The Last Red Carpet for Harry Potter Stars: The Tearful Farewell

a.k.a The Live Premiere of Deathly Hallows Part 2 a.k.a Harry Potter Cryfest 7.7.11.


Cry? Kenapa nak cry cry segala?

ish aku rasa dah banyak post pasal Harry Potter aku buat, jadi malaslah nak explain.


oh ya, pasal BERSIH. aku bukan tak kesah. aku dah lama kesah pasal politik sejak kecik, sampai aku dah malas sekarang. sebab aku tau, yang betul takkan menang. buat naik darah tinggi je. jadi baik aku cakap pasal Harry Potter je kan?



but before we proceed, meh sini tengok video hari terakhir mereka. mereka semua menangis. saya menangis bersama mereka. mari nangis sama-sama T_T

OHMAIGAWD TEARS

until the very end, together we'll be :' )

This is the biggest premiere ever, held in Trafalgar Square.


i was there once, as a little girl.

but why wasn't i two days ago?! tsk tsk.

Red carpet tu teman aku buat folio biology yang disiapkan dalam satu hari sahaja hah hah hah. i've told guys, it was possible. semangat memahami cara untuk dapat anak ramai, atau tak dapat anak langsung, dan cara untuk elakkan penyakit yang berjangkit melalui seks sambil tengok mereka diinterview.

oh ye, kat London time tu pukul 4 petang, kat Malaysia pukul 11 malam.

thanks everybody, your characters are alive and affect me more than some people do

favourite line?

after a couple of hours the casts were interviewed, scribbled their signatures for screaming fans and posing in front of the cameras, Queen Rowling arrived.

thus began the tearful farewell when the Queen, the Chosen One, the King and the Brightest Witch gave their speech one by one.

yes Dan, i totally didn't catch you trying to wipe your tears away.

"Dan, you didn't get lucky" - Emma. AWHHHHH

Jo, you gave Harry the chance to escape from the cupboard,
you gave Dan the chance to say "Thanks Jo, for letting them to give me the job",
and you gave me an experience, second to none.

what made millions of Rupert/Emma shippers even happier was:

look at that Rupert. it's okay, just ignore everyone else patting your back and trying to hug you, instead go straight to your future wife's arms.

oh my god you two, get married and make ginger babies already!

I PRONOUNCE YOU HUSBAND AND WIFE. YOU MAY KISS THE BRIDE.

and there goes my shipper heart. melt on the keyboard.

seven is the magical number in Harry Potter, you know? 7 Weasley children, 7 horcruxes, 7 books, 7 split souls, and more 7-things that sometimes don't mean anything, or sometimes are secret codes and leading clues that will blow your mind if you know.

yes. it's not goodbye, i will keep coming back. you know why?

"HOGWARTS WILL ALWAYS BE THERE TO WELCOME YOU HOME"

but my home is so far away. . . first i need to get a plane ticket to London, then i have to take a taxi to King's Cross Station, and where would i get my Hogwarts Express ticket? there's no Hagrid to give one. . . even if i have it, wouldn't it be weird to just run through the wall between Platform 9 and 10? oh why it has to be Platform 9 3/4. if i manage to cross to the other side, i will be forever alone because everyone speaks in British accent, no one wants to sit with me because i look nothing like Chinese so they don't know from what continent i am, and what if i am not accepted at Hogwarts? what if there's a mistake, the sorting hat doesn't say a word, and Prof McGonagall asks me to get off the stool and pick up my trunk because there has been a mistake, and i'm going to be sent back home.


but Hogwarts is my home, so no worry.

not only hugs, it's something shared for 10 years

even when i'm grey and old, i'll never let go.

i love this picture so much. the parallel there is... priceless. the first picture, you see the kids were happy, goofing around with each other. but the second picture, they're adults now. it's not just some random moments where they act like fools and laugh, it's the ending of their childhood and adolescence together. now it's all about hugs, teary eyes, and sad smiles.

indeed.

Mukaku Bak Bulan Berjaya Dalam Kawad dan Peperiksaan

Assalamualaikum. ini ialah himpunan kisah-kisah bosan hidupku.

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Result Mid Year


tak capai target, tapi lagi baik daripada apa yang aku expect.

budak-budak, target dan expectation tu lain ya. gatal telinga aku bila dengar orang kata taknak target tinggi-tinggi sebab nanti kecewa. ish, itu fakta yang salah sama sekali.

nak tau apa beza target, harap dan expect?


nantilah aku cerita bila-bila.

sekarang nak cerita pasal keajaiban hidup. aku tau ramai tak percaya dan aku pun bosan ulang benda sama. aku bukan je tensi dianggap 'the school's geek', tapi aku juga hepi sebab selalu dapat rahmat Allah. padahal akulah hamba Dia yang paling tak layak dapat pape.


dapat result exam, aku tak percaya. aku taktau mana datang markah tu semua. kenapa aku rasa macam melalut, tapi tetiba betul? paling aku terkejut ialah bahagian esei bio dan sejarah. cikgu ni biar benar.

tapi orang kata, rezeki jangan ditolak. jadi aku duduk diam-diam ternganga sorang-sorang.

aku takut. aku takut Allah mudahkan jalan aku sekarang, tapi later, susah.

nauzubillah.



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oh, hello there.

keep buzzing around in my stomach
and distracting me from other pests harming my inside.

you're one fly i'll always remember. and thanks for not forgetting, too.

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Kawad Terakhir, Kemenangan Terakhir


aku berkawad sejak darjah 4. masa tu aku benci gila kawad. pernah kena cubitan berbisa Cikgu Aisyah sampai lebam luka sebab salu ponteng. pastu sumpah seranah dalam hati.

tapi lama-lama, aku mula suka. makin kenal makin cinta.

jadi sampai form 5 lah aku berkawad.

dah form 5 ni, aura akak Pandu Puteri darjah 6 tu datang balik.

sebab aku yang ajar budak-budak baru. kasi koman kadang-kadang. muka merah bila tak faham-faham. menjerit bila tak reti-reti. punyalah rasa seniority.

"tangan! tangaaaaaaaan! sharp laa! ni asal berbintang ni? asal capang? asal patah? asal robot? samakan barisan! jeling orang tepi! skip, tangan jangan gerak bila salah kaki! kiraan mana kiraan?! takkan akak kena kirakan untuk korang kot! suara mana suaraaaa! kalau kaki tangan tak sakit bukan kawad namanya!"


dulu korang bising kan kenapa aku jadi naib pengerusi? sekarang rasakan!

victory 2010, hanya gigi menyinarkan kegembiraan

aku budak sekolah biasa, bukan sekolah asrama. jadi senior agak takde makna kat sini. jadi bila ajar kawad lah aku dapat rasa keistimewaan seorang akak tingkatan lima.


tapi ada jugak melaun tetiba jerit "hek eleh yang ajar kawad pun sama umur!" padahal time tu aku tengah ajar budak form 1 tau.

aku pergi kat dia jegilkan mata sikit, terus "sorry kak sorry"

Alhamdulillah menang! ajaiblah jugak, sebab bukan je praktis seminggu, tapi banyak budak baru yang mulanya kawad tunggang langgang, tapi hari pertandingan semua melangkah dengan bergaya. pergh.


kepada skuad, minta maaf ye sebab ada marah-marah. tapi kalau tak marah, tak menang kan? kalau nak ikut kepala korang je naik lemak la en. tapi kita tak garang en en tak pernah denda korang en. senior dulu-dulu lagi hardcore, rasa nak call mak je kat public phone menangis suruh ambik cepat. dah macam homesick dah.

kita seminggu je praktis pun boleh, jadi kepada semua, terima kasih :)



nasib baik seminggu, kalau tak makin berkaratla muka aku yang memang berkerak ni.



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Muka Berkawah


itulah yang budak laki kelas panggil aku sekarang. akak muka berkawah. tak cukup dengan tu, selalu pulak pandang aku muka berkerut-kerut, tanya apa tu kat muka aku.

siot.

tapi takpe, rilek. mereka jujur. daripada budak pompuan semua senyap je, tah-tah dalam hati gelakkan aku. semua gumbira kulit mukaku tidak lagi halus mulus seperti dahulu.

sejak kecik aku dah tau kalau demam campak, jangan garu. tapi bebal. bila dah kena, aku tak fikir apa lagi dah. rimas. dua minggu aku duk rumah, tapi tangan sibuk mengalahkan buat kerja sekolah.

sikit-sikit raba sini raba sana, cari mana boleh kopek. bila dah tertanggal, pergh puas.


"ah! persetankan parut yang bakal ada!" bisik hatiku riak sedang jari mengopek-ngopek.



sekarang, nasi dah jadi bubur. bubur kalau sedap takpe. ni nak tengok pun tak lalu. begitulah muka aku.

sebelum ni aku tak pernah kesah pasal iklan krim menghilangkan parut dan cela. kesah pulak aku kalau aku tak cantik pun, yang penting kulit aku elok. tapi sekarang, muka yang tak jelita bertambah menyedihkan rupanya. terus kena beri perhatian kepada iklan.

google cara hilangkan parut cepat.


sampai topik parut aku pun dibualkan oleh satu kelas beramai-ramai, kecoh betul. ada kata boleh hilang, ada kata terima jela seadanya tak boleh buat apa dah, ada kata muka berkawah tetap berkawah.




eh tapi, bulan itu berkawah. bulan itu cantik. jadi kalau mukaku berkawah, mukaku . . . ?




awh tak dapat nak sambung ayat tu, terharu.

Trailer Terakhir Harry Potter: Deathly Hallows Part 2. . . boleh menangis sekarang

you know why?

this is why.

apa yang epic sangat sampai hidup kau akan berakhir tu?


soalan apa ni soalan apa? kita cakap pasal Harry Potter, Harry Potter!


Harry Potter dan watak lain yang aku dah kenal lama, yang teman aku, yang ajar aku apa nak buat bila bergaduh dengan kawan, bila dibandingkan dengan saudara, bila cikgu macam singa, bila dibayangi abang-abang, bila obses nak dapat tempat pertama, bila disalah anggap, bila diumpat, bila rasa suka kat orang tak sepatutnya, bila cemburu, bila menangis sebab dia, bila dibenci, bila hilang orang tersayang, bila keseorangan, bila hidup penuh masalah everything seems wrong and nothing feels right, literally everything.


The series taught me from the littlest things to the biggest issues in life, from first crush to true love to friendship to haters to politics to the unfairness of the world to the matters of life and death. it taught me how to live as a child, as a teenager, and as an adult.


we've grown up together for ten years, and that's how much it affects me.



sebab tu aku akan menangis. baca buku dan tengok trailer pun menangis, apatah lagi bila dah sampai masa untuk duduk dalam panggung buat kali terakhir tengok Harry Potter.


here is the post for the first trailer of Deathly Hallows Part 2. just click the link.



and here is the final trailer of Harry Potter. after this there will be no more post about HP trailers, tsk tsk.

Baby Harry's crying, makes it sadder than ever

Snape, your glorious moment will emerge soon and those who didn't read the books will be covering their open mouth with their hand and those who did, will bawl our eyes out.

too bad the glorious moment won't be glorious for you.

The Tale of Three Brothers. Snape's Prince's Tale is the most awaited.

Snape mati?

atau

Voldemort mati?

atau

Harry Potter yang mati?



oh tak aku takkan bagi spoiler kat sini. sesiapa yang tanya aku apa-apa, aku takkan jawab. kalau nak tau sangat, Google it. I won't spoil the suspense for you. but many people did die. siapa? tengok sendiri ehehe.


adakah mereka?

will their bodies be laid on the ground lifeless? I SHIP THEM FOREVER LOOK AT THOSE TWO HOLDING EACH OTHER AND DEAR LIFE.

“You’ve been so brave.”

He could not speak. His eyes feasted on her, and he thought that he would like to stand and look at her forever, and that would be enough.

“You are nearly there,” said James. “Very close. We are… so proud of you.”

“Does it hurt?”

The childish question had fallen from Harry’s lips before he could stop it.

“Dying? Not at all,” said Sirius. “Quicker and easier than falling asleep.”

NOTHING IS EFFING WRONG WITH THIS EFFING PART
*crying in the corner*

The ending of the last page i read was 4 years ago, but i knew there would be a few more years before the curtain really closes.

but now it's a month away, and it's gonna end.


i know it's not going to really end because hey, we are Harry Potter Generation who will always be loyal to the series. the series will be told to our children, and that's how it will never end. i know that.



but the truth is, it will never be the same, right?

Always.

Saya Tak Cantik, Saya Okay. Awak?

Assalamualaikum.

Sesiapa yang rasa diri tu cantik, dengar lagu ni. yang rasa tak cantik pun dengar lagu ni jugak, supaya takde sapa yang rasa ketinggalan (?).

I wish I could tie you up in my shoes, make you feel unpretty too

Ye ye semua orang Allah cipta lengkap ada mata ada hidung ada mulut tak cacat ok lah tu kan? er kalau cacat pun ada kelebihan tang lain, jadi kesimpulannya semua orang sempurna. tak cantik rupa, cantik hati. tak cantik tangan, cantik kaki. cantik semua orang tak sama, berbeza-beza, sebab Allah maha adil, jadi semua orang cantik belaka.


ye ye aku tau tu.

tapi sebagai manusia biasa, kadang-kadang kita rasa tak cantik kan? rasa hidung tak mancung pipi tersorong sorong nak ngorat si dia tapi diri rasa tak berharga what the.


kadang-kadang selalu je rasa tak cantik, kadang-kadang sentiasa.



jadi untuk overcome perasaan itu, mari teliti senarai di bawah.


Senarai 'Saya Tak Cantik, Saya Okay'

perkara yang anda perlu fikir bila rasa rendah diri mula menguasai diri.



1. kau nak cantik buat apa hah? nak ngorat laki? nak ngorat pompuan? jantina apa pun kau nak ngorat, sedar-sedarlah aktiviti tu tak banyak pekdahnye. memalukan kaum je.

kalau guna rupa untuk menggatal, kejar pompuan, usha jantan, pewwit pewwit tepi jalan, buatpe? buat dosa je.

pas dah dapat, kau bosan, kau cari lain. mentang-mentang hot, jadi player konon. hot neraka tahu?

jadi bukan ke lagi baik kalau kita rupa biasa-biasa je. baru tak ambik kesempatan apa yang Allah dah kasi, baru kalau dapat pujaan hati, jaga elok-elok, simpan siap kunci lagi. sebab muka pun tak semegah jadi nak tackle orang susah, dah dapat tu pandai la hargai.





2. kau nak cantik buat apa hah? nak kena ngorat? sukew lettew diew bila abang senior usha, bila budak hensem kelas sebelah tegur, bila junior minta jadi adik angkat.

bangga? test market di pasaran? bila nombor jadi permintaan? bila pompuan keliling pinggang? bila laki sangap sentiasa "hye. . . . . leyh b'kenalan. . . . ?"

kalau pandai jaga kecantikan dan kehenseman tu, simpan untuk yang satu, takpe jugak. tapi dah ada barang baik, haruslah tayang, kan?


betul, susah nak tutup mana yang patut, susah nak tahan godaan. kalau dah cukup jaga aurat pun, muka yang cantik sanggup ke tutup dengan purdah untuk jaga iman lelaki?

jadi kalau rasa diri tak secantik pompuan yang digilai, bersyukurlah. sebab kalau takde rupa, tak digoda, tak tergoda, tak jatuh kain baju semua, tak jatuh air muka.





3. nak ada banyak pilihan? supaya ramai yang beratur nak berkenalan?

ingat nak pilih mana satu idaman kalbu tu senang?

cuba kalau salah pilih? couple boleh clash. kahwin kena cerai beb. dah ramai sangat nak, dari ceruk mana semua datang meminang, mana nak tau yang mana satu kan?


cuba kalau muka biasa-biasa je, orang pandang sekali tak pandang lagi, tapi kalau ada tetiba yang nak mendekati lah jatuh hati lah nak buat bini lah, tak ke luar biasa tu? dia sorang je macam tu. mungkin dia lah apa yang budak jiwang panggil 'the one', kan?

'the one' bukan suka korang sebab rupa yang tak berapa ada, tapi sebab korang tu korang. daripada jadi cantik, banyak betul mengaku 'the one', pandai-pandai lah pilih.





4. sebab nak banyak kawan? sebab nak banyak buah hati?


korang tau ke siapa yang ikhlas berkawan dengan korang? kawan beribu tapi kalau berkawan ada makna je buatpe, bercinta sebab rupa buatpe. kang kena tinggal bila dorang nampak orang yang lagi hot daripada korang, atau bila berat naik sikit, atau bila kena simbah asid.

bila aku tengok laki pompuan yang sama cantik sama padan, aku rasa kesian. sebab besar kemungkinan rupa jadi pertaruhan dorang, mungkin jap je bahagia tu.


tapi bila aku tengok laki pompuan yang tak padan, atau sama-sama tak berapa cantik, aku rasa gembira untuk dorang. sebab aku rasa dorang mungkin kekal lama.


when looks don't matter, it's true love baby.



tapi kalau pakwe muka macam mamat 'Dia Pilih KLCC Doh', itu desperate namanya. takyah nak true love sangatlah buat perangai macamtu. geli aku.





5. nak konfiden? ye kalau kita rasa cantik, kita rasa yakin nak buat macam-macam. takde rasa gementar, takde rasa "orang kesah ke kat aku", takde.


but the world is so much more than that. kita tak cantik? kita ada benda lain untuk buat diri rasa bagus. untuk ada aura 'feel good'. kita ada apa? kita boleh buat apa? fikir tu semua, sebelum kita fikir "aku tak cantik, aku bukan sape-sape".


kadang-kadang bila kau nampak yakin tentang diri kau, satu dunia nampak kau cantik.

pernah tengok artist yang bergaya kat red carpet? bukan semua size 0. ada yang gemuk, body tak berbentuk macam super model. tapi dorang nampak flawless.


sebab dorang konfiden. dorang tak nampak takut, tak bongkok, tak sorok muka, dorang tegak tunjuk diri dorang, it's confidence, and it shows.

it makes them beautiful.



jadi rasa konfiden tu tak datang dari muka, tapi dari jiwa.




6. so what if you're not pretty?

someday, someone will love you and see you as the prettiest woman in the world.


there's someone for everyone. if now all you hear is "ugly", just wait and see.

semua orang cantik. korang rasa korang tak cantik? orang lain rasa korang cantik.


akan ada orang yang kurang cantik daripada korang. akan ada jugak orang yang lebih cantik daripada korang. tapi takde siapa yang kurang atau lebih daripada diri korang sendiri.



jadi jangan guna kecantikan untuk ukur siapa korang :)









Tapi Masih Rasa Unpretty


walaupun aku dah buat list ni, niat nak motivate orang, tapi aku rasa unpretty.

lebih daripada hari lain.




sebab aku demam campak.


dah seminggu, dan takda tanda nak baik cepat. seminggu miss sekolah. aku gembira, sebab tak perlu rasa takut nak terkucil termuntah bila nak dapat markah periksa.


aku juga gembira sebab tak perlu hidup dalam ketakutan lagi. lima tahun lepas aku doa "jangan demam campak masa UPSR", dua tahun lepas aku doa "jangan demam campak masa PMR", tapi sekarang aku takyah doa "jangan demam campak masa SPM"! dan "jangan demam campak masa kawen"!

hahaha no this torturing routine for me this week!

tapi aku baru dapat tau minggu ni minggu fotografi untuk majalah.



hati aku hancur. impian aku punah. aku dihimpit kekecewaan yang mendalam. aku diselubungi kesedihan yang meremuk jiwa.



tau tak yang macam Rachel Berry, aku anggap gambar kat majalah sekolah is a big thing? tau tak yang aku manusia paling semangat untuk gambar kelas, tapi esok aku takde? tau tak yang aku ada jawatan dalam persatuan, kelab permainan, unit uniform dan briged bestari tapi minggu ni aku takde? tau tak aku rasa macam tak dihargai sebagai pelajar? tau tak yang ini tahun terakhir persekolahan? tau tak yang ini kenangan? tau tak?

ok tak kalau gambar kelas aku pakai topeng dan orang lain pakai macam ni?

aku serius. tengah sedih ni.

How I Met Your Mother Season Finale Full Recap Semangat Ni

So i wanna talk about How I Met Your Mother.

okay so lat night Season Finale of Season 6 was aired.


TEARS EVERYWHERE IT WAS A WATERFALL DOWN THERE. that was too much, no actually i had teary eyes only, but it's a big deal la bila berair mata tengok cerita lawak kan.


eh no, it's not merely cerita lawak. HIMYM is in fact, a story of laughters, tears (for it's not the first time tears were swimming in my eyes watching it), friendship, love, and most of all, fate.

because the series is so much more,
one of the best tales ever told

what i learn, is, don't worry if it doesn't work out as you want, some better things are waiting for you, and things have to fall apart to make ways for the right ones, and if it's meant to be, it's meant to be. it makes us smile and think

"what happens today sucks, i hate it, i dont wanna live it, but maybe there are better scenes in the future episodes, all is written, only needs to be aired at the right time,".

friends started the year i was born, but i didn't miss even one episode. thanks to Starworld's endless encore from season to season

i get attached to fictional characters, and honestly i pity those who don't experience the same thing. yes, i get attached to them, and it's hard to let them go, like it was with Harry Potter and Friends. as much as i want Ted to just meet the right girl, i don't want the series to end either.

okay so, commenting about the episode.


It's A +!

Lily vomiting? i knew it right then!

when she showed Marshall the pregnancy test, i was teruja terharu berair mata lah tau tak. oh btw, i have always been curious. how do they do it? i mean the test. do they pee on it or dip it in a bowl of urine or something?

k back to the topic, they had been trying for months, and not to forget the day Lily thought she saw the sign from the universe that they should start trying to have babies, but it was actually not the sign she and Marshall had been waiting for. and all the wrong things that are happening in their life, then suddenly, there's a baby on the way. tsk tsk.



Barney And Robin MUST BE TOGETHER

Robin: No matter how bad things got, Ted really did love Zoey for a minute there. Didn’t he?
Barney: Yeah, he did. And she loved him too, didn’t she?
Robin: Yeah, she did.

seriously, that look in the car, okay mata berair terharu teruja tangan kipas-kipas lagi. they were talking not about ted and zoey, but about each other!

ah that a-couple-of-seconds-lasting look. i wish it was longer. or forever.

all the talks they had in the episode, semua macam buat aku "oh please get together back please," with barney's supposedly joke about his dad saying to him

"just marry her, you two look cute together, deep down inside you know you'll never be truly happy than you were with her",


and when barney asked his dad how to settle down

his dad said "a guy's gotta find the right girl. who knows you'll meet her tomorrow"

but barney said, more to himself, "maybe i've met her already".

but the question is, who's in his mind? i know it's either Robin who he's known since forever, or Nora, who he's just met, but made his heart literally skip a beat, detected by the machine use to check his heart's condition.

but Robin's the girl he truly fell in love with after years of er, to put in nicer way, meeting different girls each night. and all the nice things barney did for robin even though robin's dating other guys and barney was still. . . em, a womenizer.

at the end of the episode after they made ted realize, the were sharing this look. another 'the moment', again. i might witness the reunion of one of my favourite couples!


but suddenly there's. . . Nora. out of nowhere, she was there.

look at Robin's expression. at first, she smiled. like "good for you my friend, you've found her again, do not let her get away this time". but suddenly it changed. something like realization, or even heartbroken. she just realized how she's been feeling towards him.


but don't forget the part when robin bumped into her old crush, she was pretending to be ted's fiancee. then that guy called his friend, and said "remember that girl i talked about? i met her. but she's engaged, and her fiancee is a douche".


see now what i was talking about? that HIMYM is all about fate?

i don't care if Nora being there is a fate or an obstacle, i just can't accept it if Barney won't end up being with Robin. i mean, they're perfect for each other man. and my ship must win, seriously. i love them together. they're like what i want, ok, so they must be together.

When Ted was with Robin, i didn't approve it. because they're just meant to be friends, you know? and it's not the kind of relationship i fancy. Ted's only being friends with Robin in the first place because he loved her. but Barney loved Robin because she's his friend.


which one is sweeter hah hah?

from the start of the season, we found out that Ted met the mother at a wedding right? but we didn't know whose wedding it was.



well guess what? now we know at least, who's the groom.

MIND BLOWN.

Between Being Happy and Si-Si-Si

Aku taktau kenapa aku dah jarang blogging. padahal banyak nak share, gambar, idea, pengalaman, angan-angan, youtube videos (suka hati aku laaa), harry potter (biar ah), life.


mungkin aku malas, mungkin aku hilang momentum, mungkin aku dah takde mood.



aku bet sesape yang tak kenal aku sangat, mesti ingat aku ni jenis emosi, depresi, tensi kan? okay memanglah aku emosi, depresi, tensi tapi itu semua dalam blog je.

dan atas kertas?

lagu lain, susah nak conteng. jadi Don't Let Me Stop You jadi inspirasi. aku buat sebab bosan je, tiada kaitan hidup mati. kot. tunggu exam sivik habis haritu, kaku jugaklah kaki tangan tak buat pape kan.


soalan ciri-ciri pasangan ideal? laju je aku jawab. nasib baik aku tak kasi jawapan lebih, kalau tak memang jelas benarlah keterujaan di situ.



dalam dunia sebenar aku agak gila-gila jugak kot, ketawa sampai menangis, cakap benda-benda mengarut, buat benda-benda bodoh.


tengok Nur Kasih haritu, orang berair mata sebab tersentuh aku air mata mengalir terus, tapi sebab gelak. gelak gila-gila masa tengah tunjuk babak yang melampau jiwang dan emo. kalau aku orang belakang memang dah kena hempuk kepala dengan kasut.


ada beberapa orang kata dorang nampak aku happy je. untunglah, korang nampak aku masa aku tengah bergembira. atau buat-buat gembira. kalau korang nampak aku emosi, depresi, tensi, ada yang lari. jadi kepada sesiapa yang masih ada kat sini walaupun dah tengok aku si-si-si tu, thanks.

aku rasa sekarang memang aku ok kot. kadang-kadang rasa happy, bersyukur, semua normal, semua cukup. alhamdulillah. cuma kalau ada masalah, itu semua kecik je. biasalah em, remaja? ew. tapi tak affect banyak mana pun, kot.


dalam dunia sebenar aku taklah emosi, tensi, depresi camni. mungkin sebab aku tak dapat tunjuk in person, sebab tu aku tunjuk kat tempat lain?





mungkin bersebab jugak kenapa aku malas nak blogging dah, padahal kalau dulu, takde benda nak cakap pun, takde sape nak baca pun, aku blogging tak ingat dunia.



itulah masalahnya sekarang, bila orang baca.



memang ah tak ramai, tapi ada jugak orang yang baca, kan?


ada orang yang aku taktau pun baca blog ni. ada orang yang aku taknak pun baca blog ni. ada orang yang aku tak kenal pun baca blog ni. itu semua takpe, the more the merrier. tapi ada mulut yang tau mengata je.



terasa ke?



kadang-kadang aku rasa kelakar, kadang-kadang aku rasa, hm agak kurang ajar.





takpe, aku cool je.