Not The Final Goodbye, Its Just THEIR Time To Fly

last day budak SBP kat sekolah. last time Izzati dengan Amira dtg paling awal, last time diorang yang jadi penanda untuk line class. kalau diorang duduk 10 kaki jauh dari tempat asal pun classmate lain sure ikut. aku biasenye orang ketiga sampai, pagi2 dah selalu dengar Izzati dengan Amira gaduh, kelakar pun ada diorang ni, topik tah hapa2 boleh bercakaran.

Amira baik sebenarnya. gang die and gang aku dulu selalu gaduh, esp in form 2, pasal kawan2 aku banyak pengawas and selalu tegur diorang. mcm2la episode jadi, and they're pretty mean actually. haha. tapi kalau dah kenal, dah biase dengan diorang, diorang okay je. antara diorang, aku paling okay dengan Amira kot. Syuhada memanglah kan, kawan since tadika tu.

Izzati harini kasi nasi lemak free mak die buat, untuk aku and some others, gila terharu ok. kitorg selalu sangat cukai bekal dia, mmg jahat tp kalau bab makanan, semua lupa. aku ckp kat Izzati, last day awak bawaklah nasi lemak, nak rase untuk kali terakhir. lepasni takde dah Izzati Pembekal Makanan. but i wasnt expecting anything close to this. sesudu dua nasi sudahlah, ini SATU BUNGKUS? Allah bless them. aku kasi jugak RM5, tu pun still tak cukup untuk compensate semua yg die dah tolong selama ni :')

so there, the first two people yang aku tulis. not in any specific order, and randomly described. you wouldnt think that i will be able to say everything about everyone in this blog, would you? kalau nak mcmtu sila ke blog Nawa, perfectly made. i'm not good at listing things about people, so here are just the things that come across my mind this very moment, okay?

3C1. missing: the boys, masyitah the photographer, and Aisyah experiencing Teknik.

waktu Physical Education (terkenang MRSM guna istilah ni, as ramai kawan aku tanya MRSM ade PJ tak), kitorg dibenarkan berkeliaran buat photo shoot. there we were, terlompat tergedik ter'WOOO' tergolek semua ada, selamba je naseb cikgu2 garang dan berkuasa tak nampak. padahal bising gila kitorang bersorak sakan. mostly exputeri 3C1lah, and ade 3C2 join sikit.

almost all the girls of RK batch 07-09

permulaan the so called photo shoot session, Nawa broke down. aku pun mata berair tengok die mcmtu. mase rehat pulak, Nawa dengan Wani diberi privilege untuk tak bertugas, siap lepak dengan kitorg lagi. rehat terakhir tu semua perempuan 3C1 duduk berhimpit kat satu meja, kecuali yang terpaksa bertugas. dah mcm farewell feast, dengan nasi lemak Izzati, Wani pulak yang bakat memasaknya paling menyerlah antara kitorg, brought her famous carrot cheese cake and egg tart, berlambak lambak dalam satu beg. rindulah lepasni nak merasa cake free wani and bekal Izzati, both which had always satisfied my hunger. thanks korang :')

masuk kelas, tengok DeVera nangis (nama komersial gang Amira), muka merah, semua tak pandang muka satu sama lain. tengok diorang pun dah buat aku sedih. i know why, and i'm not surprised. they are close enough, as close as my friends and i have been. sekarang tinggal dua orang, sape tak sedih.

then came the time when budak2 SBP angkat meja diorang kuar kelas, indicating their place was no longer there. bak kata Hazirah "deep meaning". mulalah aku air mata melimpah, malu siot, memang tak dapat control, dah lama tahan. lepastu Hafizah dengan Izzati yg angkat meje diorang boleh pulak stop, tenangkan aku. lagilah pilu di hati. Farabi pulak senyum baik je. last day ni, aku tak terkata pulak 'hai hai bai bai' kat kau mcm selalu. mcm bertambah sedih kalau sebut, haih.

selama cikgu mengajar, aku try buat muka straight, bagi kuat sikit. orang lain tak faham, fine. aku layan perasaan sendiri. but looking at DeVera, i knew i wasnt alone.

Add Math was the last period, and Cikgu Hamidah was very thoughtful. after the teaching was done, she let us do our own things, meet friends, hug, snap photos, whatever. Syuhada dah start nangis balik, aku faham dia. dia kata die tak tahan nak duduk dekat tempat lama, tapi sorang2.

same here mate, same here.

Gang dia berpelukan menangis2. lama gila, mcm taknak lepaskan. terharu tengok diorang, sampai aku pun start beair mata. Kak Pah yang suka majalkan orang tu, mase die peluk aku, aku start nangis. oh how i used to be annoyed by her, now i would give anything to have KRK back, Kak Pah included. dengan Amira pun sama, muka semua merah dan sememeh.

who i know, i find its hard to let them go. other people ask, why would i miss them? but i know the answer, and i dont have to let them know. when you understand, nothing matters.

unfortunately circle aku tak mcm diorang, semua cool je. sebab menganggap yg ni bukan the last time berjumpa. boleh pulak tangguh nak peluk aku sebab jumpa kemudian. the official goodbye is significant to me, the proper one when you're in your school uniform, and when we're at school. isnt it important the thought that after this you will not join us at this place? takpelah.

the teary farewell that will keep me company while they're exploring new life, is still an unanswered question. people dont get this, its fine. i know better. i have known people that shared even more exciting experiences with me, and even us, BFF label proudly on our face, fell apart. things can never be the same. all i can do if is just visiting the memory lane. some of you haven't been through that, the upside and the downside of the adventure. so you wouldn't understand how hard it is for me.

after the anti-climax, kitorg berjalan pulang ke rumah Nawa for the last time. order pizza, ade yang main card, ade yang layan youtube, aku pulak, puas berintim dengan Zawani. haha. bahaya sebab mesti peminat Wani sekarang nak hack computer aku demi mendapatkan gambar kemesraan kitorg di atas katil, lepastu photoshop dengan muka sendiri. kesian.

it was pretty much like any normal day at Nawa's, not some significant one. takpe, Ahad nanti dekat jamuan awak tu Nawa i will make sure its gonna be one heck of a day.

Selingan(saya guna perkataan ini dulu sebelum Hanis Zalikha haha)

eh budak ni tak boleh comel lagi ke?

so there, officially, my friends already left.

kepada Anis Yasmin, thank you sebab baca blog kita, and sebab jadi the biggest Harry Potter and Ron/Hermione fans selain kita yg kita kenal, i was excited knowing we share something in common, and that my effort publishing videos of them was appreciated after all. carilah lagi jenis kita dekat Seseri ya? lagi sorang budak Seseri, Hafizah. 3 years with you in 3C1 had been fun. will miss keletah makcik2 awak dekat class, ah taktaulah apa nak cakap, susah kita nak berkata2.

Abg Budin, eh geli. Budin, memang pandai dan rajin. material kau aku suka sangat pindah sekolah lain haha. walaupun dulu menyampah dengan kau (sorry doh!) sebab kau selalu cakap benda yang menyakitkan hati, tapi sekarang tak dah. ngahaha. teruskan kecemerlangan anda di sana ya, jadi top student! aku ingat lagi form two aku blur pasal mathematic, lepastu kau kasi stick on note yg ade formula bg aku faham, thank you sgt! mcm kau bace pulak semua ni kan, ish. and lupa ckp babai tadi --"

Tetiba teringat Yassin, wpun sekolah Seri. nanti sape nak teman aku lepas balik sekolah kalau aku sorang2? sape yg cukup baik sampai begitu? tanpa niat tersembunyi nak usha kawan2 aku? siapaaa? kalau kau ade niat tersembunyi pun, aku tak nampak, so you are forgiven haha. em akan terkenang kelibat kau di depan sekolah aku nanti T_T

Farabi, argh rindu kau nanti. takde dah budak laki yang ikhlas and baik dengan aku. budak laki lain semua macam ape tah. dekat sana banyakkan bergayut, bagi tinggi lagi bolehlah masuk ragbi mcm kau idamkan tu. dahlah mase ym terakhir dengan kau and nawa, lepas nawa offline, pastu kena babai kau pulak, aku nangis SIKIT. wee malu. kaulah spoil nak buat smiley sedih semua. buat betul2 dekat sana, kau dah ade peluang, so grab it and reach the unexpected ok? haih speechless dah ni, thank you, thanks for everything :')

NAWANI, korang lagilah taktau nak cakap apa. taktau, tak terlintas dekat fikiran. ingat muka korang je. makin rapat, makin susah untuk berkata-kata, betul. SORRY SANGAT, TERIMA KASIH SANGAT, SAYANG KORANG, I WILL MISS YOU BEYOND WORDS T___T

kalaulah kita makin jauh lepasni, korang makin jarang contact aku, takpe. been there, done that, felt that. aku tak boleh paksa keadaan. just jangan lupakan aku bila korang dah terbang jauh. bila nampak kelibat aku, jangan lupa kita pernah kawan, bukan setakat kenalan. sometimes benda macamni, its just one thing or the other, we cant have both, its hard, if at all. so aku faham.

just being a positive pessimist, bak kata Kahuna. aku taknak apa yg jadi kat aku dulu, jadi kat korang, jadi kat aku lagi sekali. always be prepared, remember?

more pictures of better quality can be found here

Selamat Jalan Kawanku =')