The Boy Who Blushes So Much He Resembles A Tomato

ini adalah luka2 penderaan fizikal oleh seorang lelaki bernama Mal. kalau bermanja dgn die mcm bermanja dgn kucing, ganas sangat youuu. awwwh. tapi saya ttp mencintainya, dan terus tersenyum seperti kesan cubitan cinta gambar kanan atas sekali. kalau jumpa die mmg sakit, tapi puas. die mmg suke maen2 cakar harimau.

sebelum fikiran anda bertambah liar, ini Mal. eh ke situ pulak otak kau, takkanlah aku nak berasmaradana dgn anak sedara sendiri. di luar tabii itu, elakkan. tapi die mmg magnet. kalau jumpa tak sah tak cium dan peluk bertubi tubi. mase die kecik aku pernah gigit die angkara kecomelan melampau tapi sekarang die dah menunjukkan minat yang sama. it takes two to tango yawh.

Mal mmg suka menggigit dan mencakar aku, of all people. tahulah badan i gebu, tsk. terutama bila kacau die, peluk cium sampai die marah, itulah defense mechanism die. ebih parah apabila out of blue die dtg kat aku, dan cubit, cakar dan pukul dengan benda keras. takde sebab. aku punyelah aman duduk diam2. lepastu die pergi mcmtu je. kalau mencubit tak sah badan tak menggeletar geram sangat sampai terkancing2 gigi, malanglah isterinya nanti. atau bertuah? haha DIAMMM

"saya tau saya comel, saya tau saya bakal menjadi casanova, oleh itu sementara umur mengizinkan biarlah saya dan Ayu menikmati masa kami bersama"
-Ikmal Azri.

dah lame tak blog about this heartthrob, with his developments i could write a book subjecting him. this boy really is something for me, more than any child is capable of. i cried when i miss him and i go all jumping like a crazy Twitard over Mal. He really leaves his mark and i dont know why. either he's the cutest child ever born next to me or his father is my brother that i actually love. and the cutest child thing was a joke, you Frankenstein who dont get humours.

maybe because i babysit him, feed him, play with him since he was a little round ball. i want him to become a noble man in his later life, not fooling around making girls swoon. and probably because he was born when i was 13, unlike my other anak buah who were born even when i was a child myself. so with Mal, i understand a young kid more and hold my temper better. i think everyone loves him dearly and that he has unparalleled adorable factors are due to his father's keenness to love and attend every child on earth even if they are annoying nuisances. frankly kids nowadays are creepy, unlike us back then.

the first word he said was "tableh tableh!" for Tak Boleh, because he was always told so if he was committing unwanted things. when he first got to talk, he could say 'Ayah' and 'Ayu' but purposely wouldnt in front of us utk kenakan kitorg. Anything that looks like B or 8, he calls tetek. even butterflies. seriously. he loves to eat or lick anything, from grills to marble cement to my skin. suarenya sgt lembut, tetapi garang yg amat. facts that he likes to wear tudung and wont take it off, stand in front of mirrors pretending to wear compact powder, and always gets mistaken for a girl do worry us, but when he shows his better side of a man biting and hitting my head with remote controls, we should worry nothing besides him being a bully.

he knows how to perform 'lat', when to say 'Allahbar', whisper like reciting ayats and doa, zikir 'Lailahailallah' while rocking his body left and right, say 'Allah' when lifting heavy loads or things slipping from his grip. all that when he was about 1 year old. as far as i can remember the first word he picked up the first time he heard was 'Atam', his baby cousin named Adam, and he never forgets who Atam is even after a long while. he can be either very loving to Adam, shoving his chubby cheeks to be kissed and hugging him, or very rough as he twice made Adam flew with a light flick of his hand.

looking at cars he can tell which one is 'car Ayah', 'car mama', or 'car Atam' even if the colours are different. once we passed by a school, a 'car Atam' was in front of us, Mal said 'car Atam gi kolah'. he seems so interested in schooling, staring non-stop at school uniforms and students for 15 minutes. if i have to get him to sleep, i will tell him "klu mal nak gi sykola, mal dodo awal tau, nnt mama gi sykola babai mamaaa", and he will sleep. Mal manja dgn aku, tarik tangan ckp 'tom tom tom', iaitu mengajak aku 'jom' pg mane2 die nak. bila nmpk aku diri die ckp 'totok ayu totokk, totokk ayuuu" dengan suare lembut merangsang aku nak makan dia sbb comel sgt.

first night balik KL, i cried myself to sleep knowing he wouldnt be there to wake me up. and my life is even worse and more boring without him. dkt rumah die, die akan bangun awal and went straight to my room. aku terjaga sbb dengar die bisik2, atau rase tangan die mencekik leher aku mase tgh berusaha utk naik atas katil baring bersama2. tp die tak kacau. bila terjaga, ade muka die sebelah muka aku, die tengok je lama2. kdg2 die pegang kepala aku and kasi pipi die suruh aku cium. i think he says 'i love you' i his own way, dontcha think? then die tutup selimut sampai muka aku ckp "tito ayu titooo, dodooo, totoo ayuuu", dan die babai sebelum keluar bilik. tp kalau kali kedua atau ketiga die dtg aku still tido, time tu die akan tarik aku keluar bilik terus. kalau buat2 tidur die tau je nak cubit2, tp kalau betul2 tido, die siap selimutkan sampai hidung lagi.

last night diner dekat Gerik, tiba2 die nak mkn ngn aku. kalau tak budak tu punyelah susah nak makan. aku suap die, die mkn banyak. aku saje letak kuah pedas tp die makan jugak. kesian merah2 muka. mcm die tau je nanti aku takde dah dengan die. sedih dohh.

these were taken after he was crying, thanks to me. die maen benda tak sepatutnya, bila aku nak simpan die merengek2 menjerit mengada2, aku marah die and tolak die ke tepi. die terus terduduk lepastu nanges betul2. air mata dah merambu2. and it broke my heart too, seeing him that way. terus aku duduk jugak peluk die ckp sorry beribu kali, lap mata die semua. rase bersalah sgt. "Malmal marah ayu ke? ayu sorry. Malmal sayang ayu lagi?" and he gave me his cheeks for me to kiss him. lepastu die elok pulak duduk, "syusyunn syusyunn masy", buat ape yg aku suruh tadi. mata berair terkenang hal ini. last day dengan die plak tu. sorry Mal :'(

Ayu sayang sangat Malmal. and that pretty much says everything. I want you to stay this way forever Mal. i hate to see you grow up, tarnish your white slate like i did. its hard to cleanse yourself after you make a mistake, and i dont want you to feel the same way, especially when your era i'm sure is even worse than mine. be good, boy please. and as you mature, i know you'll meet the day when friends, girls and lots of nonsenses are more important than flesh and blood, but i pray the day will end just as soon as it starts.

and yes, your Ayu is a lady who breeds fats.