MRSM, the second chance doesnt work eh?

I didnt get MRSM. phewh. wont have to worry about going or not, Alhamdulillah. again, the path is laid clearly before me, cuma path tersebut nampak agak kaburlah dan boleh buat aku mati kutu. apa taknya, Hazirah is offered to MRSM Alor Gajah, her life's long dream.

i dont feel sad (yet). guess because i've always known she's gonna leave, and that i've had enough of fretting a few days back during budak SBP's last days. malah aku boleh lagi encourage dia, how good a friend i am, even though i'm gonna be left alone, ngahaha.

still i feel sorry to the power of one million for friends who haven't got their way this time. it makes me feel so bloody bad, like its all my fault, because i've been wanting a few of them to stay here with me. but now how good would that be? when they're staying but they're feeling down? sorry girls, i realize how much i need to see you happy, that i'm willing to give you all up to MARA. but maybe the time isnt right just yet, sabar, 2nd and 3rd intake kan ade lagi?

and speaking of which, i did hit the rayuan button though. heh heh. out of nothing, sebab siap ade nota untuk rayuan, macam best je pulak. aku pun membebel how i got 8 As for trial and throughout the year, how i won the first place in essay writing competition reprsenting my school, how i represented my school again for Mighty Minds, dan 5 kali aku ambik peperiksaan New South Wales University, two years in a row, siap dapat Credit semua aku bantai je. haha

i told my mom. afraid that she might lose hope on me, i said "ma, dont judge me by tawaran asrama tau". first, untuk rase kurang loser depan mak sendiri, loser depan seluruh sekolah takpe, loser depan mak, no. second, tetiba aku speaking sikit dengan mama, sebab bila bercakap pasal benda mcmni, menggunakan BM adalah sangat jiwang.

memang aku rase loser sikitlah. habislah sekarang aku akan dijadikan teladan oleh cikgu koko "si Amalina tu, tak guna pun apa result periksa dia, tapi kalau dah markah koko hampeh, jangan harap kamu nak ke asrama, hah jadilah macam die tu, duduk sini sampai form 5". ye lah cikgu. tapi cikgu, saya pun masuk koko apa. form 3, lagi mcm2 saya masuk, ade jawatan lagi okay.

sekarang masa depan dah terang. bukan cerah as in berjaya, tapi terang, tak perlu bersuluh lagi.