores,
they are lovable.

well at least to me :)


ps; really dying to write more about me here but time has won again :((

and dont think i'm such in a rush because i'm due for study ke hape,
weh puhlis.
act im using my bro's laptop. and illegaly using another bro punye maxis modem.
yeah you got it. pelarian.

kameren hailen (updated).

okay sudah berupdate gambar baru dan perkataan.

bunga ni mula2 die masih hidup mengindahkan muka bumi mase aku tangkap gambar kali pertama. bunga ni tinggi sangat maka bila tgkp kali kedua plak aku terpaksa tarik bunga tu ke bawah. tak semena2 bunga tu jatuh berguguran. sadis weh. aku rase sedih sebak dan rase bersalah. tu la bongok sgt gi menggedik ngn bunga tu, tgk bunga tu dah gugur mati atas tanah.
rase bersalah gila. jadi sebagai penghormatan terakhir, aku pun tangkap gambar ni.

pedulikan gambar ni. poyo sahaja.

my pretty boy :)

banyak sgt nak cerita pasal die ni. tp die mmg comel lah. die hanya tau cakap 'mama' ngn 'kakak' atau 'akak'. aku tau die boleh sebut bnda laen tapi die tamau. bile kite ckp 'ayah' suruh die ulang, die ckp 'mama' ngn intonasi yg comel. suare die lembut je, tp jenis besar. haih adorable gila. bila die nmpk cicak ke, kumbang ke, papelah, die sebut 'mama' jugak. die mmg tanak sebut bnda laen. die nmpk gambar aku kt mespes (kitorg on sesame yo) die pggl 'akak'. pape je la comel.
bila aku tido dlm kereta, nanti die tgk muke aku lame2 pastu ckp 'cakk'. konon mcm aku tgh maen2 ngn die la. terpaksa layan je. lagipon bukan salu jumpe kan. die sgt manjaa dan die sgt, sgt hensem, cantik, kacak, comel dan pandai. thats my malmal ;D

wedges belakang tu kasut lame aku. kasut flat yg depan ni aku baru beli kat cameron. pergi cameron beli kasut? macam2. specialnya kasut ni custom made, jadi aku sorg jela yg ade kasut camni atas muke bumi ni kecuali si penjual maen tipu ngn jual kasut camni sebijik kat org laen. aku tamau beli sebab beberapa reason. antaranya aku syg kasut lama, aku kesian kat kasut lame (takut die kecik hati hahah), aku jarang keluar so bile plak aku nak gilir2 pakai kasut yg banyak tu, aku biasenya pakai barang sampai barang tu rosak baru aku beli baru dan wedges aku tak rosak lagi malah masih lawa, kasut flat ni same kaler ngn wedges aku tak pelbagailah konon, dan adelah lagi. tapi mak aku beriya sgt, so beli jelah. skang aku akan rase bersalah bila nak kena pilih nak pakai yg mane.

muke aku poyo. tapi aku suke gambar ni sebab actually time ni aku tengah betul2kan tudung pastu abang aku tengah pakai gel kat rambut die. tetiba malmal dtg pastu usap2 muke ngn tangan die, mcm aku tgh pakai bedak. pastu die gosok2 kepala die ngn pegang2 rambut die, mcm bapak die tgh pakai gel. sumpah comel dowh. die imitate kitorg time tu. lame gila. tiba2 tolak aku pastu dok depan cermin pegang2 muke. hesh budak gemok nih.

muke kepanasan kat ladang teh boh :D ni aku tangkap sendiri sebab tu tak nampak sgt belakang tu. tak nampak teh plantation yg cantek cam karpet. sebab kalau abg aku amek gambar, mmg hodoh benar dah. muahahah.

time ni lepas aku panjat bukit kecik belakang tu sebab beriya nak tgk daun teh ngn tangkap gambar. aku ngn abg aku je pergi sebab aku beriya sgt. nmpk cam rendah je. sekali masyaallah. punya lah tinggi, ngn anak tangga sme jarak gila, dengan aku pakai wedges lagi. hadeh. sakit kaki woh. dahla dah sampai atas tu muke aku pon dah kepenatan (tak cukup stamina haha), bila tangkap gambar sgt menyedihkan. terutama abg aku yg tangkapkan, haiya lagi la mengecewakan. tapi tape, at least ade pengalaman masuk kat celah2 daun teh banyak2 tu.
dan muke aku time ni kelakar. huahua.

sekian sahaja berita 5 minit di cameron highland.

gambar sajee.

inferiority.

Recap recap recap.
What to?
Recap recap recap.
Too much. Head is fully loaded.
Exploding…

Recap recap.
Exam. You’ve got mail. Mp3. dilemma. Inner struggle.
Inferiority.
Inferiority.
Inferiority of my circumstances.

Ah. I wish that was said by mr darcy to me,
While we were standing in the rain in pride and prejudice.

Hape kau merepek ni ha?
Ok ni la namenye org kene kejutan.
Dah lame tak blog, bila jari mule menyentuh papan keyboard,
Terjadilah brain malfunction.

Fuh.

Kite start dengan…

FINAL SEM 1 (bahasa mrsm) or MID YEAR EXAM (bahasa gov) or
EARLY TORTURE (bahasa aku).

Persoalan; boleh tak aku jangan buat kesalahan cuai dalam setiap kertas periksa?
Hipotesis; aku memang tak boleh nak dapat PERRRFECT untuk ape ape pon sebab aku cuai (berbalik kepada persoalan).
Nilai murni; kepekaan dan bukan kebodohan dan kelalaian.
Isi penting; aku boleh terima kalau aku salah benda yang memang patut atas dasar aku taktau, bukannya salah yang aku MEMANG tahu tapi tiba2 jadi taktahu depan kertas periksa. Buto ko?
Evidence (at least 3, 5 as backups);

1. Matematik.
a) translation; macamane aku boleh tak nampak mane satu object mane satu image padahal aku dah circle dah image? Budus. Mungkin otak aku ingat circle dekat image tu bermaksud ‘o’, yang mane o=object. Make salahlah translation aku.

b) ade satu soalan yang aku jenuh memerah keringat berjerih payah mengira hingga la ke akhir masa. Aku taktau kenapa, soalan tu nampak senang dan aku sure sangat senang sebenarnya, tapi aku dah kire berpuluh kali sampai satu kertas conteng aku diconteng semata mata untuk soalan tu pon aku masih tak boleh jawab. Tu subjektif. Lepas masa tamat, aku tanye budak len. Bodohnya, soalah tu jalan kire die tolak lepastu bahagi je, aku smpai buat linear equation segala. Aku rase mcm dah betol dah jalan kire tu. Cume jawapan la pulak ade perpuluhan. Mane mungkin jawapan untuk unit manusia ade perpuluhan? Lepas dah dapat markah semua, tcer tanye camne aku boleh salah. Aku pon terangkan “that’s all beyond me” type of answer. Pastu tcer cakap “ade benda kacau kamu la tu time kamu jawab soalan ni”.
Huh. Better be. nak kacau pon kacau la. Daripada aku bangang sia-sia semata.

c) this is lawak of the year. Adela soalan tersebut lebih kurang begini;
4q + q – 3
Aku jawab =
4q + 6.
When tcer was pointing that out, even myself blur dan terkedu, ‘wadde?’
Lepastu tcer gelak dan cakap “kamu keliru dengan tulisan sendiri!”
Hah? Lawak. Macamanela boleh aku nampak q tu mcm 9?
Hoi amalina, engkau tulis, engkau pulak salah tafsir? Kalau orang laen nak tak faham tulisan kau tu takpe la jugak kannn.
Haih. Benda nak jadi. Peliknya, aku dah recheck dah aku rase. Sape suruh tulisan tu adorable sangat --’

2. Bahasa Melayu
a) betul2 sebelum periksa bermula, ade seorang sahabat tanye aku
“amalina, ‘saya akan buat’ ke ‘akan saya buat’?”
Aku menjawab
“‘akan saya buat’ sebab between kata nama ngn kata kerja takleh ade pape.”

Lepastu ade soalan lebih kurang mcm ni;

Arahan; kalau perkataan bergaris salah pandai2 la kau cari mane yg betul dengan menanda a, b atau c. jikalau la tak salah pulak, sila la tanda d. kalau taktau, sila buat dadu atau ikut kata hati.

Blablablabla mereka akan lakukan blablablablablabla.

oleh mereka akan dilakukan
akan dilakukan oleh mereka
akan mereka lakukan
mereka akan lakukan

aku dengan konfiden bermonolog dalaman
“hah! Naseb baek sang sahabat tanye aku tadi. Die pon mesti gumbira die tau jawapannya. Hah hah hah~”

Maka aku pon tandakan jawapan c.
C.
C.
C. . . .

Hoi! Boleh tak kau stop jadi cuai dan tolongla bukak mata besar-besar
Yang ‘mereka’ tu kata ganti diri ketiga bukan pertama mcm ‘kami’ la pandai!

Lepas aku tengok kertas kawan aku terus aku sedar kesalahan aku dan melompat2 kekecewaan tanpa perlu kan penjelasan. Sebab aku memang tau aku rase.
Cume bang…
Eh, tak. em. Cume tak peka je.


3. Geografi
Salah mengira skala yang memang dulu pon aku dah salah, sekarang pon nak salah lagi. Kesalahan cuai dan kesalahan lama memang sahabat kamceng aku.

(aku berniat nak putuskan persahabatan dengan segera.)


Haiyo. Begitulah kesalahan cuai aku.
Tu yang cuai, yang memang betul2 keliru dan curiga tak tau lagi tu.
Hadoi.

Tuntasnya; aku tak boleh dapat 8a sebab khb bagai telur di hujung tanguk dan bi dah SAH SAH tak a memandangkan aku tak pernah dapat 80 ke atas kerana tcer pat kesayangan memilih untuk bagi markah rendah2 untuk student beliau (atau memang aku yang tak layak). Mase aku kat mrsm bi aku bolehla tahan dan memuaskan, tp lepas aku balik sekolah sini balik, markah aku terus 75-80 je. Tcer pat lagi brutal drpd ckgu2 mrsm yang pada dasarnya memang suke bagi markah orang rendah2. memang la bagus supaya standard kitorg nanti bagus time pmr, tapi masalahnya kelas laen tcer2 laen yg tanda semua markah 80 ke atas. Ini tidak adil. Malah aku tengok ade seorang kawan punye kertas literature bapak pendek, essay pon salah grammar tidak kurang hebatnya, tapi die dapat markah berganda tinggi daripada aku yang berpeluh2 berusaha fikir peribahasa2 english yang menarik untuk essay 30 markah tu. Bukanla aku nak angkat bakul sendiri tapi at least give me some credit la, jgn la kasi 79 je padahal kawan sorg tu melambung2 dapat 87. aku ingat lagi tau. Walaupun ini mungkin memberi impak yang bagus ketika pmr, tetapi semestinya perkara ini memberi perspektif yang buruk mengenai kelas 3 Cemerlang (1). Macam semua teruk sangat je bi nya. Asek2 budak kelas laen nak dapat highest pastu beriak takbur. Padahal kami ade syafiqah yang memang hebat English dan layak mendapat best student in the mentioned subject.

Ya aku memang seorang yang competitive.
Laenla kalau satu batch form 3 cgu yang same tanda English, kalau aku dapat b pon memang patutla kot kan.

Konklusinya; aku tak dapat 8a la tu.

Kesian muka aku yang ditampal kat board biru laluan ke kantin,
Lepas ni akan ditanggalkan dan direnyuk dan dibuang ke dalam tong sampah.
Sungguh hina.

Kalau muka berserta profil aku tu dibuang dalam tong kitar semula adela jugak pekdahnya.


update; aku baru tau literature aku mcm dapat boleh tahan la markah for bi, tapi literature aku ok sebab aku habeskan banyak mase kat situ dan kantoi kat bahagian laen. ah. still b for bi.

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aku perlukan seseorang untuk meluahkan perasaan do.
bercerita tentang itu ini.
menzahirkan ape yang aku rase dan alami.
perasaan gedik dan serious dan kecewa berduka semua.

masalahnya aku takkan buat camtu dengan seseorang yang aku kenal,
yang kenal aku, dan yang tau muke aku camne.

i've been thinking about joining some chatrooms ke, find someone anonymous, and burst my heart out at them.
why chatroom?
because i dont need place like myspace or yahoo messenger where people know each other.
i dont want to know my target, and i dont want them to know me particularly.
tell things to each other, serious matters about feeling and being, not just some stupid chat trying to hitting on them whatnot.
buttt,,
the problem is most of the chatters are there to find someone to hook up with.
obviously the girls wouldnt want me unless they are the lesbosss,
and the guys are all believed to be the proud perverts.

or they will maybe disguise themselves or pretend to be someone charming and listen like no other when they actually want to get a girl's pants.

yeah i dont easily believe.

and even kat ym or myspace, how do i find someone i dont actually know and tiba2 comment panjang berjela about how my day has been going?

it has been a long time since i started this dream of finding someone anonymous and tell them everything. blog isnt a very good place to reveal the secrets.

and it gets worse after i watched the once-hit-90 something film;
You've Got Mail.

ahhh i wish i have my own funny stupid cool understanding good listener caring joe fox aka tom hanks.
or even meg ryan as kathleen for the matter.

anyone like them.
please?

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lately i have been feeling kinda inferior,
hating my circumstances and the changing compared to how i used to be, who i was and how i am, who i am.

this time the inner struggle isnt about any big serious things like i used to face,
this time it is just a small tiny nothing little thing,
that cause BIG heartache.

inferiority.
and that, shall i tell to my own joe fox or meg ryan that is never to come.

for harry potter and twilight fans to read.

halo dude and dudettes.
romeos and juliets.
adam dan hawa
(tak rhyme langsung).

harini aku akan buat satulagi bnda tak gune;
blog BUKAN pasal diri sendiri.

aku nak buat pasal hari poter lagi. kahkahkah.

nope, to be exact, about HARRY POTTER AND TWILIGHT.

[its not like i ever have a reader so its definitely okay to post anything here for my own amusement, not like it bothers or wastes somebody's time aint i right?]

hari poter and twilight have been known to be close competitors among best movie series based on well known novels. stupid medias and immature fans are the ones who caused this war.

so nak taknak as one of the most die hard fan of hari poter, i have been dragged to the battlefield as well.

i read twilight, and do hari poter will never be beaten up by any passionately romance GREAT novels, twilight is one of my favourites. PROBABLY BECAUSE I DONT READ MUCH OF ROMANCE AND PASSION BOOKS unless its a love story of pure and simple and sad one like cecelia ahern's. EVEN THE SERIES OF UNFORTUNATE EVEN WHICH I STARTED TO READ AT AGE 10 is on top of twilight, personally.

no matter what u say.

I AM A HARRY POTTER MANIAC MAN.

why? its gonna be another long post for that.
so here i m just gonna kopipes some commnets regarding about twilight and harry potter, which i found rather intersting, which i strongly support and ones that are fair sided. oh, the comments happened to pop up in utube yesterday during my 'masa suntuk untuk belajar yang disia-siakan oleh amalina' yesterday.

again; YOU TWILIGHTERS MIGHT THINK TWILIGHT IS *blahblahboom*, but theres more to HARI POTER than a scarred hear bespectacled miserable wizard boy.

sila bace bawah.
ni cmmnt mereka, dan aku tak ubah ape2.


-There's something wrong about what the reporter's saying...She said about Pattinson playing as Diggory in Goblet of Fire and competing for Triwizard and won...And also asking if HP will also be second behind twilight...For her information, Harry Potter and Diggory tied in the tournament(HP was never 2nd),and Twilight will never be the first in box office...HP and the SS grossed $974,733,550 while twilight grossed only $379,912,947...So, who's the winner now..HP is the 2nd highest grossing film after titanic..

-Actually, I agree with you in a way: I think vampires and werewolves are cooler than wizards.
And yet I hate Twilight and adore Harry Potter xP

-Isn't meyer being sued for stealing ideas for her more recent twilight installments? How she can be compared to Rowling is beyond me. When it comes down to which series of books is better - Meyer claimed she can't write and has had her writing skills mocked by literary genius Stephen King. The two have completely different levels of writing skill. Many may not agree with me that Rowling is a good writer, but I personally think she is way better than meyer.

Oh, and Cedric didn't win the Triwizard tournament. He tied with Harry, technically. And then died.

-i know. i still don't understand the comparison either. i mean there's no reason at all for a competition. they did the same thing with the Golden Compass and Harry Potter and then again with the Spiderwick Chronicles and Harry Potter and neither of them were anything like HP and neither of those movies made any money either. the media is just trying to create drama like always.

-I thought this had two different audiences. Twilight seems more like a teenage girl movie while Harry Potter is a franchise based on a fanbase that has grown up with the character.

[note from ama; when i watched twilight at the cinema, i sat next to a teenage boy with his friends, maybe 17, 18 of age. when it came to the part bella and edward getting closer, and brushed against each other romantically, he said something like "woi, kiss her man! aku masuk ni pon nak tgk part ni je la. kiss her! kiss her!". along those lines. so i agree, man dont really enjoy twilight, unless he is soft-hearted and enjoy romance do i am sure men cant stand too much drama of love, being forced by her girlfriend to do so, gila seks or even gay.]

-i completely agree with you. i don't understand the comparison at ALL. i mean seriously. you are allowed to like more than one book. you don't have to like one more than the other. but if I had to choose then HP is definitely the most interesting and complex story. i mean there are actual college classes that study harry potter for its legendary literature, but that will never happen with Twilight. Harry potter is definitely going to earn more money because it attracts a larger audience. twilight mainly attracts teen girls.

-actually, thats what I meant.
Twilight is definitly just starting...it will be quite the phenomenon. I love Twilight, its number 2 to HP!!!!.
HP will do better, its inevitable, but only because EVERYONE knows Harry Potter... AND its the best book in the series..

-Is there even a question about it. Twilight will never take the number 1 spot from harry potter,... HP has way more fanbase.. people who have grown up with it.. (me for 8 YEARS.) Twilight will be number 2!

-Even if you only compare North American box office receipts, Harry Potter will never be dethroned any time soon. The average North American gross for a HP flick is $282.4 million, around the world, it's $880 million. How can anyone assume Twilight can eve come CLOSE to that?

-Look, this is the stupidest thing I have ever seen. They souldn't even be compared. The Twilight Series is for a more mature audience with a lot of more mature content (sexually passionate of course), whereas Harry Potter is just something that is purely good literature. Personally, I liked all of the Harry Potter books and like the Twilight books. What is peoples problem?

-Twilight fails next to Harry Potter, seriously. These news reporters are retards. They all have to stfu about this "Eclipse knocked HP off the bestsellers!" Oh em gee! Who gives a crap; DH was already the fastest selling book of all time by then. Seriously, if anyone thinks Twilight will be bigger in the box office, they're delusional.

-eclipse didn't knock HP off the list. lol. i laugh everytime i hear that. Harry Potter eventually fell out of top 20 after being on it for over a year. They actually just retired HP from the list because it's been on there for 10 years. And I agree people who think Twilight is going to attract the same amount of people as HP did are definitely delusional. I personally like both books but there's no way Twilight is ever going to reach the same level as Harry Potter. HP is legendary.

-This is a stupid comparison because neither of the series is anything alike and they're not even on the same level. Harry Potter is one of a kind. whereas Twilight has definitely been done before Stephanie has just put a different twist on it.

-LOVE these books with a passion but, yeah, it is utterly wrong to compare these two. HP is a more COMPLEX story. On the other hand, Twilight is actually a love story. About how these two completely different persons conquer and do everything to fight for their love.

And about that thing where Eclipse "knocked" DH on the bestseller list- come on! DH was already released before Eclipse and naturally people have already gotten their copies of DH the minute it was released.

-Harry Potter for the win!! Cedric Diggory, you're supposed to be dead! O.O *gasp* Get out of that movie and back in Harry Potter! Nooo...Robert Pattinson abandoned us! xD

LOL Nothing against Twilight at all. Just a little fun. ;)

-This is just a ridiculous battle. THe books really don't have anything to do with eachother. I prefer Harry Potter (or at least the fans, some Twilight fans REALLY get on my nerves. EDWARD CULLEN OMG YAYYY. no) I try not to take sides but I have to go with Harry Potter. I can't stand Edward. GOO JACOB

[note from ama; I REALLY AGREE WITH THE COMMENT ABOVE! LOVE HARRY, BLAH EDWARD AND GO JACOB!]

-Wow...this video really pisses me off. They're making it seem like Twilight is beating Harry Potter when they are failing to mention the fact that DH had been released for several months before Twilight overtook it and the fact that CEDRIC DIGGORY DID NOT BEAT HARRY POTTER IN THE TRIWIZARD TOURNAMENT! Holy frick!

-a wizard named cedric diggory died and turned into vampire called edward cullen... i love them both!!!... harry potter for adventure and twilight for romance!!

-Titanic is still the highest grossing film ever and it made about 2 billion worldwide. the whole HP movie franchise has made about 5 billion dollars worldwide which is amazing. it's the highest grossing movie franchise in the world. i'm sure by the time part two of movie 7 is released the HP movies will have made about 9 billion dollars worldwide and that's awesome. n Harry Potter is getting its own Amusment Park ibn flordia, opening next year i think.

-i like twilight but hp is a no contest....look at the facts...twilight might b ahead of hp in sales now but that only bc its been out YEARS and YEARS all together harry potter not only made and will continue to make more money than twilight...and bc hp was written better and more orignal plot line...dont get me wrong twilight kicks *ss but hp will always b better

-my god, you people are delusional if you think a second rate book like twilight is going to be like Harry potter nothing but Lord of the ring Narnia and Holmes can be compare to Harry potter.

-I hate to break it to the Twi-hards, i know you guys are very dedicated, but dont get your hopes up. Harry Potter has a WAY bigger audience from little kids to adults. Its much bigger then twilight will ever hope to be. Dont get me wrong i love twilight, im a huge fan, but twilight cant touch Harry Potter. Harry Potter is like...God. haha if anything twilight might knock harry down a notch because everyone will have already watched HP by then. overall box office, HP will kick twilights ass.

-Harry Potter is way better than Twilight. HP had more action, more suspense, and more twist than Twilight ever had. Now don't get me wrong I like Twilight but HP was the first book I actually sat down and read. It was the best. Twilight just didn't have enough action and through the whole book all Bella could think about was Edward and in the later series she started to get all sex crazed

-harry potter shouldn't be associated with twilight. hp has a better plot, movie critics think twilight doesn't have a plot at all. Most of my friends who are also Twilight fans said that robert pattinson doesn't deserve to be Edward...I wish people would realize that Harry Potter conducts audition,means that HP casts are discovered and chosen from among the best and not just pin-pointing anybody else...Look at the HP trio..

-ok look harry potter is more mature, more entertaining,has a way larger fan base and has been around alot longer ok. I enjoyed twilight the book but the movie was shit. Harry potter is the superior book and the superior saga so anyone who says that twilight is better and more mature has only ever read the twilight saga and has probably never seen a harry potter movie or read a harry potter book and is intellectually challenged. (yeah you just got owned)

[note from ama; yes heri poter might look childish as the story starts with a little orphan discovering he is a wizard whom wand sparkles. but it grows more and more matured as heri gets older. love, despair, sadness, coward, courage, fear, everything is around. not only loaded with love scene. and love in heri poter tends to be closer to readers, well for it involves HUMANS. and yes, TWILIGHT THE MOVIE WAS shit. the shot was horrible, i was like, what the?? this saga konon2 bagus sgt, but the movie turns out to be like low budget. if only twilight movie is as good as all the harry potters, with the acting and the special effects and everything, kan bagus. i hope with new moon's director a MAN, the movie will improve]

-I like both of the book series, but Harry Potter has a way more complex plotline and appeals to many different age groups, whereas Twilight mostly appeals to pre-teens and teens. I was much more impressed with J.K. Rowling's writing style and plot in Harry Potter.




so thats a bit of it. passionate lovesick girls may never want to try harry potter. apetah lagi bila mereka dah kekal dengan twilight mereka, and refuse to eat their own words. i like twilight, LOVE indeed. but not for long. dah lama2 muak. jemu. bosan. geli.

but i still gonna read it. and watch it.

but, memang takde yang dapat challenge harry potter. sedangkan karya hebat mcm lord of the rings tu pon masih bersaing, ini kan pula a romance novel for teens.

pape pon. love harry go jacob hate edward.
ngehngehngeh XD

must watch Harry Potter trailers

ok.
i have to show u guys this vid.

its the LATEST TRAILER OF THE LATEST HARRY POTTER,
HARRY POTTER AND THE HALF BLOOD PRINCE.

i'm so amazed that i feel like jumping to the mars now.
and i have sacrificed my bedtime to put it here.

so be grateful and do enjoy :)


ps; i dont know whether its my pc or the youtube,
but the sound doesnt go really well.
it stucks here and there and u need to replay it just a little from the part u are watching,
and it might work again.
but i hope the same thing wont happen to u :D

enjoy :D




and this one, i dont know who made it, warner bros or just a fan,
but its quite cool.
and makes me want to jump to the pluto ;>



and this one gets me so excited as it has many new scenes like ron-hermione-lavender moment, etc.




and these two i have posted it before last year, but for MY OWN AMUSEMENT,
i put it again here.


ade sape2 perasan tak yg muka budak voldemort tu mcm leonardo dicaprio kan?
"i can speak to snake, sir. they find me, whisper things" chilling.

jiwang si remaja. ew.

mari maen lagu.
ya, lagu.

seperti manusia normal laen lagu yg aku dengar mestila bertukar-tukar,
maka senarai lagu dalam kategori di bawah pon bertukar-tukar la.
tapi sekarang kite fokuskan kepada lagu yang aku akan sangat feeling bila dengar sekarang,
yakni "my song for the moment".

bwek. bunyi jiwang je.

1. yang tengah menjadi lagu saya
maksudnya yang ade kaitan dengan aku sekarang, yang KONON-KONON ade kaitan,
dan yang diharapkan ade kaitan. ye begitu lah.

- teardrops on my guitar (taylor swift)
- thinking of you (katy perry)
- kau pergi (alif satar)
- save the best for last (vanessa williams)
- white horse (taylor swift)
- dan sebenarnya (yuna)
- rocket (yuna)
- you and i both (jason mraz)
- better in time (leona lewis)
- almost here (brian mcfedder)


hah, tu je lah kot yang aku dapat fikir buat mase ini.
tapi pemenang untuk kategori di atas,
yang membawa maksud aku akan sangat feeling bila dengar lagu tersebut ialah . . .

teardrops on my guitar.

sekian terima kaseh

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rase geli pula bace post di atas nih.
tapi memandangkan aku dah penat membuang mase dan memerah otak buat post taj hape hape tu, jadi tak berbaloi la jika aku delete kan.

maaf aku sedang menghayati dengan gembiranya saat-saat sedih menjadi remaja.

tengok. jiwang lagi.

dush!

mari kembali ke dunia realiti.

aku sebok.

aku ade banyak kerja kursus nak dibuat.

aku ade banyak ulangkaji yang menunggu.

aku sekarang dapat banyak idea untuk bermadah,
menunjukkan jiwa yang sedang bergelodak (betol ke tatabahasa ni? mcm pelik je).

aku tengah menjadi remaja.

sebelum ni aku nak sangat rase, sebab aku dah penat jadi dewasa.

sehinggakan aku anggap kalau aku rase pengalaman remaja yang menyedihkan pon aku akan gelak, sebab seronok rase zaman remaja nih.

tapi aku salah.








aku sebok dan berkecamuk.

babai.

aku nak oral skg untuk penat tapi puas.

tajuk di atas adalah gabungan subtopik yang akan aku tulis harini.
tapi tiba2 berbunyi pelik malah horny pulak. cis bedebah.

sangat tak disengajakan.

sila jangan fikir laen.
kau ingat aku si bodoh mane ha?

lek lek.
maksud tajuk di atas ialah;

"aku perlukan bahan oral untuk dipersembahkan pada hari rabu nanti bertajuk respect parents atau success in education dalam bentuk sajak. masalahnya aku dah cari secara purata dalam tiga hari ni adalah 5 jam. masalahnya aku tak jumpa satu pun yang menepati selera teacher patvinder, maka aku sangat desperate sekarang dah tak boleh tahan lagi dah"

tulah maksudnya.
tapi untuk otak cepat pick up tentang sesetangah hal mcm aku ni,
dorg akan fikir laen tentang tajuk di atas.
maafla ye anda salah blog kalau nak cari org jenis camtu.
tuih.

oraloraloral.
i need you!
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semalam hari yang penat tapi puas.
aku, haje je paje, wani, melah and zakwan (aku kecikkan name kau sbb kau kan tanak kantoi ngn kitorg) naek putra pergi bangunan sultan abdul samad. lepastu naek putra untuk ke monorel yang menghubungkan kitorg dengan perpustakaan negara. pastu naek monorel. pastu guna teksi untuk ke perputakaan negara. pastu naek teksi untuk ke putra. pastu dari putra sampai lah kitorg di jusco wangsa maju.

kitorg jumpa mamat lalok mintak seringgit. aku dah hampir nak kasi 10 ringgit dah ni sebab die kata die da lame tak makan.
kemanusiaan ku tersentuh.

pastu aku beli bag baru dan vcd twilight di jj. vcd sebab duit dah pokai untuk beli dvd harap maklum.

sampai sas pukul 9 pagi camtu.
sampai pn dalam 12 kot.
sampai jj pukul 4 lebih kurang.


penat tapi puas.

dan semalam di kala rumah aku menglights off, aku duduk keseorangan.
jadi aku pon bukak twilight terlentang depan tv.
macam tengok wayang weh feel sengsorang.

ok itu sahaja.

sori la ek wani kite tak dapat nak blog pasal trip kite tu banyak2 dan detail2.
sebok arh.
nak print sejarah, cari oral, itu ini macam2 lagi.

haih.

oh dan semalam aku rase puassssssssssssss sangat.
buat pertama kalinya aku langgar pantang.
buat pertama kalinya aku rosakkan boikot aku selama tiga bulan.

aku makan doublecheeseburger mcdonals weh.
pertama kali dalam TIGA bulan.
aku tak pernah tak makan doublecheeseburger tu selama tempoh masa tersebut.

rasenya?
nikmat dunia :D

school is cool, and i am cold.

memorable quote from the movie Sixth Sense;

"i see dead people all the time. they dont see each other. they just see want they want to see [here's the scene when bruce will's flashbacks are shown in his confused eyes]"

and this quote can be applied in MY life, where it should sound like this;

"i see people studying all the time. they dont see each other. they just see want they want to see [here's the scene when piles of books are shown in the bulging eyes of the pale bookworms]"



sepanjang cuti ni aku selalu online. untuk myspace dan terima kasih kepada kerja kursus sejarah dan geografi (camne nak dpt peta lembah keramat yg clear? tolong~).
tapi bila aku online myspace, aku tak nampak pon kawan2 aku online.
budak kelas aku online.

mana mereka menghilang?

serangan panic. serangan panic. dah tentu mereka dok depan buku, ape lagi. cuti sembilan hari bersamaan (24 x 9) jam nilah merupakan satu peluang untuk mereka mengulangkaji pelajaran sebanyak mungkin mereka rase.

aku pon rase macamtu. tapi, aku tak bertindak mcm dorg.
aku makan, tido, minum, perkara2 wajib, perkara2 harus, perkara2 sunat, perkara2 makruh, perkara2 terlarang (berangan), online, baca buku cerita, spa q, heroes, makan, makan, dan macam2 lagi.

adu. sangat membuang masa. aku rase kecik sgt aku ni kalau nak banding ngn kawan2 aku yg rajin menelaah dan tuisyen siang malam. dush kamu kamu sekalian.

amalina, amalina.

when are you going to realize, really really realize, that u are THE PMR CANDIDATE?



and sa-weeet.
tomorrow, the 'cool school' starts.

hello school,
hello teacher patvinder.

scandals of the . . . year? bwekk

tag daripada hazirah berbau menarik, ringkas dan mudah.
dan juga ade unsur mengfemeskan rakan serta diri sendiri.
jadi aku pon menyahut tag tersebut dengan besar hati.

listing down scandals for this year!
okay ini cume scandal sahaje. gossip semate-mate, saje nk menghot kan post. maybe.. erm who knows?

first.
should be me and . . . *looking for someone*
oh tidak. aku tak femes tahun ni.
pmr pmr. ahahah. oh nmpk sgt desperate. bahahah. shut up.

second.
hazirah dan zakwan!
oi. awk tayah nak sentap eh. dah name pon gosip semata. ehemm ehemmm

third.
hazirah dan M.
yang ni dalam diam. hoho.

fourth.
hazirah dan EFFAEARR.
dah ade clue di situ. yg ni dah ternyata benar, aku sebagai org first yg dapat detect turut merasa bangga.

fifth.
nawa dan zul!
maen osom bersama, gelak dan berduka, kebahagiaan terpancar di sinar mata zul.
dan pantulan spek bagi nawa.
muahahah

sixth.
wani dan . . . *the list goes on and on*
haha. waniii waniiii. dah tak spesel dah scandal awak sebab banyak sgt. wewittt.
*larikan diriiii

seventh.
melah dan amin.
aku rase amin tak kenal aku pon. lantaklaa, at least aku kenal die untuk bergosip. hoho.

eight.
Mosen dan maryam si junior krk.
kena la gak tulis kan, ni yg paling gempak nih.
mengikut pandangan aku, aku rase Mosen saje nak hebohkan scandal die sendiri sebab nak femes untuk jawatan PENGERUSI RK 2009.


ok aku tau yg pasal jawatan tu sgt tak logik.

tapi aku tau yg die tak serious pon pasal maryam.
saje nak cuba2 menggatal tahun2 pmr nih.
ehhem.

ninth.
batrisyia dan nazrin.
cerita ni aku dgr dalam2 pengakap je. nazrin ade bini nombor dua lah, ape lah. kesahihannya tak dpt dikenal pasti sebab sumbernya agak meragukan. tapi memang ade dengarla jugak.
takpela korg, gosip jela dengan kawan2 pengakap korg tu, ketepikan aku. sobsob.

tenth.
iman dan sesape yg masuk kelas kitorg tak kire pompuan atau laki.
budak laki 3cem1 kat mcm siot sikit, sesape je yg masuk kelas kitorg dorg akan jadi anjing menyalak jap dan cakap "iman. . iman. . ."
kalau pompuan boleh tahan lagi, ni yg bila kat laki nak buat jugak tu yg takleh blah tu.
malah, makin tinggi nilai seseorg untuk jadi boyan, makin sesuai dgn iman mengikut pandangan dorg. kasihan iman.




yang laen aku tak amek kesah.
jika diamati ye, dalam list ni semua budak2 kelas aku je. yelaa mari mengfemeskan kelas sendiri, buatpe nak ckp pasal kelas laen kan.
except for the ones yg scandal mereka berlainan kelas, terpaksalah ditulis.

dan minta perhatian, keadaan bukan seperti yg anda bace ye.
kami budak2 3cem1 tidak pernah melebihi sempadan (kott??? tak ke?)
paling tidak pon itu hanyalah perasaan one-sided, syok sendiri sesaje, suke2 mencari orang untuk diusha, suke dalam diam, dan kalaupun gossip itu sebenarnya sesuatu yg betul,
kami hanya akan meneruskan berkawan seperti biase.
senang kate, they know, we dont.

setakat ni takdela kelakuan luar dugaan ke ape kan.
mungkin belum lagi.
we'll see.

fuhh. penat mengexplain.

okk sekian. sesape nak gosip aku sila lah.
aku tengah borink ni.
hikhikhik~
(geli)

the shelter for tornado; sad books.

why do i read too much books about problems and miseries?
for me, the worst the state the character is in, the better it is.

i want to forget mine. i want to be drifted in the wave of emotion of the character, till i forget my own tornado. i know mine is not as much as a tornado, but since i think its the worst of my life, so i have the right to call it whatever i want. unless i have had something much terrible before this one, so i might think this tornado isn't a tornado after all. i might even think its a breeze of the sea.

oh wait, i've had worse.
i dont know.
i dont classify my type of tornado. its scale, what a waste of time.

and i read that kind of books too, to know about other people's lives. to learn what are they suffering from. to make myself feel better, to make me, whats the word you guys say?
'grateful'.

but i always find something to make me jealous. to make i think i would switch my life with the character. after all, i would be just a fiction character. my life's not real, its created with the flowery words of an infamous author. i would be the author's asset to sell her books. i would be a reason for the readers to cry. i would be sympathized with. i would be understood. the readers will follow my path devotedly, will stand for me, and back me up whenever necessary. i can entertain people if i am a fiction character, and i wouldnt even care where's the ending waits for me. after all, i'm not even real.

but i am the reader who reads the sad novel and who wish to cry for some one else's problem.

i envy the character, their downs are indeed awful, but even how suck their life is, it is happy ending that awaits them.
whereas my life might be just A LITTLE sucks, but i cant guarantee how my ending goes.

and they always have at least a person to turn to, a shoulder to cry on, a feet where their heads can lay at. at least some one who is really faithful.

for instance, the novel i'm reading now; 'LIFE AS IT COMES'.

the factor for creating the whole story is that the parents of mado were killed in an accident. leaving her with her wild, carefree sister. the biggest problem in this story is that her sister was someone who is, ok, wild. and being wild, pregnancy is something hard to avoid. with patty, her pregnant carefree sister who is the current guardian of mado, the studious genius, what would happen to mado's lives? her sister isnt an evil antagonist, but usually her decisions bring out the worse. and mado's the one who is in charge for her sister's mistake, being the new parent and all.

sounds pity, but hey.
as careless and wild as patty is, she's still a fun sister to be with, try so hard to provide a good shelter for her little sister, a joker, and make sure life isnt hard after their parents left them.

not a total loser and a sucker, isnt it?

i hate reading sad books. always something good happens around them.

something good ALWAYS happen around me, yes.
but couldnt it be better?

i'd rather be mado.

fight or flee. this time? shut up.

i dont know where's my home anymore.

a friend of mine once said;
home is where your heart is.

and when i was in mjsc serting, i thought it was too.

but now, i begin to wonder if home is actually
with who your heart is.

its not even a place. its a person.

and can a house be called home, when its where my mama is,
but actually its an impersonation of a hell with the fun activity 'fire the person first at the heart, where her soul is'?

i will be called ungrateful for this, but who cares?
i know i'm grateful enough. i cant list everything i'm grateful for. its like in the air i breath out every minute. i know i'm grateful. but would you be for something you put much hate into?


cant wait when i reach the age that allows me to have my driving license and a cute small car,
and drive away from here.

create my own so called home.

drive into nothingness that will be everything with me in it

unfold my own story

lock others'

try everything to know whats right and whats wrong

leave them.

and bring my mama along.

kat mane aku berSPM nanti?

adekah aku kena naek bertingkat2 tangga untuk mendptkan result spm kat smklk,
atau
adekah aku akan masuk ke dewan besar sebuah sekolah yg masih samar2 identitinya???

that will remain as a mystery locked in a box called
'the future'.

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result spm dah kuar. aku lak excited and emo semacam. sedar diri woi, pmr pon tak lepas lagi!
yelaa, cume sebab sekolah aku telah didatangi ngn bermcm2 budak2 lepasan spm yang dibanjiri dgn bermcm2 jenis perasan, so aku rase air banjir tu pon sampai kat kawasan kesedaran aku kot.

tak paham senyap. muahaha.

TAHNIAH kepada yg berjaya.

CUBA LAGI kepada yg tidak berjaya.
SPM bukan penghujung hidup. tak berjaya di dunia,
sila kerja keras untuk account anda di akhirat.

fuah. senang je aku ckp. sure bila jalan2 kat mall ke ape ke pasni tiba2 kang kena tumbuk tak pasal2. haha. cakap mcm aku je eh yg merasa kesedihan tu. yelaa, habes ape lagi aku nak ckp kan? takkan aku nak suruh dorg nanges puas2? tp kalau aku tu diorg, tayah describe la.

aku kan emo.
paham paham sendiri ye.

bestnya bila tau ade dua akak dpt straight as for spm.
hey. do not INSULT MY SCHOOL eh.
dua straight as tu dah cukup bagus dah untuk sekolah aku, tepok la sikit.
cubelaa kalau budak2 pandai yg masuk asrama tu semua stay kat SMKLK,
sure sekolah tu boleh diupgrade kan. jadi sekolah bestari ke ape ke.
silap2 boleh masuk paper.

always possible. ape kate buat undang2 baru;
budak2 pandai sila jangan berambus drpd sekolah lama anda kalau alasan setakat nak merasa pengalaman atau memajukan diri.

kankan?

lepastu yg tak bestnya, cgu ckp tahun ni budak2 spm sekolah aku tu malang dpt pemeriksa yg strict untuk bm.
ade sikit SGT je org yg dpt bm a tau.
budak2 yg cgu target dpt straight as, ramai yg tak berjaya disebabkan bm dorg banyak b.
budak2 tuh yg mmg dah dlm list nih.
even the best student for bm pon, all this time yg mmg cgu dah conferm dpt a, tak dpt jugak.
padahal cgu kate, soalan2 yg keluar tu mostly dah byk kali buat dlm kelas.

SO PANDAI FIKIR la kan.

sayangnya. aku ingat lagi dulu2 after amek upsr, before kuar result,
bnda paling beriya aku doa ialah supaya

-pemeriksa tu baek hati
-pemeriksa tu kosa kata tak terer sgt so kosa kata aku yg sederhana tu pon die anggap power
-pemeriksa tu tak gaduh ngn laki die
-pemeriksa tu punya anak tak buat masalah merengek2 mase die tgh tanda kertas aku
-pemeriksa tu takde masalah kewangan ke, tak bercerai, cukup tido, cukup mkn, dll.

yelaa, kang kalau die ade masalah besar, die tgk kertas aku je terus die buat pangkah besar2. tak ke naya. aku siap doa supaya pemeriksa tu murah rezeki dan hidup bahagia.

tu salah satu tips utk berjaya kot; doakan kesejahteraan hidup pemeriksa anda.


takpe2, aku rase this year spm boleh jadi hebatlah smklk.
dengan banyak senior2 pandai yg tak blah ke sekolah2 elit,
yg masih setia bertapak di sekolah yg telah berjasa,
pasti mereka akan membawa kejayaan untuk sekolah kan kan.

aku mmg berharap gila kat diorg ni.

EHHEM. CALON2 SPM SMKLK SILA TERASA.

look me in the eyes, and u'll be my slave for live

let the holiday,
begin.

oh nonono, not for us the third formers, really a great beginning for a holiday tomorrow;
extra classes.

tu boleh tahan lagi. yang paling tak boleh blah, tengoklaa esok 2 jam kelas aku belaja ape awal2 kan. memang 'pembakar semangat'.

semalam episode kedua heroes volume three part two,
or easier, the latest episode lah kan. man, it keeps getting better and betterla. dikira dari aspek duniawi, ternyata mereka2 yang tidak menonton heroes memang golongan yg rugi. ahak.
sumpah best, jalan cerita gempak, twisted, macam2 arh. malangnya aku takde kenalan yg boleh bawak mendiskusikan heroes dgn lebih mendalam, kecuali,

mosen.

well man, at least now we have one thing in common. hahah.

who would i be if i were one of heroes' characters???

surely i'll be matt parkman. with all the mind reading and the power to control others' mind,
who wouldnt kan? lagipon its a bit reasonable i think, well because even in real world, some people claim they are the physics or something, just know one's thought by looking at their eyes lah ape lah kan. at least if i tell people, they'd understand. imagine i have power like, can move things with my fingers. there's just no explanation for that. no wrong set of dna, like the explanation in heroes about how they get extraordinary talents.

if i were matt parkman, whoahhh. i will know many things, nothing as important as the truth. know when people despise me, when they hate what i do, when they want me to stop the talking, when they want me to change, etc. and they dont even have to spit it on my face, i dont have to feel mad, they dont have to be blamed, all the happy endings. i can know from the smallest thing like,

'what does he think of me?'

to the biggest dilemma like,

'do i hurt people too much?'

all gonna be answered.

and if i am more focused, i can develop my talent into something more, that is control people's mind, make them believe something, make them obey me, make them see hallucination, trap them in their own web of imagination, so on. i can control teachers' mind, i can make my friends believe my white lies, i can make the ministry of education add extra days for weekend, i can even get into one's mind to know what they are thinking during examinations. hah.

how easy world could be.

or i want to be sylar. despite he is VERY good looking, his talent is priceless.
he knows how things work. give him a broken watch as a beginning, he'll fix it. show him how the robots in the movie transformers come to live, he'll make one. shove to his face an ordinary person with extra ordinary talent, he'll cut the head open and study how the brain works and how to get the same power, LITERALLY. cool eh?

but now he has learn how to perform a power without killing the person, thank god. hate to see that beautiful face do the killing every minute. haha, geli gila.

if only i have his talent, hah. i could be the most talented person in the world!
i want to be super genius? just take the flight to meet bill gates.
i want to be a goody-goody saint? just go to the tahfiz madrasah.
i want to be a medal winner athlete? make arrangement to meet all the world's champions.
i want to be drop dead gorgeous? have the angelic smile of jennifer garner will do.

everything will happen just with the click of my super working brain and with the background noise of a tickling clock to make the scene more dramatic.

haih banyak dah aku merepek pasal heroes ni.
la kate nak post yg ringan2?
tak menggambarkan kesengsaraan?
nah haammbek post yg penuh ngn harapan palsu ni. haha.

one talent i really want that is beyond of my reach even if i were in harry potter or heroes;
is to stop death.

maulud nabi dan kisah wanita solehah

selamat menyambut maulidur rasul :)

semoga baginda kekal menjadi tauladan kepada semua umat islam,
kekal menjadi sebutan sehingga ke akhir zaman,
dan kekal sebagai zikir yg melekat di bibir,
kekasih yg setia di hati.
insyaallah.

insyaallah.
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history is created when i, for the first time borrow a book from my school library.
and i wasnt using my own library card thingie, since i never bother to make one.
but something pulling me to borrow this one book, and i even have to pay denda for returning it late. be it 10 ringgit, nothing is worth that much compared to this book.

Peribadi Wanita-Wanita Solehah.

its A must read. the book is really more than interesting, loaded with moral values and heart warming stories and tear producing tales. maybe its not for you, but it is for me.

i learn many things from the book, and i'm quite sure i wont remember all, like always. i dont know what's gotten into me, always forgetting about islamic things, but remember every bit i read in twilight and harry potter. haih. astaghfirullahalazim.

hope it would bring me good someday, which way.
hope it would soften the heart in me, hard as rock, full of dirt.
hope this little knowledge i have of islam would help me clean myself.
only allah knows how serious i am when i say these words.

the longest story is of siti khadijah binti khuwailid.

siti khadijah was on the highest level like no other, because she was the only wife of rasulullah whom allah send his regard to her through jibril.

how cool is that.

khadijah had a dream of the sun, it lowered to the ground and entered her house, it was shining so brightly the whole mekah was lighted by it. curious, she asked her uncle, waraqah. according to waraqah, siti khadijah would soon be married to the last prophet of bani hasyim, from the quraisy tribe in mekah. his name was stated in taurat, that is muhammad saw.

since then, khadijah kept waiting for the man to come knocking at her door, and she rejected all the purposes from men as she was known to be from a respected family, wealthy, graceful and beautiful.

allah had planned it, the jodoh.

abu thalib was worried of muhammad and thought he should have a job at his age because he would have to marry soon, so a relative named atiqah suggested that muhammad worked with khadijah.
at the name of muhammad, khadijah asked every detail of him and when she was sure that muhammad was the one waraqah talked about, she hired him straight away.

we can see from here how she kept her image clean by not disclosing about her dream to anyone else. meaning, she had known about her future husband, and now the man was her worker, still she hadnt seduced him or whatever, or ask his hand for marriage as soon as possible. only god knows how she felt at the moment, muhammad finally before her eyes, still she acted as a sensible woman should be. what would we do if we were in her shoes?

after rasulullah knew he was employed, he cried thinking over his fate.
but he hid it, till not a soul knew about his deep sadness but the malaikat, all of them.

then nabi muhammad had to follow khadijah's other employees to do the business in syam, and once again he cried tear of sadness for his fate after he left his house. again, his deep mourning wasnt heard by anyone but allah and his malaikat. he said (betul2 copy dr buku);

"aduhai nasib! andainya ayahku abdullah masih ada, andainya ibuku aminah masih ada, kiranya mereka menyaksikan nasib anakanda mereka yg miskin lagi yatim piatu ini, lantaran ketiadaan ayah dan ibulah yang membawa aku jadi buruh upahan ke negeri jauh. aku tidak tahu apakah aku masih akan kembali ke negeri ini atau tidak. sesungguhnya, kota mekah inilah tanah tumpah darahku!"

man, it really makes my heart cried for our prophet, and it can be seen clearly from my eyes. rasulullah's life wasnt easy, till he had to mourn over his fate, and think about how things might be different if only his parents were alive. it was so sad. our nabi was still human, he was basyariatun, were created with feelings and conditions like ordinary people.

according to riwayat, the screaming of his souls made all the malaikat cried along with him.

as the last prophet, only he didnt know it yet, the group with nabi muhammad was covered by a thick cloud along the journey, and one rahib (prince, father, whatever u called it) noticed the miracle. it never happened before, a thick cloud on top of a group of people. at the place, cloud was hardly there at all. as a rahib, he knew what it meant, he read the taurat. so the rahib invited the group to a feast, to know more about the man who could possibly be the last prophet.

however, the cloud was still above the camp during the feast. after asking someone, he knew that a man named muhammad wasnt at the feast as his duty was to look over the things. when the rahib invited muhammad himself to the feast, he saw the cloud above the camp started to move, following the man besides him. that moment, he was sure of who muhammad really was.

after all the rahib's questions were answered, and finally heard the name 'muhammad' from the man himself, he quickly embraced the man, kissed him between the eyebrows, and said
"laa ilaahaa illallaah, muhammadar rasulullah". after that, he asked muhammad to show his chest, so that he could see the prove. and it was there, the sign of the last prophet. it doesnt state what it was in the book, so i assume it might be the sign from when nabi's chest was cut open to clean his heart when he was little.

riwayat stated that the rahib had converted into islam, even before rasulullah officially received the first wayhu from allah.

with muhammad in the business group, their business succeed and beneficial.
while on their journey, it came the day of jewish, when they celebrated and prayed. muhammad, maisarah (the leader of the group), and abu bakar went into jewish's place of praying, and suddenly all the candles in the room terpadam (sori lack of vocab).

jewish's rahibs did the the reading too, so they know what it meant. they announced to everyone that a man named muhammad, the last prophet was there, and he should be captured that instance. so nabi and his friends sneaked out of the place.

before the group returned to mekah, maisarah told muhammad to return alone earlier, to give the report to khadijah. so on his way, allah asked jibril to shorten the earth on muhammad's way, israfil to guard his right, mikhael to guard his left, and the cloud to shelter him from sun ray.

at that moment, khadijah was looking out of her window, and she was surprised to see muhammad from the long distance. she asked her maids, and her maids confirmed it was muhammad. khadijah was really happy, and she said to her maids, should the person really was muhammad al-amin, then she would free them all.

after reporting, muhammad went home. abu thalib asked about the payment, and when nabi said he didnt receive it yer, he was told to get it right away for they were really in need of money, and to find a bride for muhammad.

he went to khadijah's again. humbly and honestly, he told her why he was there again, and looking down with embarassment. khadijah was charmed by his honesty, but said the payment wasnt much, and wouldnt be able to cover his need. then khadijah said, she could help looking for a wife for muhammad. she described the woman, but never once muhammad said anything. he then left just like that.

when abu thalib and tiqah heard about that, they were very offended and thought khadijah purposely wanted to humiliate their family. atiqah confronted khadijah. khadijah was shocked, and finally had to tell the truth. the woman she was talking about was herself, and if muhammad didnt accept her, she would not be married forever.

allah had opened his heart to love khatijah, although he never thought of the proposal.
people reminded her that muhammad was poor, but khadijah said
"kalau dia tidak berharta, aku mempunyai cukup harta untuknya. aku tidak memerlukan hartanya"
from the day of their marriage, khadhijah had gave muhammad all of her possesions, and muhammad could do whatever with it.

firman allah, surah adh-dhuhaa ayat 8;
"dan dia (allah) mendapatimu sebagai seorang yg kekurangan, lalu dia memberikan kekayaan"
insyaallah.


besides that longgg summary of siti khadijah's story, i want to share another little bit of
rasulullah's another wife, siti aisyah.

in his heart, siti aisyah was the most special one. she had been on the highest level in rasulullah's heart like no other.

a riwayat stated;
"cinta pertama yg terjadi di dalam islam adalah cintanya rasulullah saw kepada siti aisyah ra"

of course, rasulullah's other wives felt a strong kind of jealousy towards siti aisyah, but they still rspected her. and ummu salamah once said;

"demi allah, dia (siti aisyah) adalah manusia yg paling baginda cintai selain ayahnya (abu bakar, sahabat rasulullah)"

during rasulullah's deathbed moment, he wished to be in siti aisyah's house. and he also met his death there, and buried there, before it happened, siti aisyah onced dreamed about 3 moons that landed in her room. her father, abu bakar said that it meant three most honourable and respected people on earth would be buried inside her house.

and it was true, her father abu bakar as siddiq and umar ibnu khattab were also buried in her house, along with rasulullah saw.


siti aisyah, siti khadijah, and other wanita solehah in the book was lucky to have such qualities in them. qualities that make u envy them, question why werent u the one who get to live during rasulullah's time, as para sahabat, why werent u the one who had the goodness in you, why werent u be just as good as they were, and why were u the one who was born in this modern days drawned with sin and have to struggle so hard?

i just hope we could be as good as possible, its okay if we cant be as exactly as they had been, but if we succeed, so the better.

insyaallah :)