The Last Love & Misadventure Adventure, MEETING LANG LEAV HERSELF

OK WHAT EVEN AM I WHAT EVEN IS KERETAPI i even procrastinate doing what i like i even procrastinate blogging about things i like like this one time when i freakiNG MET LANG LEAV

that's like, one month and 10 days ago. what. i can't even. whatever. ok i'm blogging about it now.

although, i must say, even though i have a lot of things to blog, i have another way to let it out, which is by talking to someone. when i talk to that person, as in type, it's like blogging in itself. we don't chat, we converse. long paragraphs you wouldn't wanna read em. it also happens that the things i'm thinking to put up here are the same things which are brought up in our conversations. coincidental conversations. so what i've been keeping in my mind flows out when it happens, which is often. that's why i can get by without blogging these days. but that doesn't mean i'm abandoning my blog. don crey ketapi pls don. i typ u ok.

so, that day. before i talk about that day, let me tell you about the day before that day. in fact, days. those were not some good days. i was upset about some things. the fact that everyone had left for home because exam just ended didn't help either. it's not that i felt alone. it just made me want to go home as well, but i couldn't, for reasons stated in a previous post. but in a way it did help me because at least i didn't have to pretend nothing's wrong, go outside the house and sit at my favourite spot to let my heart out. i did that just inside my own room, and in that moment i actually felt at home. 

i was not okay with everything and everyone but i wanted to go meet Lang anyway but i didn't have a plan so i wasn't really sure of going because i didn't feel like going with everything else i was feeling. but i knew i had to go. i would really regret it and blame myself if i didn't, just for the reason that i wasn't in the mood. 

so the next day i woke up. i looked at the hour. i looked around my room. and i realized i really needed to get the hell out of here. so i did. i knew i wouldn't want to return after i had accomplished my mission. so in my handbag i packed my er... one or two necessities. but that's basically it. i left. my steps felt light, as did my heart. i really had no idea what i would do and where else i would go, but that's the best part. after all, i was on my way to Love & Misadventure, wasn't i? better live up to the name!

to Kinokuniya, KLCC i went.

but that's not just it. when i arrived at the ktm station, i just bought my ticket and the train was coming. i ran passed people and squeezed in between the crowd, but then i saw them. two intec dudes. oh my god. dah kenapa korang tak balik kampung lagi?! what's awkward about meeting people you know is when you don't actually know them. you know each other's name, might have exchanged a couple of words on the internet and made eye contact in real life, but you don't know them to the point of "hey! kau buat pe kat sini? nak gi mana?" that's why i hoped they didn't see me when i was all alone. i hid behind people. when the train arrived i got into the lady zone, feeling relieved. i hoped we're not going to the same place.

i arrived at kl sentral, and just when i was about to buy lrt token, i saw those dudes again. oh my god. i hid behind a pillar. i sneaked a peak. dang, they're still in the line. i wasn't gonna waste my time hiding from them, i had someone to meet at 2 pm! and i had to have lunch at burger king first too! so i got in a line far enough from them, facing the other way. 

in the lrt, i guessed maybe they were going to some place else. there are many places young people would go, right? i should worry no more.

so i arrived! i walked like a woman with a purpose, a lady led by a cause, and.... a fangirl on a mission.

i went straight to kino. i arrived about an hour early. i asked the service counter where's Love & Misadventure, and she pointed it right next to her. there!!! i grabbed one copy with a big grin and asked her again, isn't there a booksigni- she answered straightaway, it's upstairs and i could go now. so i did. but there was already a line! i got in the line quickly. i had to queue for an hour eh? so be it!

but then... of course. a test in the mission. adam, my classmate since i was in third grade up to senior year in high school, the one who was my 'husband' for our school magazine class photoshoot, he suddenly asked me if i was at klcc. when he knew that i was there for the book signing, he asked me to get another copy for his sister and he would come to get it from me. woa wat r u serius? i was in the line! people were lining up behind me! someone idk, a chinese lady who worked at the bookstore or for the publisher or as the event planner idk she looked busy and in charge and moving around, she walked passed me and i asked her "excuse me are there other copies up here or do i have to go down or-" she answered "uh oh yes over there, em don't worry i stand in for you" then she stepped in, taking my place in the line omg so nice ok thanks i went over there and uuuu there's a whole rack of Love & Misadventure!!! nobody had to worry about it being sold out anytime soon! i thanked her a million times. people just smiled lol.

then after a while the line became this. multiple lines.

i guess everything does happen for a reason. it just takes a while for us to know what the reason is. in this case, the reason was this: to get her signature, you must present your proof of payment first. had i bought it earlier, or someone else bought it for me or give it to me, or the stock lasted the first time i went on my Love & Misadventure journey, i'm sure i would have lost the resit. hence no signature. no Lang to meet. no picture. that's also what bugged me that day. i came alone. who's gonna take my picture for me? could i take a selfie with lang, no? i sad.

i look at those fans who came with their friends, or their boyfriends. usually their friends were fans as well, and their boyfriends were only there to accompany them and capture the moment. one chinese couple in front of me, the girlfriend told her boyfriend how and when to take the pictures. then another chinese couple heard them, they started to have a chat and the boyfriend of the latter couple said to that of the former "just keep clicking, you can't go wrong if you keep taking pictures." i couldn't help but laughed. that's so true. good for you girl to have such a boyfriend who knows the business, haha. then they kept chatting about lang and her poetry. meanwhile, i was looking for anyone who seemed approachable so i could ask their favour, to take my picture. eh mestiii. 

so i asked a chinese lady beside me hehe. notice i purposely matched my attire with the book cover?

talking about being a true fan!

it was such an experience going to a book signing. it was my first time :) to be in a place, standing and queuing and waiting with all these fans, it felt good. i felt like i was a part of something. you know what you love has maaaaaaany fans all around the world, and you certainly are not alone, and you certainly can share your love with them on the internet, but you don't really feel it until you really be there together in the real world. like the time when i went to watch the last harry potter movie on the local premier day, i was alone but i didn't feel alone because the whole cinema was true fans on their own scale for having booked and bought the earliest tickets, cried and clapped together when the movie ended, and when the credit rolled a group waved their phones like wands and yelled "MISCHIEF MANAGED!", something so sentimental and sad to us.

that was kind of what it was like at the book signing. everyone was so excited, they talked to each other. some of them came together, some did not, but they talked anyway. around me were people with companies so i couldn't really chat my excitement away. i heard people talking about uploading their picture on tumblr and lang would reblog them. i heard people talking about how they were so nervous to meet her. people saying where is she, asking is she here? i even saw someone from the internet world! 

i knew that was her but she was with her friends and we're separated by people so i couldn't go to her. i forget how we met, well virtually, but i guess it started from blogging world. or was it tumblr first? i don't remember. one way or another, led to the other. but i was the one who reached out to her because i saw how much of a potterhead she was, and i don't normally reach out to strangers alright. we once commented on blog posts, chatted on tumblr, tweeted (yes i had twitter once upon a time) but then we both got busy. i got into college, she's in her final year in medic school. this year, lang posted about something on facebook. i left a comment, telling her to come to malaysia, and then i saw this akak's comment about the same thing. i sent her a private message telling her who i was, since i go by different names on blog and tumblr. she remembered me! she told me she tried searching for me on facebook using my blog email but couldn't find me. that's because i use different emails for facebook, blog, tumblr, and formal contact, *wink hehe. i met her on the internet because of harry potter (she's as much a fan as i am, and i don't say that a lot alright), and then i met her in the real world because of lang leav (well almost, after i had my book signed i searched for her but she was no longer there tsk.) it's amazing how literature can bring people together, eh?

after a while, lang leav's finally here!!! i was at the back of the crowd, the last person in my line, i didn't see her coming. suddenly she was there!! and i heard her voice! we were told to sit but being at the back had its privileges. i just stood and had the best view hehe. i snapped the pictures away and even recorded her reading her poems :)

the short poetry recital session was followed by question and answer session, and the book signing session started right after that. everybody got up and was pumped up, camera at the ready. andddd only then adam came. heh. i'm short and he's tall so it was kinda hard to locate each other. when we saw each other he told me he just wanted to stand outside the line. as my turn was approaching he came closer because i asked him to take my picture, haha. kira kosong-kosong la aku tolong kau kau tolong aku tol tak. but when it was my turn, the chinese lady who stood in for me while i went to take another copy for adam's sister was there and she acted like the important person she was so she ended up being the one taking my picture. adam just stood beside her laughing at how excited i was -..-

i wasn't that excited. seriously. the first thing i said when i came to her, with a calm, cool, collected manner, was "OH MY GOD I LOVE YOU SO MUCH" AND THEN I JUST SMILED THE WHOLE TIME WHILE TALKING TO HER SHE'S SO NICE AND I ACTUALLY SPENT TIME WITH HER LONGER THAN OTHER PEOPLE BECAUSE SHE LIKED TALKING TO ME.

..... ok it's because i had to ask her to sign two copies and she asked me things and i told her things and then she got confused so the chinese lady explained to her and also because we were given a paper earlier and i thought i was supposed to write what i wanted to write about the book or her but actually i was supposed to write what i wanted her to write for me. for example, i should have written something like "I LOVE YOU AMA YOU'RE THE BEST FAN, lang leav" but instead i wrote something like "I LOVE YOU LANG YOU'RE THE BEST ARTIST, ama" but of course what i wrote was sweeter, some lines which rhyme hehe. so when she saw the paper, she was confused again, and i had to explain then she thanked me for what i wrote and i asked her to keep the paper and just write anything in the book. then the chinese lady had to shout so everyone could hear her when she told them, again, the purpose of the paper, BUT WITH CLEARER INSTRUCTION. so that's how i got embarrassed in front of my beloved poet and all them people. which i wasn't! BECAUSE I SPENT TIME WITH HER LONGER THAN ANY OF YOU! HAH! i screamed inside as i left with a smile on my face. adam was still laughing -..-

SO HAPPY!

everything happens for a reason. after a couple of episodes of being upset because of Love & Misadventure, i finally got it. i finally bought it. with my own money. on my own journey. i not only bought it, but i got to meet the author, have her signed my copy of her masterpiece, take a picture with her, and even talked to her!

haaaappppyyyyy :)

no matter how gedik adam is and how melayan i am, it's all role plays only we're actually good decent shy people lol. plus i've seen him the nerdiest when we were 9 so there's nothing he can be embarrassed about anymore hahaha, what's a few pickup lines can do right? he's come a long way! we bring fun to the table yo!!!

so we just had to have a picture together! memories! i was so happy that day i could take pictures of everything!

after we took this one i said "kau la ni tinggi sangat" and yes big grandpa glasses are just his style

"weh girlfriend kau tau tak kau kat sini"

"tau. dia tau aku jumpa kau."

"kau bagitau diaa?"

"ye la"

"uuuuuu"

"mesti la bagitau"

"nak tengok girlfriend kau!"

"aku takde gambar dia"

"alaaa. takkan takde? 

"betul laaa"

"asal???"

after i learnt his reason, i realized adam still hasn't really changed after all heheh

"kau? mana boyfriend?"

"hah? aku mana ada boyfriend"

"yeee la tu"

"betul lah!"

"takkan takde?"

"kalau aku ada kau rasa dia biar je ke aku jalan sengsorang jejauh camni?"

"hahaha"

baru kau faham ye yang aku wanita berdikari! tak perlu lelaki! lulz

"kau nak buatpe pasni?"

"tah taktau. kau?"

"aku pun takde buat pape. balik kot. tapi kalau kau nak jenjalan aku temanla, kesian lak kau sengsorang."

"eh takpe balik je la! aku boleh la sengsorang lek jee."

"kau datang jejauh sengsorang ni sebab nak beli buku ni je la? sanggup eh"

"mestila sanggup! actually aku dah baca dah buku tu, siap save dalam laptop lagi hahaha"

"hok aloh"

"tapi aku nakla beli jugak, itu la yang kau tak fahammm"

"hmm so kau nak gi mana ni?"

"aku taktau, serius aku takde plan langsung. aku yolo gila ni."

"taknak makan ke apa ke? dah datang jejauh takkan nak balik terus"

"aku memang malas nak balik shah alam. aku rasa cam nak balik rumah or pegi upm jumpa hazirah"

"pergi camni je tak bawak pape?"

"yolo"

so we both headed to the lrt. we were talking and i was laughing about something when i saw them... the two intec dudes. i saw the first one, and then i looked at the second one next to him, who caught my eye, we made eye contact OMG WHAT DO I DO. SO I SMILED. HE WASN'T EVEN SMILING WHY DID I SMILE??? did he see who i was walking with? some guy?! wearing matching coloured cloths?! is this why she was alone before?! no wonder she's laughing like she's happy?! lol i was paranoid for a few minutes. they certainly didn't think any of that, they just saw hey that's ama and thought of nothing more. but still. what a perfect timing like we couldn't have bumped into each other some other time, OR NOT AT ALL.

adam wanted to buy Aunt Anne's, and he offered to belanja me! he insisted but i was still paranoid to have the appetite lol such a waste. so i just stood in the line with him. if i were going back home i would buy some for my mom, but i've made my decision about my destination. upon reaching the lrt adam asked me was i going back to shah alam, or home, or going to upm? i said upm. he asked if i ever went to upm before. i said no. he said pergh gila ah kau. i said baru la yolo. aku tak penah pun tetiba je nak pegi sini sana sesuka hati walaupun tak tau kat mana, first time ni. "aku tengah texting ngan hazirah ni tanya camne nak pegi sana sume haha." while waited for our lrt we talked, and then his came first. bye. i was alone again. this time, with Love & Misadventure in my hand :')

on my way hazirah was excited that i'm going to her place she didn't believe it and was even nervous! so cute. i bought her some chocolates as well because she wanted some chocolates, comfort food as she called it. and then i made it! i arrived at upm on my own for the first time just following directions and hopping from one public transport to another and finally i'm here!

yeah

when i arrived at her dorm college i was like where the hell am i... what if the cab dropped me at the wrong place. this is a hella big uni. just walking towards the dorm building is far enough. where on earth are you hazirah?! and then there she was, waving me from her room. the queen datang kau tak turun pun?! suruh aku naik sendiri?! amboi amboi amboi. she couldn't believe i was there right in front of her eyes. aww. for you i will. you couldn't come and accompany me at klcc so i came to accompany you instead! she's bored and alone, because she didn't have a roommate anymore so that meant...... we had all the room to ourselves! yeah pardaaaayyy!

parday pebendanya belum tengah malam dia dah tidur. sleepover apanya gini. i disappoint. i spent my time camwhoring in her room, taking selfies of me with her sleeping as the background hahaha. ye ye je kata boleh late night girl talk takpe dia tak tido awal walaupun esok ada kelas takpeee. konon. sape suruh petang tu heret aku round upm naik beskal?! kan dah penat! omg that evening. i told her i hated her. "I HATE YOUUU TAKNAK DATANG UPM DAH THIS IS THE FIRST AND THE LAST TIME" i said, short of breath. i'm not much of an athlete okaaay, so don't blame me. cycling up and down the hills in upm was killing meee. you should love me for who i am not change me to be like you! hahaha. mentang2 la dak upm, dah biasa naik beskal merata-rata. it's cool, but cruel. i would lose weight if i were to stay in upm. that's good. but with the amount of torture cycling offers, that's bad.

aku adela gak cycle kat shah alam (best gilos) tapi takdela sampai nak tercabut kaki rasa nak mati pffft.

ku tak sanggup lagi. lebih sanggup gemuk jika begini

(but adam said aku makin kurus! hahaha optical illusion at its best)

apa sesengih i hetchu

can you imagine how feminine i was? riding the bicycle dressing like that, wearing handbag. at some points i just hold the handle with one hand because my other hand was holding my bag, or i was lazy so i cycled in a "i'm here for the experience not the exercise, i'm here for breathing in cool air not gasping for air" way. 

dahla ada kejadian memalukan. we both were walking to tempat letak basikal, and i was talking about how long had it been since the last time i cycled on a road with many other vehicles not to mention buses and there are many buses in upm what if i got into an accident what if i fell... and at that moment, it happened.

"camne kalau kita jatuh-"

dan aku terjatuh. kemudian semuanya berlaku dengan pantas. aku terdiam sebab terkejut. did i really fall after talking about falling? hazirah pulak pandang belakang sebab tengok kenapa aku tetiba diam, eh mana ama? tengok-tengok aku dah terduduk kat lantai. aku pandang dia, dia pandang aku. pastu dua-dua gelak gegilaaaaaa. she just stood there and laughed. i just sat there and laughed. a woman in a car just stayed in the car and laughed. at me. she tried to look like she wasn't laughing. she failed. aku taknak bangun sebab maluuu pastu penat oh gelak lemah lutut nak bangun camni. we couldn't stop laughing. it was ridiculous. i fell after i mentioned the word fall? gelak sampai berair-air mata bunyi cam menangis. sakit sikitla sebab jatuh terduduk tapi sakit lagi perut gelak. tetiba dengar suara laki, tapak kaki mereka mendekati. terus aku bangun. bongok gila ahhh.

luckily no other moment of mulut masin happened. phewh.

after upm torturing tour ended, we went to a cafe. everyone was like wearing sport attire, t-shirt, sweat pants, sport shoes, riding bicycles, walking, jogging, that i couldn't help but ask "memang budak upm kuar petang exercise eh?" serious you'd just have to ask! nobody, i repeat nobody i saw wore like a blouse, or a skirt, or a dress, jeans, formal or hipster attire, or anything else. hazirah told me that's just normal, so how do people at intec dress? all possible ways to dress and all different senses of fashion, honey. cehhh puyus. dak dak upm semua sangatlah nature friendly and healthy kot, bagus bagus. minum jap lelepak, eusha, gegossip, cecer. pastu balik kolej kediaman di mana sesi visitor photoshoot diadakan sampai senja.

malam tu dah mandi pakai hazirah punya toiletries, basuh baju pakai hazirah punya sabun dan berus, sidai baju pastu pakai baju hazirah pula, ditinggalkan hazirah cos she's got a meeting. dak dak degree memang begini. namun begitu beliau prihatin akan kebajikanku. sibuk fikir aku nak makan apa semua, i felt so loved haha. i was touched :') after she left me with food only then she went out. mungkin sebab ada orang tanya "dah bagi ama makan ke belum?" hahaha macamla aku ni anak dia ke kucing dia ke apa, "bagi makan" lol. so while she was out i was alone. but i was really glad i came. it was not much, but it was a getaway i needed :')

got to tell her a few things, we talked about some things, take my mind off things, that's the best part.

i have camwhore complex. it's a disorder. i want my pictures to be taken but they end up ugly (actually it's me) so it's rather pointless to point a camera at me but i never give up. lulz. the one holding the camera is the one who gives up because i see the picture, i delete it, and i ask them to snap it again. haha

after many attempts i was disappointed and i told hazirah

"camne ni, awak yang kena jadi photographer kita kawen nanti! buatla kita nampak cantik!"

memember, so i expect a free service! kira wedding gift la. but then we agreed to hire a pro instead. because

"kita dah hire so keje photographer la untuk buat kita nampak cantik, bukan salah kita kalau gambar tak cantik!"

LOL. what if i hire a photographer but i look bad in the photographs, do i still have to pay? lolol

i'm better at taking pictures of myself than having people taking pictures of me so here some selfiesss

my face after facing a near death experience: exercising. that's why i looked like a corpse.

hazirah's face: pwedday as always. well, live up to the name la. she's the cuter half, but i'm the better half.

she's the one who called me her better half, i'm just honouring her opinion tqluvyuhaz HAHA

that morning i woke up, she was getting dressed for class. what am i gonna do while you're goneee? just sleep she said. so i kept on sleeping lulz. when i woke up again, her block was quiet and empty except for a couple of girls and makcik cleaners. upm made me felt so peaceful, as if i'm on a holiday trip, with the fresh air and the chirping birds and the greenery. aku jela yang peaceful pun, orang lain miserable kena gi class muahahah. i had the bathroom all to myself, and the bedroom all to myself, and i waited for hazirah to come back. she came back with lunch for me, such a mother she was, practicing maybe, then when she was out for her afternoon class i left with her as well, to go back to reality: intec. i wished i could stay for another day, she wanted me to stay too, so cute this mother, but i just had to leave.

thank you for your hospitality. tsk.

like i said, like a mother.

she even tweeted this picture of me leaving, and even one when i just arrived.

so happy to see me come and so sad to see me leave. oh mommy.

i returned to intec, feeling fine, and fresh. it was like i got better, or i became someone new. idk, but i like it. i've always wanted getaways and holidays, not for the fun itself, but for the escape it gives me. yet i've never felt like this. when all i did was visit hazirah at her university. but it was enough. maybe because i was alone on the journey, i felt free, i had liberty, i spent time with her, i surrounded myself with nature, i let things out, i let myself lost and i found myself again. i like that.

some people think it's crazy that i was willing to go to KLCC from shah alam, alone, just to meat Lang Leav. even crazier when i decided to go to serdang for the first time to have an unplanned sleepover with Hazirah. a misadventure for love. but sometimes in life, you've gotta have some Love & Misadventure. 

the feeling of finally getting what you want, the feeling of being found in a new place as you were lost in your own, the feeling of going with your gut.  

so worth it :)

Main Air dan Salji di i-City Weeeee!

Kata orang mustahil untuk main air dan main salji dalam satu hari, apetah lagi di tanah air sendiri! macam mimpi di siang hari! tapi kini, dengan adanya WaterWorld dan Snowalk di i-City, istilah mustahil tiada lagi! mari! mari!

LOL APEKAH.

ksooo, aku dengan gegirls Cemerlang 1 pergi i-City minggu lepas, seperti yang dinyatakan dalam perenggan di atas, for the sole purpose of main air dan main salji. takdelah semua gegirls join, just a few good friends of mine. kepada friends yang tak dapat join, nanti kita jalan-jalan lagi ye friends ama sekaliannn janganla sedih hehe susah betul jadi kesayangan ramai ni u'olz *tampar sikit si poyo ni

warning: this trip will make you thank science for causing frost bite (almost) and adrenaline rush, but at the same time keeping you save and alive. really, i was trying to connect everything to physics and chemistry lolol

ama and friends

tapi sebab kami sampai ketika matahari terik di atas kepala, untuk mengelakkan sunburn dan panau akibat main air tengah-tengah panas (rosak kulit i u'olz) kitorang pilih untuk.... main salji dulu!

nampak tak betapa lovingnya rakan-rakanku? tsk

SALAM PERANTAUAN DARI UK/US (THIS IS NOT THE TIME TO DECIDE) KEPADA BONDAKU DARIPADA ANAKANDAMU DAN DUA EKOR PENGUIN. KAT UK US PUN ADA PENGUIN OK

kat uk/us pun ada igloo tawww

siap ada rumah ais lagi lengkap dengan kerusi, meja dan tingkap u'olz

muka aku cool kan. padahal kesejukannya tak dapat digambarkan! brrrrrzzz

kau nampak tak tahap kesejukannya. nampak tak. dah nampak dah? HAA SEKARANG AKU NAK CAKAP YANG STOKING TU STOKING BARU YANG TAK PERNAH MENYENTUH MANA-MANA JARI KAKI OK. I JUST HAD TO. YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND.

masuk Snowalk ni baru kau tau erti beku. ada yang dah nak frost bite yang tak rasa hidung yang mulut nak bercakap pun sakit nak tekan butang camera pun jari dah tak function bagai. siap terfikir macam mana laaa nak survive kat uk/us nanti. begitu sekali tahap kebekuannya u'olz.

so Malaysians~

like i said, so Malaysian~ LOLOL

kinda believable

this looks like a freaking cemetery i don't even know why it's there with the orange swans i just what



so apa lagi ada selain ice sculpture ala-ala kat kenduri kahwin orang kaya kat sini?

don't fret my adrenaline rush junkie friends!

duduk dalam pelampung dan korang akan ditolak dari tempat yang agak curam turun berpusing-pusing sampai aku rasa macam perlampung tu akan terbalik dari atas buat aku melantun-lantun pastu jadi macam final destination masa turun pulak laju gila macam nak terpelanting terlanggar dinding i was scared shitless for a few seconds it felt like that thing was never going to stop sliding fuh fuh sebbaik masih hidup

(btw that was not me i used a pink pelampung tehee)

ada gelongsor ice jugaaa!


tapi tanpa ini semua pun i bet you guys will have a lot of fun camwhoring and freezing to death, betul

i wish i will be in a place with real snow two years from now and i wish you girls will be there with me too, just like i wish you girls were here with me in Shah Alam :( 

tapi lambat lagi sebelum kita terpisah makin jauh, jadi sekarang mari gembirakan diri dengan....

main air!

YEAHHH WE'RE READY TO GET WET! ...AWKWARD

sebab tu aku tak pernah teringin nak pergi main air semua ni, sebab rasa macam leceh je nak basah-basah dengan tudung segala. kang terselak ternampak terapa kang, masalah. tapi lepas pengalaman pertama ni, hmm not bad. bila ada orang pandang kitorang pakai macam ni, rasa cool pulak. who says girls with hijab can't have fun (without wearing body hugging so-called muslimah swimsuit) right? 

ini betul-betul membuktikan tiada apa yang mustahil! oh yeaaah!

takdelah macam Sunway Lagoon, but for a first timer, bestlah jugak water park ni. ada kolam yang ada wave effect macam kat pantai (rujuk gambar di atas) yang wavenya bapak best sampai terpelanting kitorang, ada kolam untuk budak-budak kecik yang ada gelongsor air segala (main kat situ sebagai warm up sebelum main gelongsor untuk orang besar tetapi ditegur oleh seorang pakcik "heh ni untuk budak-budakla!" KFINE), ada gelongsor untuk orang besar yang boleh duduk dalam pelampung sengsorang, ramai-ramai atau turun slide macam superman (SERIUS ADRENALINE RUSH FOR A FEW SECONDS OMG), ada kolam tempat lepak orang besar, ada tornado ride yang besar gedabak, but the best is...

DUDUK DALAM PELAMPUNG (ATAU BARING, MENGIKUT KEHENDAK HATI ANDA) DAN BIARKAN ARUS AIR MEMBAWA ANDA MENGELILINGI WATERWORLD TERSEBUT SAMBIL ANDA MENIKMATI KETENANGAN DENGAN MENUTUP MATA, MENGAGUMI KEINDAHAN LANGIT DAN AWAN, MENYANYI BERSAMA LAGU YANG DIALUNKAN  ATAU BERPUSING-PUSING DALAM PELAMPUNG HINGGA PENING LALU PENGSAN.

serious best. untuk pemalas kot. har har

nampak tak keterujaannya tu

nampak tak ketenangannya tu

meanwhile on land....

sebanyak mana pun kami telah berubah sejak 6 tahun yang lalu, kalau dah camwhores memang camwhores juga

mereka normal sebenarnya, malah cantik dan ayu pula

tibalah masa yang kita semua tidak nantikan... masa untuk pulang wuwuwu

orang busy memang camni, dialah tengok peta, dialah telefon teksi

nampak tak betapa busy

sementara tunggu teksi...

camwhoring lagi

nak buat camne, girls will be girls~

ok now comes the non-nonsense part.

these are my friends. 1C1 was where it all began (well, i've known Pejah since primary school and Nawa since childhood because she's my girl back door - jiran belakang rumah - but i guess real friendship did not really begin then). now, we've been friends for almost 6 years. the first three years together, the second three years apart. but may it be a friendship which lasts forever.

this is what you would call a 'gang'. i guess we were. and still are. these were my close friends the first three years of high school. although we don't really share secrets cos it was not my thing back then, lol, we shared quite the same minds and views on almost everything. 

but these girls broke my heart when all of them, i repeat, all of them left me alone after PMR, left SMKLK for elite boarding schools. if you dig into my blog archive you can read about how miserable i was back then, having to start over at the same old place. i know laaa i was the one who didn't want to be in a boarding school again but i did not expect all of them would want to. tsk. nonetheless, here we are 3 years after that ;)

and this, is my best friend. BEST FRIEND. WOW. STRONG WORDS. LIKE LOVE. i love her, she's my best friend. and i think it took me 5 years to say this. i don't throw around the words 'best friend' and 'love' like it's nothing, because it has such a deep meaning. but those 5 years of not labeling each other and of unspoken words, i knew we both knew it, even if i didn't say it :')

it may not show in the pictures but i know she loves me too. ahaha. in any relationship i'm just the one who tries harder and loves harder, nak buat camne tsk tsk wuwu. but like i always say, you're my other half but i'm your better half anyway. konon. har har har

I LOVE YOU GUYS. THERE.

let's end this beautiful day with tutti frutti shall we?

How I Met Your Mother : Season 7 Recap... and THE BRIDE!

As a die hard fan of HIMYM -

"HIMYM? say wuuuuut?"

- ugh, How I Met Your Mother, i'm gonna blog about the season finale of season 7, because it's just legend - wait for it - dary! legendary!

LEGENDARILY LONG POST ALERT. THIS IS A RECAP OF A COUPLE OF EPISODES BECAUSE

AND I BLOG THIS WITH LOVE.

after i've watched the finale, i was like

but of course, with a face full of happiness and eyes full of tears.

the episode showed what i have been hoping for and expecting, much unlike the final episode of season 6, which i did not see that coming, and which was awesomely mind blowing, this  -

but who's the freaking bride?! i'm a devoted shipper of Barney/Robin. i will go down with the ship.

At the wedding, Barney and Ted were talking about which 'tie' Barney should wear, whether he should have picked the other one, he was worried about picking the wrong 'tie' to wear for the rest of his life. it's clear how he was not talking about ties, but rather about the bride. did he choose the right bride? well of course he did, if she's Robin.

when he first fell for Robin, he told Ted about it as if he was talking about his suit.

the question is this time, was the 'tie' Robin or Nora?

at the end of the episode, Lily told Ted that the bride wanted to see him.

the question is, who wanted to see Ted? a bit weird isn't it if it was Nora, since they weren't really friends... SO IT SHOULD BE ROBIN!

but we'd never know, until we watch the last scene of the last episode of this latest season. 

before we get there, let's take a look of what happened along the way.

The Best Man

Robin realized she still had feelings for Barney. Lily, being Lily, much like me, smelled it.

after being encouraged by Lily, Robin was about to tell Barney how she felt, they danced and it got sweetly intense, and she was like i have something to tell you, but his phone ranged. it's Nora, tadaaa! really? Nora, there's no better timing, eh?

he didn't know what to say, so he asked Robin for help. Robin, who was supposed to help Barney get back together with Nora, indirectly told him how she felt and Barney, obliviously, repeated all the words Robin said to Nora.

i was sure seconds before he got the call, Barney felt something was there too, just like the last episode of the previous season, before he bumped into Nora.

then Robin was talking to Ted who seemed to have lost faith in fate, much unlike him. Robin said

"if you have chemistry you only need one other thing – timing"

when she said that, i knew she has always had chemistry with Barney, but the timing, not yet. the timing will be right one day, but not yet. that's enough to keep me going.

Tick Tick Tick

This is one of the saddest episodes ever. just look at this poster above you'll know it's not gonna be good for your fangirl's (if you're a fanboy i'll give you an internet high five! *place your palm on the screen*) heart and eyes.

Barney and Robin had to deal with the consequences of cheating on their partner. the kiss in the previous one made me go all "awwwh i knew this would happen again!" i'd never tolerate anyone's cheating but kamonnn, this is barney and robin! it only shows how they couldn't stay away from each other, and destiny would always find a way because they're meant to be together.

Barney said to Robin

“What if this whole thing isn’t the story of how we both made a horrible mistake and ruined our relationships? What if it’s actually the story of … how we got back together?”

YESSS! A STORY OF HOW YOU GOT BACK TOGETHER! AND HOW TED MET THE MOTHER!

so they decided to tell their partner what happened. Barney wanted to tell Nora, but at that time Nora was introducing her parents to Barney. Nora's dad then said to them

and you know who's and what's in Barney's mind when his eyes were on Nora? THIS

KENOT STOP THINKING - BEST FRIEND - SOUL MATE - KENOT COMPARE

So, Barney admitted what he did, quite unexpectedly, well, being Barney... you should know how he was or who he used to be. he was brave enough to admit it, selfless to face the outcome, regret it and apologized, just for the sake of Robin, that meant a lot of love, coming from Barney. Nora asked if it was a one time thing, if he could tell her it didn't mean anything. Barney said no.

Robin wanted to tell Kevin what happened. but Kevin didn't want to know. He's ok with everything, he said. Robin asked Kevin the same thing he did Barney -

tick, tick, tick...

Barney was waiting at the bar for Robin.

the gang found Barney and he told them he and Nora broke up. he said "at least, the worst part is over." oh Barney, sweet, sweet Barney. you must think it's the worst you had to deal with right? after this you and Robin would have a happy ending, what could be worse? well just wait a sec my friend.

Robin walked into the bar, and Barney had this little half-smile, because what they did was a secret, but he couldn't hide his smile anyway, his happiness, relief and love shone on his face. to him there she was... we're gonna tell the gang... and you'd be mine again... for good this time. 

but then he saw Kevin walking in behind Robin.

HIS FACE. HIS BLOODY FREAKING FACE. YOU CAN HEAR HIS HEART SHATTERING AND MY MOANING. NEIL, YOU'VE ALWAYS BEEN A LEGENDARY ACTOR BRO, BUT THIS TIME YOU BROUGHT IT TO A WHOLE NEW LEVEL. YO FACE KILLED MEH.

Robin turned around, and Barney did like this head thing, his expression was like "what happened?" but you still can see there's a lil hope left in him, like he's not giving up yet, but then she was like

tick, tick, tick, the second that will never end

to Barney, time stopped, everyone else was on pause except him. you could only hear the ticking of the clock. he was confused and crushed, he had headache from all these feelings he couldn't bear. when time resumed its normal speed, he told the gang he's leaving, "tough night." they all thought it was because of Nora, but Robin knew better. Barney knew better.

as Ted went back to the apartment, he saw Barney in Robin's bedroom, picking rose petals and blowing off candles, throwing everything into a garbage bin.

Barney and Robin's kids

the episode featured Robin's kids. Robin told Barney she might be pregnant, and he was the father. I WAS LIKE OH MY GOD SHE'S PREGNANT WITH BARNEY'S BABY IS THIS REAL WORLD OR IS THIS A FANTASY???

so instead of Ted, she was the one narrating and telling the kids "this is a story of how i met your father," and it shows the father is Barney. the kids looked like both of them, and her son was wearing a suit! i can imagine Barney suiting up his baby boy when he was only a month old! the apartment, the furniture, the place sure looked like Barney's taste.

but then... we found out the pregnancy was a false alarm.

and then... we found out that Robin... couldn't have a baby.

and that... she was sitting all alone imagining talking to imaginary kids of her own.

well, i did.

Robin was never someone who wanted to settle down and have kids. but when she knew she wouldn't have kids not because she didn't want to, but because she couldn't, it affected her. even if she changed her mind, there's nothing she could do. it's different, not wanting and not being able to have children. she actually cried. it's one of the most devastating news a woman can ever hear.

she didn't tell anyone about it, although the gang noticed her difference. they didn't know, but they were there for her. she was never alone.

i said that Robin wasn't the type to get married didn't i? but she had matured, her character had developed. Kevin proposed. she wanted to say yes, but she knew she had to tell him about her being infertile. Kevin's response was "will you marry me?" for the second time.

Robin told him again, it's not like she couldn't have kids, she didn't want them too. she wanted to make it clear - not adoption, not whatever. and.... Kevin unproposed.

for the first time she was ready for something serious, and she was with someone who she wanted to be serious with, but that didn't happen. because she didn't want kids.

that's how they broke up.

Woaaa Ted, Siriusly?

after Robin broke up with Kevin, out of nowhere, there came Ted blurting "i love you" to robin, again. waddehel? ted? rly? again? r u kidding me? u're killing me!

if you were a real person Ted, i would give you hell. to fall in love as easily as you fall out of love, IS NOT COOL. you're all about finding the right girl you ruin others and even yourself in the process. you're confuse about whom to choose, and between being lonely, needy or in love. but at least you're serious with every girl you meet, thinking she could be the one not just juggling them like toys and playing with them whenever you want. but you use the L word way to soon, i'm sure it's not even real love. when you finally find her, the waiting's gonna be worth it. i love you for being such a guy and i wish i were the one with the yellow umbrella, but stop being desperate, ok? ESP NOT WITH ROBIN.

i hate Ted/Robin together is one thing, but Ted acting stupid, is another. i don't think this is even a crush or a confusion, let alone love, this is a loner loving the idea of being in love! i understand, it's torturing you, the waiting. you've stopped hoping for destiny to arrive at your doorstep after a parade of wrong girls you used to date. i too, love the idea of love, but let's not be some desperados, shall we?

i know the point is for Ted to find closure, but how many closures do you need? ok when you guys broke up it was because Robin didn't want to settle down, so there was no point in dating because you were looking for a future bride, fine. now 7 years later you see her all vulnerable and single and ready to commit, and you're in love again? puh-lis. just before that sudden confession, you were hitting on girls because you didn't want to be alone on Valentine's Day, boo!

“Sometimes, things need to fall apart to make way for better things.”

—

Ted Mosby

now you heard it clear, Robin wasn't in love with you, ever. you've got your closure. now go find the mother.

FINALLY, THE FINALE

forget about Barney-Ted-Robin for a while, what happened to our favourite couple Marshall and Lily?

in the previous season finale, they found out they're having a baby, but this season finale - they had the baby already!

Welcome to the gang, Marvin Wait-for-it Eriksen!

i love Marshall, Lily and now Marvin, but we just have to get back to those romance and suspense don't we? let this one little family sleep so they don't hear my heart explodes with emotions.

   

after Barney broke up with Nora and his heart being stomped on by Robin, he found a new girlfriend - a rebound girlfriend actually, not healthy, he thought he was in love and happy but in reality he was burying his misery - named Quinn, or Karma, which was her stripper name. yes, she was a stripper.

Barney has always liked strippers (or what they do), so good for him to have a girlfriend of that nature. if Robin and Barney had chemistry, Quinn was actually the male version of Barney. that's cute and would get them together, but that's not gonna keep them forever. while Barney and Robin's "awesomeness cancelled out each other", i'm sure two versions of the same person won't work either. of course, Barney met his match, she gave him em, what he needed, but she was not Robin. so, sorry, you're cool but it's not long before we're gonna say good bye to you Quinn. 

they will end up together, trust me. this thing about Robin with Don/Kevin and Barney with Nora/Quinn, it's a mistake had to be done so they'd know what's right for them. it takes meeting the wrong people to teach you how to know who's the right one. it's being with others which makes you realize what you want in the one. their other relationships weren't obstacles standing in the way, but rather a path bringing them to the right destination.

maybe the experience in other relationships would make them a better man and woman, a better lover. they'd learn something from it which they could use later. those experiences would make them mature and better when Robin and Barney finally get together. if it hadn't been for Don/Kevin and Nora/Quinn, maybe Robin and Barney were still the same person they once were and it's impossible for them to get back together.


in the end, Barney and Robin will realize they need no one else but each other.


how Kevin unproposed when he found out Robin didn't want kids and Barney couldn't accept Quinn being a stripper, it shows they need a relationship in which two people can accept each other and never ask the other person to change. you saw how flawless Barney/Robin was when they were a couple. no change was required, everything was accepted. the only thing was it's the wrong timing.

BUT BUT BUT

that sweet, sweet Barney, for the first time, thought about getting married and having kids. BARNEY, WHO DIDN'T APPROVE MARRIAGE AND WANTED TO LIVE HIS LIFE LAYING ON A BED OF WOMEN AND MONEY AND SUITS, WANTED TO SETTLE DOWN. he's grown up :')

but Robin... although quite ready to tie the knot..... can't and won't have kids. what will happen to the dreams of my sweet barneeeeey?


well i say, screw it.

WAIT WAIT WAIT WHAT ABOUT TED?


ok i'm a bit (read: very) obsessed with Robin/Barney, that i seem to forget the whole point of this story is how Ted met the mother.

no, i didn't forget him. i'm putting him on hold. if you're a fan who's never missed an episode which sometimes includes clues about the mother, you'll know why.

Ted told his kids he met their mother at a wedding, the last wedding he thought he would ever be at. and tadaaa, who's one person the world thought would never want to get married? BARNEY! TED MET THE MOTHER AT HIS BEST FRIEND'S WEDDING! WHICH HE ACTED AS THE BEST MAN! YOU KNOW WHO ELSE ASKED TED TO BE THEIR BEST MAN? ROBIN! SO AGAIN, THAT'S WHY "THE BRIDE WANTS TO SEE YOU TED"!


back to Ted, so before he meets the one and ends the whole series, Barney must meet his first.

after giving him the closure, Robin once again became Ted's cheerleader. who gave him hell for being full of craps and chasing after the wrong girls.

ironically, despite of her advice, she told Ted to call Victoria, Ted's girlfriend in the first season - the one who got away because he cheated with Robin. what's the irony you asked? well... Victoria's engaged.

Ted called her and she agreed to meet.


Ted : Okay, I need to figure out if Victoria ever got engaged. I’ll have to very subtly check for an engagement ring. 


Victoria :

Ted : Hmm, can’t see the left hand.

Me : RLY?


after a couple of seconds only Ted realized why the hell was Victoria in a wedding gown?! it was her wedding day, but she was ready to become some else's the one who got away. that guy would be left at the altar... something Ted knew how it felt. you'd think he would have sympathized with him, being left on his wedding day when Stella left with her ex. he would know the right thing to do... but

THEODORE MOSBY! DAHEL R U DOIN?!

meanwhile in an airport, Barney proposed to Quinn. TRUE STORY. I CAN'T EVEN, WUTEV.

so when you were in denial but still preparing yourself to see Quinn in her wedding dress...

come again?

ASDFGHJKLASDFGHJKLASDFGHJKLASDFGHJKL

THE RIGHT SUIT, THE RIGHT TIE, THE RIGHT ONE

ROBIN'S RIGHT THERE, BUT SOME PEOPLE JUST CAN'T HAVE IT THAT WAY CAN THEY?

this link : 63 reasons why Robin is Barney's bride

this link : an interview with HIMYM's boss "it had to be her."

two of the similarities between HP and HIMYM are the foreshadowing, the continuity, the hints and the plot holes being filled AND the debates and predictions about what's gonna happen. i love it all :')

there are speculations all over the internet. one, because they are Robin/Ted shippers. two, because HIMYM is a story of twists and turns. so people are still refusing to believe what's between the eyes.

although i reject all theories because i'm a shipper of Barnman and Robin, even i'm afraid to believe it myself. i'm afraid the wedding doesn't go as planned, as the future Ted narrated it this way "it was a wedding gone horribly wrong."

1. Double Wedding Theory

maybe Ted being summoned by the bride doesn't mean it's the same groom's bride who summoned Ted before that, because Robin had also asked Ted to be her best man, and Ted would naturally be Barney's. maybe they got married on the same day in the same church with the same best man... but not to each other. NO!

2. Cancelled Wedding Theory

well, my theory is he maybe didn't go through with it... but still ended up with Robin. cos the two of them were modern people who didn't want to settle down and have a family like normal folks would. maybe they figured, they still can be in a committed relationship without a ring on their finger?

i like this idea better as long as they're still together.

3. Bride Swapped Theory

Barney was about to marry Quinn before something happened (maybe Robin came running in and stopped the wedding/Barney realized his feelings/Quinn realized Robin and Barney's feelings/etc), which caused the change of the bride, from Quinn to Robin. maybe that's what Ted meant by saying it's a wedding gone wrong.

and did you realize the mini tight striking pink bridesmaid dress Lily's wearing? it's not something Robin would choose for her bridesmaids and even if she went insane and did, Lily would never agreed to it. striking pink and being sexy are Quinn's things. so maybe at first it was Quinn's wedding indeed.

4. The Mother Theory

- Victoria

as much as she seems like the one episode wise, she isn't. why? cos if you ever pay attention, there are some hints about Ted's wife which can never make her Victoria. one, and the most important so far, is he met her at Barney's wedding. some people point out how quirky Victoria is, after everything that happened between them she might want to start over and introduce herself as if they just met. ok, not impossible. 

but when Ted was dating a girl, he went to her apartment. he saw an ankle of the girl's roommate... who happened to be his future soul mate.

and on Ted's first day of being a professor, he entered a lecture hall and rambled about architecture just to be told later that he was in the wrong hall. it was funny and embarrassing... more so when it turned out his future wife was sitting in there watching him made a fool of himself.

so, no Victoria.

- Robin

some shippers believe that she's the mother, despite the very first episode when Ted told his kids "so that's how i met your Aunt Robin." AUNT! IS THAT NOT ENOUGH?

or not, apparently for some who go too far thinking maybe their mom's dead and then he remarried Robin. siriusly, i don't think they will call their step mom 'aunt', it's not a normality for westerners. and to kill off Ted's wife, whom he's been waiting for forever, after all this time just to have her dead to satisfy your shipper's heart? shame on you!

as it turned out, when Ted told the kids about Robin on the very first episode, he didn't say it for himself. but he said it for Barney... OMG THIS GIF ABOVE MAKES MY HEART MELT

the reason why the pilot started when the geng met Robin is because she's gonna marry Barney, and that's how Robin became significant because at Robin and Barney's wedding was where Ted met the mother. without Robin, it would not happen. Robin is an important part not because she's the one for Ted, but because she'll bring Ted to the one.

can you guess why he referred Robin as 'aunt' and Barney as 'uncle' to his kids besides the fact that the three of them are best friends... ?

because the mother could be.....

- Barney's half sister, Carly!

MIND BLOWN ISN'T IT? A UNIVERSITY STUDENT, PROBABLY AT TED'S UNIVERSITY, AND WHO WAS THE ROOMMATE OF TED'S EX-GF WHO WAS A STUDENT, AND LIKE BARNEY, HE HADN'T MET HER YET!

it's Friends all over again. Ross's best friend, Chandler, married his sister Monica, whose best friend was Rachel, who ended up with Ross! best friends inbreeding = one happy family.

it's Harry Potter all over again. Ron's best friend, Harry, married his sister Ginny, while Hermione, the best friend of both Ron and Harry, married Ron! best friends inbreeding again.

but no complain, as i love them all and best friends marrying each other and forming their own family are awesome! please let it happen in HIMYM's case. Barney needs to marry Robin and Ted needs to marry Carly, so that's how Barney and Ron became uncle and aunt to Ted's kids!

5. There's No Mother Theory

Conspiracy Keanu, enough with the conspiracies oredi

just because this is a story which has blown minds many times, doesn't mean at the end of the episode he'd tell them "you're adopted", or "that's how i met your mom who is not my wife cos i married Robin or whoever she is", or "so kids, that's the story of how Uncle Barney met Aunt Robin, the end." no.

“The great moments of your life won’t necessarily be the things you do, they’ll also be the things that happen to you. Now, I’m not saying you can’t take action to affect the outcome of your life, you have to take action, and you will. But never forget that on any day, you can step out the front door and your whole life can change forever. You see, the universe has a plan kids, and that plan is always in motion. A butterfly flaps its wings, and it starts to rain. It’s a scary thought but it’s also kind of wonderful. All these little parts of the machine constantly working, making sure that you end up exactly where you’re supposed to be, exactly when you’re supposed to be there. The right place at the right time.”

—

Ted Mosby

she better be one heck of a mother Ted.