malmal aku balik. wow. rase mcm setahun tak jmpe, bukan mcm sebulan.
sebab . . .
die dah besar and panjang gila! aku tergamam tgk die masa die baru sampai. mcm, ah? tinggi nak mati. mustahil sgt membesar begitu sekali hanya dlm sebulan.
dulu die takde tengkok, sekarang da ade. dulu die gemok pendek, sekarang hanyalah montel tinggi. dulu segenap penjuru badan die akan terkeluar isi, sekarang dah slim. dan paling tak boleh diterima . .
dulu rambut die yg bercurl2 kat tepi, panjang dan serabai sampai org ingat die perempuan, sekarang dah potong pendek. dah sah laki. aku takleh terima. skg die hanyalah seorg budak hensem, tak mcm dulu, jambu. rambut tu sgt berharga tau takk. drpd jauh boleh nmpk ade curl tu naek2 atas telinga die. curl hujung die tulah salah satu perkara yg mengdistinguish ikmal aku.
aku pelik asal die boleh tinggi dlm sekelip mata. keturunan werewolf kah, mcm jacob black? growth spurt.
jgn jadi mcm aku sudahh. kecik bukan maen tinggi nya, sekarang? huh. ikmal, lebih baek ikmal pendek dan kemetot mcm budak len time sekolah rendah, dan kemudian tinggi melampai zaman sekolah menengah. bukan mcm ayu, dulu tinggi sekarang sebaliknya.
_____________________________________________________________
semalam our beloved tcer pat told us about last year 3 cemerlang. she told us about how, finally, they realized all this while what she did was teaching them. after they did their english paper and went out of the hall, they said something like that.
they were all fully satisfied that they could answer it, as they read the works that tcer pat had gave them. tcer said that it was a boy (mls nak namekan sape) who told his classmates of what to read, and i know he's one of the best students.
tcer also said that one of the most tak boleh blah student in the class was grateful that he actually did the reading because a friend of his told him to. and that friend is someone that is known as a 'disturb the whole class type but a very tiptop brainy'. i have to admit that i'm somewhat proud of him or so because all the teachers had been talking about his behaviour, but at the same time praising his intelligence.
when u are critiqued but then u are praised, bolehla jugak kembang kan.
when i heard what tcer pat said, my eyes, again, became moist. imagining if i were them, and everything the usual me always do when it comes to this species of subjects.
CONGRATS to everybody who is offered to leave your old creditable school in order to advance yourself by studying in the elite BOARDINGS SCHOOLS OR MRSM.
clapclap. go you all the smart people to smart school,
and that's why our school could never be extraordinary.
____________________________________________________________
although i'm positive that i DONT WANT and if NOT necessary, WILL NOT return to a boarding school, but still i WANT to get an offer so that i'll have a CHOICE.
an option should things change, although the 'things' in the subject is meant to be the worst case scenario, which i'm desperately praying that it will not occur in this 10 years time, when i'm still dangling here. but of course, we'll never know.
should the things take place (ya allah jangan), i will pack my things and leave this place. or easier, i might want to have another option besides staying is just because i change my mind and i'm positive things will stay okay during my two years migration.
in order to get an offer, i need to have impressing markah koko. which i think i dont. looking at my situation as a free student, hold no other bonus post, not-so-active-this-time-unlike-when-i-was-in-primary school, and a coward when i refuse to go audition for a debate competition.
kenapalaa kemasukan ke mrsm tak dikira sebagai markah koko?
tapi. tapi tapi. i'm not like, a bespectacled geek who sits in class and studies till i lost my mind during the night, i did entered some activities. even, i think my participation is quite okay, judging that i only had a year (last year), to get all the markah koko as my participation in mrsm couldnt be counted (i dont know why), and considering that this pmr year i should just focus on my books. long story short, last year was the only year i could gain markah as much as possible.
my participation for last year
(peringkat sekolah-kebangsaan dan semua yang dapat sijil serta dikira markahnya)
perbarisan hari sukan (pandu puteri) peringkat sekolah
kawad pandu puteri peringkat daerah
edubox class - international (belum terima sijil)
choral speaking peringkat daerah gombak
ekspedisi gua tempurung dan kellie's castle peringkat sekolah
aktiviti explorace peringkat sekolah
pertandingan membuat banner merdeka peringkat sekolah
international competitions and assessments for schools -
ENGLISH - achievement; CREDIT
international competitions and assessments for schools -
MATHEMATICS - achievement; PARTICIPATION
ahli pebimbing rakan sebaya (PRS)
all in 2008. aku tau tak sebanyak sesetengah kawan yg memang outstanding gila ; pengawas, berjawatan tinggi, so on so on. but at least i did it. i expected to get a B or something.
but . .
i got a C!!!
cant even breath. where's the justice??? mungkin aku berbunyi poyo begini, but a C??? C yg rendah pulak tuuu!!!! and even more suprisingly, katelaa aku mmg malas, tak layak dpt B or C yg tinggi, fine, i accept, but it went all wrong when i know that my markah koko, sama dgn markah koko seorang budak yg tak masuk apeape!!!
kenapa??? why? WHY would my grade and people that had done nothing's grade are the same?!
why??? if i dont even qualified for a B, but why would i be graded as though i've never participated in any freaking activity? if i AM qualified for a C, then that boy grade shoud be a D or a big F!
agak poyolah kan berfikir sedemikian, tapi tolonglah faham wahai korg, aku penat masuk mcm2, jadi hitam sbb kawad dan hilang suare sbb choral speaking, tapi aku gred aku tak menggambarkan usaha aku. kalau aku tau nak jd camni, baek aku tayah masuk apeape!
mungkin penglibatan aku tak cukup. mungkin. tapi cuba tgk betul2, aku ade 3 penglibatan peringkat kebangsaan, jadi sekurang2nya aku layak dapat C yg tinggi! bukannya markah aku 50+%! tu baru kira penglibatan, belum lagi kehadiran blabla. dan yg pasti, my former form tcer had already said that my markah should be higher than everyone else's, because since i had zero mark for my form 1, she didnt divide it by two!
markah koko form 1 + markah koko form 2 = jawapan bahagi dua.
tapi memangdangkan markah koko form 1 aku tak dikira lgsg, jadi cikgu tak bahagi 2, jadi kemungkinan aku patut dpt markah lg tinggi!
arghhhhh. jadi aku nak tau sekarang, mcmane cikgu kira utk dapatkan markah koko yg sebenar? mcmane aku boleh dapat C, walaupun aku masuk mcm2, dan mcmane dia boleh dapat C, walaupun dia tak masuk ape2 pon sepanjang hayat dia kat smklk. aku nak tau tu je.
dan aku dah jumpe byk pihak utk selesaikan masalah ni. former form tcer aku ckp yg kalau ade kesilapan mengira walaupun di pihak aku, dah terlambat. tak boleh tukar sebab markah tu dah hantar pergi kementerian.
waddapisy.
ok so, aku ade beberapa soalan;
1. boleh tak markah penglibatan aku utk last year yg tidak dikira, dikira utk tahun ini? ok mungkin aku kena ada bukti drpd guru kelas terdahulu yg die tak kire sesuatu penglibatan tu, tapi mcmlah die ingat dan simpan kertas conteng kire2 die tu kan. tak kesahla, cuma, boleh tak?
2.
INI SOALAN TERPENTING
bagaimanakah sesuatu pihak itu mengambil kira kelayakan untuk ke sekolah berasrama penuh/mrsm berdasarkan markah koko? adakah berdasarkan markah koko di kementerian (which if it does, i'm screwed), ataupun sijil yang disertakan bersama? ok mungkin untuk sekolah kerajaan seperti sbp dan sains, pengiraan berdasarkan markah kementerian yg tak pasti betul atau tak diambil kira. tapi seingat aku walaupun tak pasti, sekolah2 seperti mrsm dimana permohonan diasingkan (bermaksud tidak dtg dr kementerian, mohon laen2), kelayakan dr segi kokorikulum dikira berdasarkan sijil yang disertakan dengan surat permohonan. jadi jika benar sangkaan aku ini, peluang untuk aku mendapat tawaran mrsm masih tebuka (walaupun MUSTAHIL), sekali lagi.
jadi jika ade sesiapa yang kenal orang MARA/kerajaan, sila tanyakan untuk aku ya.
lagi bagus kalau orang MARA/kerajaan yg kau kenal tu boleh jadi cable aku nanti.
bukanlah aku terdesak sgt nak memohon asrama, tapi mcm yg aku dah katekan awal2 tadi,
aku NAK ada pilihan. tu ja. tapi aku sendiri tak pasti samada aku akan hantar surat permohonan ke tidak.
kalau markah koko aku ni bukan untuk next year pon, tapi pentinglah weh. sebab tulah aku kecoh semacam. kalau aku taknak mohon, so takdela pening sgtkan. tapi masalahnya markah koko ni pun kan utk jangka masa panjang, iaitu selepas form 5 nanti.
markah koko jugak kan yg menentukan kedudukan kita di zaman universiti nanti. aku nak pergi oversea, dan jika aku tak berasal drpd sekolah elite, agak susah nak dapat. sebab tu lah aku beriya2 pasal markah koko ni. kalau tak dpt oversea pon, aku nakla masuk uni kat malaysia ni yg bagus2. yg mmg top.
ya aku cerewet. tak padan dgn kelayakan.
dan markah koko ni jugaklah yg akan menyelamatkan aku drpd diseksa tiga bulan kat PLKN nanti, adoh.
sebab . . .
die dah besar and panjang gila! aku tergamam tgk die masa die baru sampai. mcm, ah? tinggi nak mati. mustahil sgt membesar begitu sekali hanya dlm sebulan.
dulu die takde tengkok, sekarang da ade. dulu die gemok pendek, sekarang hanyalah montel tinggi. dulu segenap penjuru badan die akan terkeluar isi, sekarang dah slim. dan paling tak boleh diterima . .
dulu rambut die yg bercurl2 kat tepi, panjang dan serabai sampai org ingat die perempuan, sekarang dah potong pendek. dah sah laki. aku takleh terima. skg die hanyalah seorg budak hensem, tak mcm dulu, jambu. rambut tu sgt berharga tau takk. drpd jauh boleh nmpk ade curl tu naek2 atas telinga die. curl hujung die tulah salah satu perkara yg mengdistinguish ikmal aku.
aku pelik asal die boleh tinggi dlm sekelip mata. keturunan werewolf kah, mcm jacob black? growth spurt.
jgn jadi mcm aku sudahh. kecik bukan maen tinggi nya, sekarang? huh. ikmal, lebih baek ikmal pendek dan kemetot mcm budak len time sekolah rendah, dan kemudian tinggi melampai zaman sekolah menengah. bukan mcm ayu, dulu tinggi sekarang sebaliknya.
_____________________________________________________________
semalam our beloved tcer pat told us about last year 3 cemerlang. she told us about how, finally, they realized all this while what she did was teaching them. after they did their english paper and went out of the hall, they said something like that.
they were all fully satisfied that they could answer it, as they read the works that tcer pat had gave them. tcer said that it was a boy (mls nak namekan sape) who told his classmates of what to read, and i know he's one of the best students.
tcer also said that one of the most tak boleh blah student in the class was grateful that he actually did the reading because a friend of his told him to. and that friend is someone that is known as a 'disturb the whole class type but a very tiptop brainy'. i have to admit that i'm somewhat proud of him or so because all the teachers had been talking about his behaviour, but at the same time praising his intelligence.
when u are critiqued but then u are praised, bolehla jugak kembang kan.
when i heard what tcer pat said, my eyes, again, became moist. imagining if i were them, and everything the usual me always do when it comes to this species of subjects.
CONGRATS to everybody who is offered to leave your old creditable school in order to advance yourself by studying in the elite BOARDINGS SCHOOLS OR MRSM.
clapclap. go you all the smart people to smart school,
and that's why our school could never be extraordinary.
____________________________________________________________
although i'm positive that i DONT WANT and if NOT necessary, WILL NOT return to a boarding school, but still i WANT to get an offer so that i'll have a CHOICE.
an option should things change, although the 'things' in the subject is meant to be the worst case scenario, which i'm desperately praying that it will not occur in this 10 years time, when i'm still dangling here. but of course, we'll never know.
should the things take place (ya allah jangan), i will pack my things and leave this place. or easier, i might want to have another option besides staying is just because i change my mind and i'm positive things will stay okay during my two years migration.
in order to get an offer, i need to have impressing markah koko. which i think i dont. looking at my situation as a free student, hold no other bonus post, not-so-active-this-time-unlike-when-i-was-in-primary school, and a coward when i refuse to go audition for a debate competition.
kenapalaa kemasukan ke mrsm tak dikira sebagai markah koko?
tapi. tapi tapi. i'm not like, a bespectacled geek who sits in class and studies till i lost my mind during the night, i did entered some activities. even, i think my participation is quite okay, judging that i only had a year (last year), to get all the markah koko as my participation in mrsm couldnt be counted (i dont know why), and considering that this pmr year i should just focus on my books. long story short, last year was the only year i could gain markah as much as possible.
my participation for last year
(peringkat sekolah-kebangsaan dan semua yang dapat sijil serta dikira markahnya)
perbarisan hari sukan (pandu puteri) peringkat sekolah
kawad pandu puteri peringkat daerah
edubox class - international (belum terima sijil)
choral speaking peringkat daerah gombak
ekspedisi gua tempurung dan kellie's castle peringkat sekolah
aktiviti explorace peringkat sekolah
pertandingan membuat banner merdeka peringkat sekolah
international competitions and assessments for schools -
ENGLISH - achievement; CREDIT
international competitions and assessments for schools -
MATHEMATICS - achievement; PARTICIPATION
ahli pebimbing rakan sebaya (PRS)
all in 2008. aku tau tak sebanyak sesetengah kawan yg memang outstanding gila ; pengawas, berjawatan tinggi, so on so on. but at least i did it. i expected to get a B or something.
but . .
i got a C!!!
cant even breath. where's the justice??? mungkin aku berbunyi poyo begini, but a C??? C yg rendah pulak tuuu!!!! and even more suprisingly, katelaa aku mmg malas, tak layak dpt B or C yg tinggi, fine, i accept, but it went all wrong when i know that my markah koko, sama dgn markah koko seorang budak yg tak masuk apeape!!!
kenapa??? why? WHY would my grade and people that had done nothing's grade are the same?!
why??? if i dont even qualified for a B, but why would i be graded as though i've never participated in any freaking activity? if i AM qualified for a C, then that boy grade shoud be a D or a big F!
agak poyolah kan berfikir sedemikian, tapi tolonglah faham wahai korg, aku penat masuk mcm2, jadi hitam sbb kawad dan hilang suare sbb choral speaking, tapi aku gred aku tak menggambarkan usaha aku. kalau aku tau nak jd camni, baek aku tayah masuk apeape!
mungkin penglibatan aku tak cukup. mungkin. tapi cuba tgk betul2, aku ade 3 penglibatan peringkat kebangsaan, jadi sekurang2nya aku layak dapat C yg tinggi! bukannya markah aku 50+%! tu baru kira penglibatan, belum lagi kehadiran blabla. dan yg pasti, my former form tcer had already said that my markah should be higher than everyone else's, because since i had zero mark for my form 1, she didnt divide it by two!
markah koko form 1 + markah koko form 2 = jawapan bahagi dua.
tapi memangdangkan markah koko form 1 aku tak dikira lgsg, jadi cikgu tak bahagi 2, jadi kemungkinan aku patut dpt markah lg tinggi!
arghhhhh. jadi aku nak tau sekarang, mcmane cikgu kira utk dapatkan markah koko yg sebenar? mcmane aku boleh dapat C, walaupun aku masuk mcm2, dan mcmane dia boleh dapat C, walaupun dia tak masuk ape2 pon sepanjang hayat dia kat smklk. aku nak tau tu je.
dan aku dah jumpe byk pihak utk selesaikan masalah ni. former form tcer aku ckp yg kalau ade kesilapan mengira walaupun di pihak aku, dah terlambat. tak boleh tukar sebab markah tu dah hantar pergi kementerian.
waddapisy.
ok so, aku ade beberapa soalan;
1. boleh tak markah penglibatan aku utk last year yg tidak dikira, dikira utk tahun ini? ok mungkin aku kena ada bukti drpd guru kelas terdahulu yg die tak kire sesuatu penglibatan tu, tapi mcmlah die ingat dan simpan kertas conteng kire2 die tu kan. tak kesahla, cuma, boleh tak?
2.
INI SOALAN TERPENTING
bagaimanakah sesuatu pihak itu mengambil kira kelayakan untuk ke sekolah berasrama penuh/mrsm berdasarkan markah koko? adakah berdasarkan markah koko di kementerian (which if it does, i'm screwed), ataupun sijil yang disertakan bersama? ok mungkin untuk sekolah kerajaan seperti sbp dan sains, pengiraan berdasarkan markah kementerian yg tak pasti betul atau tak diambil kira. tapi seingat aku walaupun tak pasti, sekolah2 seperti mrsm dimana permohonan diasingkan (bermaksud tidak dtg dr kementerian, mohon laen2), kelayakan dr segi kokorikulum dikira berdasarkan sijil yang disertakan dengan surat permohonan. jadi jika benar sangkaan aku ini, peluang untuk aku mendapat tawaran mrsm masih tebuka (walaupun MUSTAHIL), sekali lagi.
jadi jika ade sesiapa yang kenal orang MARA/kerajaan, sila tanyakan untuk aku ya.
lagi bagus kalau orang MARA/kerajaan yg kau kenal tu boleh jadi cable aku nanti.
bukanlah aku terdesak sgt nak memohon asrama, tapi mcm yg aku dah katekan awal2 tadi,
aku NAK ada pilihan. tu ja. tapi aku sendiri tak pasti samada aku akan hantar surat permohonan ke tidak.
kalau markah koko aku ni bukan untuk next year pon, tapi pentinglah weh. sebab tulah aku kecoh semacam. kalau aku taknak mohon, so takdela pening sgtkan. tapi masalahnya markah koko ni pun kan utk jangka masa panjang, iaitu selepas form 5 nanti.
markah koko jugak kan yg menentukan kedudukan kita di zaman universiti nanti. aku nak pergi oversea, dan jika aku tak berasal drpd sekolah elite, agak susah nak dapat. sebab tu lah aku beriya2 pasal markah koko ni. kalau tak dpt oversea pon, aku nakla masuk uni kat malaysia ni yg bagus2. yg mmg top.
ya aku cerewet. tak padan dgn kelayakan.
dan markah koko ni jugaklah yg akan menyelamatkan aku drpd diseksa tiga bulan kat PLKN nanti, adoh.
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one bitter fact : byk mne pon masuk dlm one year, yg paling tinggi pencapaian koko dikira ... paling tinggi sukan, paling tinggi unit, pling tinggu klab.
huhuhu.
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