feeling so blue

in the context, its not lustful.
blue. sedeh.

there's not a single day that doesn't bring sorrow
there's not a single week that doesn't shed tear

i'm gonna stop it.
people dont like that stuffs kan?
malangnya. i often feel that in the future,
i will end up in a mental hospital.
i cant open up to anybody.
i cant burdened my mom with ALL my feelings kan?
yet, i dont know where to turn.

and now i just want that feeling.
sense of belonging is rather deep in me.
feeling that i'm safe.
that i can trust.

grrrrrr. i'll stop.

okay now today,
after not a peaceful day,
aku online kat myspace.
and ngn sialnya dpt tau
ade sorg budak add
budak yg tak sedar diri,
yg tak sedar ape die da buat.

should i approve her?
should i pretend that i CAN forget?
forgive ; yes.
forget ; nope.
what should i do?

i can breathe without a presence of a so called friend,
that's for sure.
bukan aku yg putuskan sillaturahim kat sini.

she did, brutally.