baru habes ber-new moon semalam.
one thing i want so badly ; utk jacob black the jake i adore now tu mati dan menyebabkan bella sengsara berguling sedar akan kesalahan die.
friendship is the most precious gift in the world. unlike family although it is the best thing you can have (kpd siapa yg bertuah), friendship grows, its your choice to plant it or not. its your 'achievement'. when u pick u lover over your bestfriend, its your loss.
and, there's something confusing in twilight saga. pasal treaty tu. mcm berbelit bercanggah. i hope there is a clear explanation out there. nothing would ever be confusing in harry potter though. everything will have a brilliant explanation. the author doesnt have us strangled with the words, the answer will be given later and that's what made it the best.
kalau dlm harry potter, kite takkan perasan ape yg crucial tau. kadang2 ayat or perkataan yg kite ingat bnda biasa pon sebenarnya banyak rahsia. cerita atau fakta yg kite lepas pandang pon boleh jadi the key to all the answer. in harry potter, we dont know what to expect. everything was so. . . carefully done. good job jk rowling.
benda yang memang the most unlikely to happen sebenarnya tu lah yg terjadi. benda yg kite rase mengarut, benda yg konon kite confirm tak boleh jadi, tu lah yg terjadi. benda yg memang mustahil, tp jk rowling buat bnda mustahil tu jd reasonable. macam everything happens for a reason, nothing is impossible in her world.
and even kadang bnda yg memang dah tercotok depan mata tu, bnda tula yg essential.
we sometimes refuse to believe, we say 'it wont be because it is too obvious, she wont make it that easy for us to figure out'. tapi tak semua nya predictable. bila bnda tu dah tersurat, kite nak jugak cr yg tersirat, tapaayh korek dalam2, jk rowling dah letak atas tu.
that's why i loveee harry potter. full ofquestions to be answered and mysteries to be cleared and secrets to be revealed. kadang2 je jalan cerita tu semua org tau semua bnda, semua yg terjadi. selalu sgt ade gap, but then at last the gap is filled with the best of the choice. how i envy how her brain works. how she can create a whole new, undiscovered world without any confusion. how she can create a story as so good no words can describe as harry potter.
geez i'm an addict.
___________________________________
pagi ni aku mimpi. aku mimpi secara tiba2 ade banyak budak maktab aku kat sekolah aku. ni kali kedua oh. tp mimpi yg ni, ramai gila bdk maktab aku. diorg buat line nak masuk dewan for something, tp aku still boleh namekan dorg. i didnt forget even a soul.
but some of them didnt wear tudung, i wonder why. and some of them even wore skimpy2 semua, i wonder why. maybe tu sebenarnya symbolic kpd keadaan maktab skrg, drpd ape aku dengar, maktab serting dulu sgt laen ngn sekarang. thank god i've already got my butt out of there.
then i saw fasha, she didnt wear tudung too and she wore a baby tee :((
that time i was so shocked that i could met her again, i thought i only mouth 'fasha amanda' but apparently she heard me. she saw me too, her face was somewhat like she was scared or stunned. but as soon as i took the first step towards her, she ran. die terus lari drpd aku. aku kejar die, jerit nama die, tp die still lari. aku suruh die tunggu tp die lari. i think i remember i was sobbing at that time, when she could no longer be seen and i was exhausted from running.
she didint come back.
i wonder what it meant.
kat budak2 maktab tu, taktau kenapa i wanted to stay hidden. aku taknak jmpe dorg. but at the same time aku nak peluk dorg. time tu dorg nak balik, naek bas, and as the bus drove away,
i started running to catch up with it. but it was useless.
i was left behind.
again.
_________________________________
ade la sorg kawan ni bgtau, just recently, pasal masa aku baru masuk krk dulu2,
after aku kuar mrsm, budak2 pompuan tak suke aku. dorg ckp aku arrogant.
and naseblah si sumber tu, sebab die yg ckp die yg tiba2 terkena tempias amarah aku.
si sumber ckp budak2 pompuan ckp aku arrogant sebab aku salu ckp pasal mrsm.
. . .
wattefish man??!!!!
aku. arrogant. pasal. aku. salu. ckp. psl. mrsm. nak mengutuk aku kat budak laen pon please have a better and more believable reason.
FIRST,
aku hanya akan berperangai sebegini bila korg tak confront ckp elok2 depan2 dan sebaliknya ckp bnda2 tu kat belakang sekaligus membuka cerita kpd pihak yg tidak berpendapat aku berperangai seperti kata2 korg. itu maksudnya korg dah mempengaruhi seseorg utk berprasangka yg sama terhadap aku, dan kalau korg sedar la kan, korg da dpt dosa bonus tau tak.
tp sekarang aku nak ckp betapa tidak gemarnya aku terhadap org yg berckp belakang pasal aku tetapi berckp baik depan aku. aku tau, korg mungkin taknak ckp depan2 sebab korg takut aku marah, tapi hakikatnya kelukaan itu kurang dan mudah sembuh jika ditegur depan2. takpela, at least kalau korg bersatu padu menegur aku secara baik,
aku mungkin dapat reflect diri dan sedar kesalahan aku, betterkan drpd aktiviti grouping meluahkan perasaan tanpa pengetahuan aku??
jgn fikir negatif, neutralkanlaa perasaan tu. tak susah weh. aku boleh ajar camne taknak bnci org. cube fikir baek. and cubelaa jgn hebohkan ketidaksukaan korg tu kat sape2, aku tau perasaan taksuka tu takleh lenyapkan secepat mungkin, tp jgnlaa hebohkan. nak luahkan perasaan pon jgnlaa ajak ramai2. ni sampai nak ajak kaum adam meluahkan perasaan sekali ape kess?
ni namanya mengumpat.
sorry ATAS KEKASARAN BAHASA, tp korg kena faham.
aku salu berlembut ngn org. biasenya org buat ape kat aku pon aku diam je, aku buat2 taktau wp aku tau. aku senyum je kat dorg.
sekarang tibala masa utk aku membentangkan hujah aku.
korg mesti pernah rase rindu kat 'the old days' kan? terutama sekolah rendah, ahh kenangan yg tak dpt dilupakan kann? sure korg salu terkenang2, teringat2, kalau cam aku, aku pnah nanges ingat semua memori best kat sklk.
aku rindu maktab aku. even 6 bulan je kat sane, tp aku dok 24 jam tau. tau korg sme pandai, cube darab dgn 6 bulan. dpt tak walau 11 bulan kat skola harian? sudahh. aku pon tatau, tade maase aku nak bermath pulak cuti2 ni. tapi dok asrama byk kenangan tau, bykk nak cerita. gembira dan sedih. aku cuma nak luahkan perasaan.
aku nak korg paham je ape aku da rase. aku nak korg paham, tu jee. jgnla ckp aku bongkak bila aku cerita pasal mrsm. ya allah, jauh sekali. kau ingat aku bangga sgt ke dok mrsm? bangga ngn ape jd kat aku? aku da dok sane, aku tau ape yg patut dibanggakan, apa yg tak patut dibanggakan. aku just nak luahkan. tautakk camne aku rindu kat mrsm? tau tak berapa banyak kali aku mimpi mrsm? tau tak perasaan aku?
korg tu perempuan. sebab nilaa mase skola rendah tu aku banyak kawan laki. lepak ngn laki, balik ngn laki. mak aku pon tau. dah korg jgn nak buat cerita baru pasal aku berkenaan statement ni. sebab kalau aku luahkan perasaan kat laki, dorg tak pk sgt. angguk2 je. takpe, walaupon mcm ckp ngn robot. at least dorg manusia.
manusia yg tak pk bukan2. tp perempuan? bukan smua, tp mst ade satu mulut yg tak berapa nak blah ni.
aku bukan tak sedar, aku sedar. bila aku start ckp psl mrsm je, dorg pandang semcm. its in their eyes tau, like i couldnt see that. and i would abruptly stopped. sebab nak senangkan hati dorg. hesh. aku tau dorg tak ske aku buat cmtu. even ade yg bila aku bukak mulut psl mrsm je, mesti ckp smtg like "ahh dah dah". siap ade yg menshoohhs kan aku lg tuuu.
ya allah. aku agak terkecik atila. tp aku senyapkan aje. banyakk kali kalau aku tau ape org ckp psl aku, aku takkan buat muka sedih depan2, aku buat mcm biase. dorg pon taktau yg dorg da terlepas ckp. tp bila aku buat mcm biase dan tak confront tu, aku takdela brainwash sape2 plak.
kebanyakannya aku diamkan aje, taklaa buat satu support group bercerita psl pihak tu.
org ckp aku emo kot bebel panjang camni. tp agaknya aku da lama sabarla. da lama neutralkan segala perasaan aku. at least aku tak tembak direct kan. aku pon tak ske bila ade sape2 terasa bace post ni, aku tak ske org kecik ati ngn aku. nnt aku lak rase bersalah lelebih. bila da terasa mulalaa bermasam muka, mcm2 masalah pulak nnt.
blog ni bukan medan nak tembak sape2, tapi lebih kpd luahan aku sendiri.
one thing i want so badly ; utk jacob black the jake i adore now tu mati dan menyebabkan bella sengsara berguling sedar akan kesalahan die.
friendship is the most precious gift in the world. unlike family although it is the best thing you can have (kpd siapa yg bertuah), friendship grows, its your choice to plant it or not. its your 'achievement'. when u pick u lover over your bestfriend, its your loss.
and, there's something confusing in twilight saga. pasal treaty tu. mcm berbelit bercanggah. i hope there is a clear explanation out there. nothing would ever be confusing in harry potter though. everything will have a brilliant explanation. the author doesnt have us strangled with the words, the answer will be given later and that's what made it the best.
kalau dlm harry potter, kite takkan perasan ape yg crucial tau. kadang2 ayat or perkataan yg kite ingat bnda biasa pon sebenarnya banyak rahsia. cerita atau fakta yg kite lepas pandang pon boleh jadi the key to all the answer. in harry potter, we dont know what to expect. everything was so. . . carefully done. good job jk rowling.
benda yang memang the most unlikely to happen sebenarnya tu lah yg terjadi. benda yg kite rase mengarut, benda yg konon kite confirm tak boleh jadi, tu lah yg terjadi. benda yg memang mustahil, tp jk rowling buat bnda mustahil tu jd reasonable. macam everything happens for a reason, nothing is impossible in her world.
and even kadang bnda yg memang dah tercotok depan mata tu, bnda tula yg essential.
we sometimes refuse to believe, we say 'it wont be because it is too obvious, she wont make it that easy for us to figure out'. tapi tak semua nya predictable. bila bnda tu dah tersurat, kite nak jugak cr yg tersirat, tapaayh korek dalam2, jk rowling dah letak atas tu.
that's why i loveee harry potter. full ofquestions to be answered and mysteries to be cleared and secrets to be revealed. kadang2 je jalan cerita tu semua org tau semua bnda, semua yg terjadi. selalu sgt ade gap, but then at last the gap is filled with the best of the choice. how i envy how her brain works. how she can create a whole new, undiscovered world without any confusion. how she can create a story as so good no words can describe as harry potter.
geez i'm an addict.
___________________________________
pagi ni aku mimpi. aku mimpi secara tiba2 ade banyak budak maktab aku kat sekolah aku. ni kali kedua oh. tp mimpi yg ni, ramai gila bdk maktab aku. diorg buat line nak masuk dewan for something, tp aku still boleh namekan dorg. i didnt forget even a soul.
but some of them didnt wear tudung, i wonder why. and some of them even wore skimpy2 semua, i wonder why. maybe tu sebenarnya symbolic kpd keadaan maktab skrg, drpd ape aku dengar, maktab serting dulu sgt laen ngn sekarang. thank god i've already got my butt out of there.
then i saw fasha, she didnt wear tudung too and she wore a baby tee :((
that time i was so shocked that i could met her again, i thought i only mouth 'fasha amanda' but apparently she heard me. she saw me too, her face was somewhat like she was scared or stunned. but as soon as i took the first step towards her, she ran. die terus lari drpd aku. aku kejar die, jerit nama die, tp die still lari. aku suruh die tunggu tp die lari. i think i remember i was sobbing at that time, when she could no longer be seen and i was exhausted from running.
she didint come back.
i wonder what it meant.
kat budak2 maktab tu, taktau kenapa i wanted to stay hidden. aku taknak jmpe dorg. but at the same time aku nak peluk dorg. time tu dorg nak balik, naek bas, and as the bus drove away,
i started running to catch up with it. but it was useless.
i was left behind.
again.
_________________________________
ade la sorg kawan ni bgtau, just recently, pasal masa aku baru masuk krk dulu2,
after aku kuar mrsm, budak2 pompuan tak suke aku. dorg ckp aku arrogant.
and naseblah si sumber tu, sebab die yg ckp die yg tiba2 terkena tempias amarah aku.
si sumber ckp budak2 pompuan ckp aku arrogant sebab aku salu ckp pasal mrsm.
. . .
wattefish man??!!!!
aku. arrogant. pasal. aku. salu. ckp. psl. mrsm. nak mengutuk aku kat budak laen pon please have a better and more believable reason.
FIRST,
aku hanya akan berperangai sebegini bila korg tak confront ckp elok2 depan2 dan sebaliknya ckp bnda2 tu kat belakang sekaligus membuka cerita kpd pihak yg tidak berpendapat aku berperangai seperti kata2 korg. itu maksudnya korg dah mempengaruhi seseorg utk berprasangka yg sama terhadap aku, dan kalau korg sedar la kan, korg da dpt dosa bonus tau tak.
tp sekarang aku nak ckp betapa tidak gemarnya aku terhadap org yg berckp belakang pasal aku tetapi berckp baik depan aku. aku tau, korg mungkin taknak ckp depan2 sebab korg takut aku marah, tapi hakikatnya kelukaan itu kurang dan mudah sembuh jika ditegur depan2. takpela, at least kalau korg bersatu padu menegur aku secara baik,
aku mungkin dapat reflect diri dan sedar kesalahan aku, betterkan drpd aktiviti grouping meluahkan perasaan tanpa pengetahuan aku??
jgn fikir negatif, neutralkanlaa perasaan tu. tak susah weh. aku boleh ajar camne taknak bnci org. cube fikir baek. and cubelaa jgn hebohkan ketidaksukaan korg tu kat sape2, aku tau perasaan taksuka tu takleh lenyapkan secepat mungkin, tp jgnlaa hebohkan. nak luahkan perasaan pon jgnlaa ajak ramai2. ni sampai nak ajak kaum adam meluahkan perasaan sekali ape kess?
ni namanya mengumpat.
sorry ATAS KEKASARAN BAHASA, tp korg kena faham.
aku salu berlembut ngn org. biasenya org buat ape kat aku pon aku diam je, aku buat2 taktau wp aku tau. aku senyum je kat dorg.
sekarang tibala masa utk aku membentangkan hujah aku.
korg mesti pernah rase rindu kat 'the old days' kan? terutama sekolah rendah, ahh kenangan yg tak dpt dilupakan kann? sure korg salu terkenang2, teringat2, kalau cam aku, aku pnah nanges ingat semua memori best kat sklk.
aku rindu maktab aku. even 6 bulan je kat sane, tp aku dok 24 jam tau. tau korg sme pandai, cube darab dgn 6 bulan. dpt tak walau 11 bulan kat skola harian? sudahh. aku pon tatau, tade maase aku nak bermath pulak cuti2 ni. tapi dok asrama byk kenangan tau, bykk nak cerita. gembira dan sedih. aku cuma nak luahkan perasaan.
aku nak korg paham je ape aku da rase. aku nak korg paham, tu jee. jgnla ckp aku bongkak bila aku cerita pasal mrsm. ya allah, jauh sekali. kau ingat aku bangga sgt ke dok mrsm? bangga ngn ape jd kat aku? aku da dok sane, aku tau ape yg patut dibanggakan, apa yg tak patut dibanggakan. aku just nak luahkan. tautakk camne aku rindu kat mrsm? tau tak berapa banyak kali aku mimpi mrsm? tau tak perasaan aku?
korg tu perempuan. sebab nilaa mase skola rendah tu aku banyak kawan laki. lepak ngn laki, balik ngn laki. mak aku pon tau. dah korg jgn nak buat cerita baru pasal aku berkenaan statement ni. sebab kalau aku luahkan perasaan kat laki, dorg tak pk sgt. angguk2 je. takpe, walaupon mcm ckp ngn robot. at least dorg manusia.
manusia yg tak pk bukan2. tp perempuan? bukan smua, tp mst ade satu mulut yg tak berapa nak blah ni.
aku bukan tak sedar, aku sedar. bila aku start ckp psl mrsm je, dorg pandang semcm. its in their eyes tau, like i couldnt see that. and i would abruptly stopped. sebab nak senangkan hati dorg. hesh. aku tau dorg tak ske aku buat cmtu. even ade yg bila aku bukak mulut psl mrsm je, mesti ckp smtg like "ahh dah dah". siap ade yg menshoohhs kan aku lg tuuu.
ya allah. aku agak terkecik atila. tp aku senyapkan aje. banyakk kali kalau aku tau ape org ckp psl aku, aku takkan buat muka sedih depan2, aku buat mcm biase. dorg pon taktau yg dorg da terlepas ckp. tp bila aku buat mcm biase dan tak confront tu, aku takdela brainwash sape2 plak.
kebanyakannya aku diamkan aje, taklaa buat satu support group bercerita psl pihak tu.
org ckp aku emo kot bebel panjang camni. tp agaknya aku da lama sabarla. da lama neutralkan segala perasaan aku. at least aku tak tembak direct kan. aku pon tak ske bila ade sape2 terasa bace post ni, aku tak ske org kecik ati ngn aku. nnt aku lak rase bersalah lelebih. bila da terasa mulalaa bermasam muka, mcm2 masalah pulak nnt.
blog ni bukan medan nak tembak sape2, tapi lebih kpd luahan aku sendiri.
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