So, I Am..... Legend! no, I'm Just Back

ok hai. harini aku dah boleh blogging balik sebab quota internet dah update, oh yeaaaaah

aku dah boleh blogging daripada last week actually, sebab alevel dah habis, OH FRCKIN YEAHHHHHH

tapi seperti ayat pertama, aku takde quota internet untuk blogging bagai, tapi aku sebenarnya boleh je blogging dari dulu, sebab alevel dua bulan pun bukan aku belajar 24 jam x 60 hari, 2 jam x 60 hari pun jauh sekali, ok apa ni. cerita dia aku boleh je blogging, tapi hidup aku masa tu serabut. serabut mental, physical, medical, emotional, apa kau nak lagi semua aku dah hadapi. tapi aku hidup lagi sekarang ni. jadi ok la kot. en.

sebab serabut, aku takleh blog. aku taknak blog. kang terbawak-bawak serabut aku tu kang.

tapi sekarang aku boleh berblogging balik. dan aku nak berblogging pasal semuanya. kalau aku blog la. 

masalah utama aku dalam pape pun: boleh je, nak je, tapi buat tak buat, itu persoalannya.

so hi, if you ever read this blog, welcome back. expect a shitload of posts (i hope).

i'd like to say a few things first. i expect those who read this blog as those who know it from my school days (masa aku kecoh berkeretapitutttutt homagad i shame shame now u no), those who know it from blogosphere (if you still stick around fellow bloggers i thank you), and those from my college days - this is what i want to emphasize. jeng jeng jeng.

anybody from intec who reads this shit, i should know you guys because

1. you know about this blog before we even went to intec - i told you, you found out, etc.

2. i told you about this blog because we're friends - i recall four people, and only four.

3. you found this blog and told me about it - thanks for the decency to tell, despite stalking, directed to two of you who became my underrated guy friends in secret, lol. one still free to roam around this territory, one i forbid from returning, for some reasons, and since then he hasn't. both scrolled my timeline for my blog. not sure whether to feel flattered or freak out or turn into a hulk.

of course, i might also not know you. because you either find out about it from someone or somewhere else and silently read about my life, never try to say hi to the girl behind the keyboard. nope, not stalking at all. silent readers, are you not? not sure if you exist, but would be so naive of me to think you don't. it's the internet anyway, and everyone knows everyone in the virtual world, so it's bound to happen. come out and say hello, i won't bite, if you bring me food. i know you're there, hey you sweating in front of the screen! i'm totally spying on my readers on their webcam the whole time, totes. oh and don't think i've forgotten about the intec confession thing, nice attempt at publicity there, thanks but i don't need any. i'm more into, what is it? oh yes, privacy.

i'm going to blog about whatever i want and i don't care if anybody reads it or not. lie. i might slightly care about who does, and i might suggest everyone to stop reading, LIKE RIGHT NOW, ok kidding, but i can't control you, soo *shrugs it off and put shades on. but bear in mind that i try to write as though nobody will read, with the knowledge that somebody can find my word and be offended, or take my word and twist it. so it's gotta be balanced. or i'm just gonna go the old typical ama way of revealing too much or not revealing anything at all. okay? okay. you gave me infinity within a numbered days. my thoughts are stars i can't fathom into constellations. i like my choices, i hope she like hers. ok tetiba.

since i'm blogging again just thought i ought to address my so called readers. ew i feel so vain, borderline narcissistic, i'm not some bloggers. but what do you call people who read your posts, scroll your blog, dig your archive and even screenshot stuffs and share it with the subject, right? i mean, that happens to other bloggers, might not be me, might, not be, but just saying, you know, jasss sayin. nasty things happen on the internet.

not sure if i'll ever let my kid be on it. you write because you get hurt. people read and they get hurt. nasty. 

but yall are welcome here, whether i know you or not, regardless of what you do or don't. it's your business baby, this blog is mine, and all of our dealings will be counted and we're gonna be accountable for it all. let's just hope when the time comes, none of us will be indebted to one another, yes? so, i'm sorry and please forgive me. short, but sincere, i hope.

if there's one thing i do on this blog, i go anon. though not really, but i try. (expect some pictures coming!!!!!). i do the same about what or who i write about here. i write for myself, and i hide others for a reason. would appreciate it if you try to think of it as a good reason, and react to it in a good way.

everyone loves a good samaritan, but not a straight, let alone crooked, simpleton.

love, ama :)