Reunion As I Wish

hidup aku baru baru ni hanye psl reunion SKLK batch TERBAEK TERGEMPAK TERFEMES 01-06.

problem bermula apabila tempat agak jauh and mase pulak malam. i can sleep at my bro's, but the thing is the next day will be my class feast yg comparatively jauh drpd rumah abang, so kelam kabut ah tapi itu tidak ape lagi.

bila ramai pulak tak boleh pergi, budak perempuan boleh kira dengan jari anda yg kontot tu, dan bestfriends pulak menghilangkan diri, barulah agak terusik hati.

reunionkah jika kite-kite ni tak reunite?

budak laki mmglah terlebih teruja dan bersemangat habes sbb dorg semua ramai on. tp unfair bg budak pompuan sbb sorg laki boleh kawen 7 malam tu. bukan nak bezakan laki pompuan tp masalahnya tak simpati ke kat dorang yg tak pg and dorang sgt penting, FAHAM?

aku pun kesian kpd mereka yg dah berkorban, lalu membantu menyenangkan kerja dorg. msglah dlm 30 org exsklk dlm phonebook, w/p taktau dorg masih gune nombor tu atau tak. then cmmnt sorg2 kt mespes personally sbb nak kasi number telefon. kemudian aku msg and call dorg pakse pergi kali kedua, smp dorg pun agaknye nak hempas fon dan pijak2 lagi.

tiba2 kate nak cancel. i was relieved, sbb i really want everyone to be there, at least most of them, not the other way around. so i spent more to tell people about that. pokai but glad.

tapi lepastu kate nak bwat jugak, sape tade nasiblah. then aku ckp rmi mintak tangguh. jgnlah fikir kita je. i was told i need to find out brape yg nak postpone, so again i texted everyone. i believe almost 17 asked us to delay the reunion and change the plan. not a large number but those 17 people mean a lot.

apparently, i lost after struggling mcm ahli politik mintak undian segala.

since the final word is to proceed the original plan, again i have to sacrifice telling all those peeps. but the ringgits lost are nothing compared to the real deal.

bkn ungkit, sumpah sbb aku pon nak reunion so badly, and i volunteered to help. but i am not content. what if i was the one who is left out? what about those asrama blokes yg 3 tahun dok bawah tempurung tak jumpa sesapa? and ramai sgt tak dpt pergi, it is as though my heart pun tertinggal jugak. ecehceh. but its true.

the good thing is i at least get to reach many of my exschoolmates back. yang mmg betul2 pas UPSR tak jumpa, yg dah lost number, yg dah jadi superdiva las vegas pun dpt contact balik. agak terharu. it would be amazingly great if reunion goes the way i want.

what ways do i want?

everyone i care for and love and miss is there. and it doesnt have to be grand and splendid, it just have to be memorable, and bring back memories from the past. at least have it at SKLK's Hall, nnt kita hiaslah bg cantik cam hotel sikit, haha tinggi aspirasi betol. then kumpul gambar2 zaman tu drpd smorg, letak dekat merata2, buat slideshow ke. adekan sesi utk buka cerita pasal kisah dulu2, sape nak mengaku pernah suke sape ke, sangat comel. and pasang lagu yg berkaitan dgn reunion, which can be either lagu2 friendship, schooling, that kind of stuffs, or even lagu yg hit zaman kita SKLK dulu. amacam?

aku dah ade lagu lagu yg sesuai. but it is more to graduating stuffs, tp kire same jugak lah tu dgn reuniting sbb pasal memories. since in the topic of graduating songs, aku plan nak guna lagu2 tersebut utk 3C1 Farewell Feast nnt. cuma camne nak maen lagu kat restoran tu? kalau dpt mmg perfect. and i believe classic songs suit more for reunion and graduation.

bayangkan kalau kite sekolah zaman 90an. buat reunion lagu search wings feminin zaiton sameon, lalu terkenang zaman cinta pertama berbunga, fuaa terbaek. tp kite hidup skang dgn lagu2 melayu yg tak best dan lagu2 org putih yg tak mndatangkan senyuman bermakna, so tak senostalgik manelah.

anyhow, i end this post with a mountain of remorse for those who cannot make it to the reunion, and i along with you wish we can have a better reunion with all of us gathering again, next time :)

Bye MRSM, sebab UKKM Hampeh Cipan

em nak ckp pasal UKKM? aku cool je. cool selepas frust menonggeng tak tidur semalam dan lepas subuh pagi tadi after makan baru hilang stress. kenapa kena makan jugak untuk tenangkan fikiran?

kenapa frust sampai tertonggeng tonggeng? (tolong jgn bayangkan. ngeri sial). i'll tell you why. ade bebrapa reason ye di sini namun reason paling utama dan memanaskan hati ialah kebodohan terserlah aku.

seperti yg korg tau, aku mmg tak kempunan MRSM. so i have always intended not to overdo in UKKM. AND HAVE YOU ANY IDEA WHAT I PRAYED FOR? twice? or mungkin thrice. sebab itulah termakbul kot. kalaulah doa utk PMR termakbul sebegitu senang.

aku doa dgn penuh puitis dan sadis berbunyi jika tempat aku mmg di MRSM, jika takdir aku di MRSM, jika yg terbaik utk aku ialah hidup di asrama, maka Kau bantulah aku. berilah aku yg terbaik. namun jika tidak, tak tolong pun takpe.

tapi ini dah stupidity beyond imagination dah ni. pertama, aku tak kesah aku tak buat banyak gila math sbb org laen pun kate susah, despite budak sebelah aku buat 40/40 dan siap ade mase lebih lagi. bak kate omputeh, its not anyone's fault if you are less intelligent. so aku pun redo je.

tp yg kedua dan paling downright membangangkan diri ialah aku pergi biar kosong ok soalan laen tu. tak jawab ape pon. tinggal. tak bertanda.

aku taktau apahal dgn aku time tu. aku mcm blur. aku just cek mana yg tak buat lagi dan tak terfikir nak hentam. APAKAH?

orang laen pun tak bangang mcmni. pasal tu lah aku tensyen. kalau tak dpt offer sbb limitation of brilliance takpe. ni sbb kebodohan yg aku cipta. biase aku tembak utk exam pun salu betul, instict yg hebatlah katekan. ini. . . . takde sape lbh teruk drpd aku. kesian aku, mst cikgu yg jage tu tgk lepastu simpati, budak ni sesat dr lubuk mane tah.

tapi selepas agak tenang, aku dpt fikir. kalau dah sangat bangang tak terjangkau akal mcmtu, mungkin itu benar2 hikmah. dan bukan pure witless semata2.

mungkin aku dah dpt ape aku doakan. logiclah, ade ke org periksa tinggal tmpt kosong? at least taktau satu haram jadah pun mst jawab jugak semua kan? mungkin nilah care utk mudahkan mase depan aku, supaya aku tak susah fikir dan tak menyesal.

mungkin. Allah Maha Mengetahui. *insaf seketika.

naseb baek science agak senang. tapi kalau dah screwed up gila untuk math, dpt 40/40 pun takde makne. personality test, aku buat segala yg berbunyi keusahawanan, sains, disiplin dan kepimpinan. thanks to Aisyah for that and my knowledge of how MARA works.

but clearly biased, habes aku nak jadi penulis ni diketepikanlah? terpaksa mengkhianati cita-cita dan minat untuk tebus kebengapan menjawab math.

dan agak pelik bila sebenarnya nama aku takde pun untuk ambek UKKM dekat KKB, walaupun dah dpt surat pemberitahuan.

mak aku dah plan mane nak hantar aku tusyen sbb takkan dpt asrama. habeslah aku. aku benci tuisyen. dan akan sangat jakun dan janggal kerana tak pernah tuisyen.

ape yg aku boleh kate, aku takkan menyusahkan diri cek laman web MARA dan mailbox nanti.

euglena itu sejenis karipapkah?

okay tipu. aku tak away. aku tengah 'belajar' science depan myspace dan blog, chill. padahal dah mula nervous kot. inilah amalina, takkan bertindak selagi tak cuak. woh sedap itu quote. i'm the greatest procrastinator ever even when i was about to sit for PMR, mcmnilah. sekarang bila dah mula sesak nafas nak pengsan gelabah baru nak bukak buku, tapi masih berfoya-foya dgn internet. damn kenapalah abangku kasi computer untuk kegunaan peribadi dan letak sebelah katil dlm bilikku? kan hidup mati dgn computer jugak. okay itu sahaja update saye. mmg saye tak kempunan mrsm tetapi saya seorg fighter dan competitor. saya nak menang jeee. jd tlg doakan saya okeh. bye! okay cepat focus dekat gambar euglena chapter 2 form 1 science baru padahal less than 24 hours untuk belajar sebelum UKKM sebab esok ade kenduri sedare amat bangang kalau bace buku depan nasi briyani ayam masak merah dah stop.

Tag Ini Best

ini tag from Aisyah ya muah muah.

10 things I want for Christmas:
1. to actually celebrate Christmas itself cos really, its pretty good to have the experience. but of course, bukanlah dr segi keagamaan ye haish malas benar bila benda mcmni pun kena explain tanak bg org fikir laen. cume dr segi festive atmosphere tu, searching for the perfect tree, decorating the tree with the whole family and i got to climb a chair to have the honour putting the lil fairy on top of it, be the kid who waits for Santa and who writes wishes and post them to north pole or simply whispers them to the stars, be the kid who wakes up in the morning to find presents as they desire, making snowman and snowangel throwing snowballs and eats turkey and puding and hot stew and sing christmas carol. it isnt too bad to wish for, is it?

2. to have the certainty that everything will be okay and i can live my life without have to worry about anything at all. everything may not be according to plans because life doesnt work like that, but i just dont want the worst thing to happen, thats all. i want the major things that i pray for to be a beautiful reality :)

3. to have a normal and happy family. or the one i used to have.

4. 8 AS FOR PMR OR I WONT HAVE A FREAKING CHRISTMAS AT ALL.

5. to have the perfect teenage life. perfect means friendship, learning to live, stupid puppy love that i will always remember, never ending attention, well performance in school, and just a life at this stage which happens that i can only envy and not feel it in my skin. kesihann.

5. CONNECTION YANG LAJU THIS ONE ANNOYS ME TO HELL.

6. a destiny that isnt so confusing and terrifying and the one that i wont make wrong choices. senang kata yg dah terbentang depan tu, takde jalan laen, itu jugak yg kena ambek and it will end AWESOMELY.

7. berat badan yg tidak terlalu yoyo. aku dpt makan sebaldi aiskrim,dua pinggan nasi briyani, tiga kotak pizza, dua cheeseburger tanpa rase bersalah dkt badan sendiri. metabolism tinggi lah kot. biarlah 45kg sampai bila2, alangkah bagusnyaaa.

8. sekolah menengah yg macam asrama atau krk selamanya tanpa gangguan boyan boyan yang menakutkan lagi poyo dan berbahaya. note. BUKAN BOYAN YG BANGSA TU.

9. TANAK SEKOLAH SAMPAI BILA BILA TAPI NAK ADE DEGREE.

10. nak jadi baek, alim, muslimah tanpa rase heh aku muda lagi janganla dull sangat dan tanak buat dosa dah dan nak jadi taat dan solehah dan kuat utk tolak godaan syaiton dan hati tak keras sangat dan baiklahhh serta masok syorga. boleh?

9 musicians/bands I love:
okay ini susah. aku tak pernah pulak mindset nak suka sape2, atau ranking kesukaan, cuma dengar je mana sedap. okay okay meh buat first thing to mind basis.

1. boys like girls.
2. taylor swift.
3. lady gaga.
4. MCR.
5. westlife.
6. demi lovato (did i spell right? heheh)
7. katy perry.
8. avril lavigne.
9. empty space for whoever qualifies tapi tak terlintas kat otak.

8 things I do everyday:
1. sleep.
2. eat.
3. thinking.
4. TVVV ALL THE WAY.
5. INTERNET ALL THE WAY.
6. daydreaming about good things and bad things.
7. TALK AND TALK AND TALK.
8. mandi solat?

7 things I enjoy:
1. HARI PUTUR HELL YEAHHH
2. happy life.
3. lazing around on bed for hours listening to music or reading novels.
4. attention which i poorly rarely receive for reasons i WANT.
5. using my mouth like talking and eating. OK THATS ALL DONT USE YOUR IMAGINATION haha bangang okay and maybe using my mouth to say unhealthy things like this.
6. SCREENS as in TV and computer. well not THE screens, but what they do laaa.
7. being a writer, though lack of talents and ideas i am.

6 things that always win my heart:
1. beautiful and tear-producing bonding of mother daughter friends lovers.
2. friends turn into lovers.
3. well written books, poems, songs or even blogs.
4. sincerity.
5. true love without having to show you are all lovey dovey and plainly LOVE not for looks or bodies just because they're the one but okay love for personality is an exception.
6. seeing people's inner beauty and not being biased for what people have to offer physically.

5 favourites:
1. quality time spent with love ones.
2. food and food and food!
3. occasional shopping so that the excitement is authentic. eh. authentic excitement?
4. friendly gestures from strangers.
5. simple act of kindness that is given with true pleasure.

4 smell I enjoy:
1. FOOD!!! gosh i AM fat.
2. grass, leaves and trees after heavy rain.
3. ok this is my fav; SMELL OF NEWLY BOUGHT BOOKS, when the pages brush our hands, flipped in a second and give out that, that, THAT satisfying smell. hah.
4. smell of anything new, be it clothes or leather bags. OH YES LEATHER BAGS.

3 places I want to go:
1. GREECE.
2. VENICE.
3. HEAVEN. haha. okay tak dikira. oh this supposed to be the first one. and it is the top of any list. OUTER SPACE! seriously! dan takde kena mengena dgn Dr SMS, tenkiu. macam impian sejak kecil okeh nak pergi terapung2 dekat sekitar bulan, potong bintang dan bawak balik ke bumi supaya semuaorg boleh ganti elektrik dgn bintang yg terang dan panas, jadi lebih jimat dan bagus untuk humankind! geez i thought about that when i was 9. sah genius.

2 favourite holidays:
1. final semester break.
2. any holiday yang panjang.

1 person you would mary on the spot:
DAN RADCLIFFE, JENSEN ACKLES AND ALAN RICKMAN!!!!!
shut up, here how it goes. NOW i would marry DAN The Perfect Bachelor, as an adult i would marry JENSEN The Perfect Gentleman, AND LATER IN LIFE I WOULD MARRY ALAN RICKMAN THE OLDER VERSION OF PERFECTNESS!!!! isnt it brilliant?

I TAG:
syapeqohbelajapeqoh.
hasirohkohkohkoh.
syirakecikkkkkkkkk.
DAN SEMUA ORANG YG MEMBACA, OKAY SELAMAT MEMBUAT!

Kenapa Benci Sangat Duduk Rumah?

isk, tidur makan tidur makan, tak sangka dah bulan doblas. bengang betol aku. aku tak puas lah bercuti, tak puas, paham? agak kepelikan ye disini apabila semua org tak habes2 cakap boring cuti, boring duduk rumah, bila nak keluarlah bila nak berambus lah.

aku suke je dok rumah. takde pulak aku meroyan nak keluar mcm orang laen, even tak sabar2 nak belajar kat sekolah sebab boring sangat. pada pendapat akulah kan, pada pendapat je ni, dan based on observation, mereka yg selalu kate boring duduk rumah ni jenis yg tak dpt cr kebahagiaan dan takde sefahaman dekat rumah, lalu lebih gemar melalak dekat klcc dan pavi. betol tak?

kalau nak keluar tu normal lah, ni aku maksudkan orang yg mcm allergic sangat duduk rumah. korang ingat aku suke sangat ke dok rumah? bahagia sangat? i for one rase thrill jugak ok untuk pergi merantau ke. tp aku ade mak aku, dan ade understanding between mother and daughter je pun dah cukup utk jd faktor penarik duduk rumah ni.

takde rase nak hargai mase bersama emak dan bapak ke? tanak something yg boleh buat kau tersenyum bila besar nanti, takdelah nnt menyesal bila peluang dah takde. unless ade sbb laen seperti parents sebok. tp tak bermakna korg kena putuskan terus hubungan. kalau setakat boyfriend, girlfriend, klik semua tu pergi sorang, datang sorang. cakaplah korang menderita berpisah pun, frust menonggeng, tapi percayalah, patah tumbuh hilang berganti.

tapi dengan family? ok listen aku sangatlah bukan seorang yg family guy. aku sendiri pun tak sabar2 nak keluar, nak ade driving license, kerja sendiri, monthly income sendiri, drive mane2 aku nak pergi, lari. aku rebel tau. tp at least aku ade satu sebab untuk buat aku sayang nak tinggalkan rumah ni, walaupun faktor penolak memang banyak tapi satu faktor penarik je dah cukup utk buat aku kuat.

carilah faktor penarik korang tu. bukannya nak buat korang melekat dekat rumah, tapi nak buat korang rase korang tak perlukan benda laen pada tahap umur mcm ni, selaen drpd darah daging yg still mengalir. jgn bila dah terlambat, baru menyesal.

sekian ceramah dr saya.

eh tau tak aku sebenarnya nak blog pasal benda laen? kenapakah kenapaaaa selalu terpesong jd post yang sayu ni kenapaa? aku nak blog pasal aku malas nak menghadapi form 4 je sebenarnya. oh well, mmg malas. aku tak puas duduk dua bulan dekat rumah, walaupun lepas PMR aku banyak je ponteng. aku benci sekolah. takde tarikan langsung. i need SKLK's atmosphere, barulah teruja nak datang hari2 untuk belajar dan mengusha.

makin gerun kot nak masuk form 4. muka2 baru. kawan2 sme pindah. aku takut kalau dapat tawaran wlaupun 8A pun mcm makin jauh je ni. sbb mesti blur nanti. dahlah petang tadi pun aku mimpi masuk MRSM, lepastu merintih2 nak keluar tapi malu. tak pernah mimpi happy ending je masuk asrama. kalau dah seratus kali setahun mimpi masuk asrama semuanya berakhir dgn first day aku menyesal dan nak keluar, apakah kemungkinannya?

aku benci sekolah. the end.

Full Report On PMR dan Jawapan.

ini full report on PMR, siap ade jawapan lagi tau. saje nak merosakkan hari cuti korang. tapi jawapan ini dicedok dr google lah, tatau betul ke tak and i dont take any credit from it, besides posting them for you. tapi korang kena google lah lagi, compare jawapan laen jugak, esp BM yg byk pendapat. kalau ade jawapan yg tak same dgn yg aku kasi ni, sila bgtau ye. jadi ape yg kau nak lap lap peluh ketakutan lagi ni, PMR dah lepaslah sekarang bace je jawapan tu sme.

BAHASA MELAYU:
sangat menyenangkan hati sebab at least aku dapat agak yg kertas 1 akan jadi sebegitu susah. takdelah terkejut beruk sangatkan. tapi memang babun betul la. kalau korang, pasal ekonomi negara, ape terlintas dlm kepala? kemewahan la kan? ekonomi mengekalkan duit, bukan kemakmuran. ke kepala otak aku je terlalu materialistik nih? memang susah, berdasarkan cikgu ni, aku maybe salah 8 or more. mahu jawapan sila tekan link tu, complete kot sebab cikgu tu siap terangkan kenapa jawapan yg die pilih tu begitu.

kertas 2, berdukacitalah saya kerana tidak memberi hasil semaksimum mungkin melebihi limitasi. malah amat mengecewakan apabila tidak dapat menandingi kayu pengukur cubaan sebelum PMR, malah lebih rendah tahapnya. saya tidak dapat berbuat yang terbaik ekoran lemas ditenggelami arus panik dan kebluran akibat tidak menjangka panahan kertas 2 sebegitu sukar dan sulit. waduh waduh. cikgu mesti dapat heart attack kalau tau. malah lebih bahaya untuk kesihatan kalau aku tak dpt A. kalau korg tau mcmane aku jawab sebelum PMR, dan mase PMR, memang korang pun sedih. takde pujangga, takde madah, takde peribahasa, takde kosakata yg luas, tak mcm sebelum ni. padahal aku dah bace dah senarai kosakata dan madah yg aku BUAT SENDIRI, tapi malangnya satu pun tak kena dengan tajuk. BUAT PENAT JE AKU CARI DLM SETIAP BUKU DAN INTERNET UTK KUMPULKAN PERKATAAN DAN AYAT BEST. PENAT TAU TAKKKKKKKKKK. tp semua hancur. HANCUR.

BAHASA INGGERIS:
paper 1 was easy. and it is perfect if i really did get 40/40 as checked.

1.D 11.A 21.C 31.A
2.A 12.B 22.D 32.B
3.B 13.D 23.C 33.D
4.C 14.B 24.C 34.B
5.B 15.C 25.A 35.D
6.B 16.A 26.C 36.A
7.A 17.D 27.C 37.B
8.D 18.B 28.D 38.C
9.B 19.C 29.A 39.C
10.D 20.B 30.C 40.A

but paper 2 was a mess. there was the article. first thing i thought was, which side is the signature? when we were queuing to enter the hall, there was an argument about that matter, some said right others said otherwise. and great, we actually had to write an essay with indefinite answer for the position of the signature. but i heard who said which side tah and they were absolutely certain, though i was doubtful, i did as they said and thank god i was right. but the thing was i did the signature quite improperly because i had no space left so i just did it at the very bottom of the paper. ohh please make that count. and the question said 'write your experience', but i wrote the article involving my club as well. i hope it can be accepted. and i wrote it formally at first, but later it was informally, and i just hope that didnt effect the mark. literature, nothing i'd ever seen before, but i managed to do it at least.

SCIENCE:
paper 1, the only question i got wrong was due to confusion about a really simple question. i wasnt familiar to the question, and it supposed to be easy if it wasnt confusing. alah pasal glucose, number 12. here here.

1.C 11.C 21.B 31.B
2.A 12.A 22.D 32.A
3.B 13.C 23.D 33.A
4.A 14.D 24.A 34.A
5.A 15.B 25.B 35.D
6.C 16.A 26.A 36.C
7.D 17.D 27.C 37.B
8.D 18.C 28.B 38.D
9.D 19.B 29.D 39.B
10.B 20.C 30.C 40.D

paper 2, most people will agree that it was difficult beyond measure. mula2 senang. sekali keluar soalan yg tak pernah ditanya. soalan yg kena gune logic akal. soalan yg kite ingat senang dan mustahil keluar. soalan yg senang tapi takde sape kesah nak bace sbb baik focus dekat tajuk2 susah. sekali tajuk2 susah yg dah master semata2 untuk PMR, tak ditanya langsung. keluar tajuk senang, tapi jadi susah. dahlah satu bab ade berpuluh soalan, jadi jika korang lupa satu bab terus, maka malanglah kalian. AKU DAH TENGOK SKEMA JAWAPAN KERTAS 2 BABEH, BIASELAH KAKAK IPAR PEMERIKSA KERTAS. cool tak? tp itu top secret, so die ambek balik.

MATHEMATICS:
paper 1, ya Allah kalaulah betul jawapan yg aku cek ni, memang aku gembira sangatlah. sebab selalunya aku mesti ade salah sebab lalai dan leka. dan menurut jawapan di bawah ni, aku takde cuai langsung :')

1.A 2.C 3.B 4.A 5.A 6.D 7.C 8.B 9.B 10.D
11.C 12.C 13.B 14.B 15.B 16.D 17.C 18.B 19.B 20.D
21.A 22.C 23.C 24.A 25.B 26.C 27.A 28.D 29.B 30.A
31.C 32.C 33.D 34.A 35.B 36.D 37.B 38.C 39.D 40.D

paper 2, aku dah lupe macamane. tapi okay je rasenya. harap2. Amin.

SEJARAH:
ade jugak yang mengelirukan, mcm biase. dan ade yg aku tak bace langsung tp hentam dan dpt betul. ade jugak yg tak bace langsung dan hentam tp salah memang patut pun. ade yg ingatkan betul, rupanya salah. maybe aku salah 3, 4 kot. kalau ikut jawapan bawah ni lah.

1C 2B 3A 4B 5B
6A 7D 8C 9C 10B
11C 12A 13D 14B 15D
16C 17C 18B 19A 20C
21B 22D 23D 24A 25B
26C 27B 28D 29A 30D
31B 32A 33D 34C 35D
36D 37B 38D 39D 40D
41A 42C 43B 44D 45A
46B 47D 48C 49A 50B
51C 52A 53A 54C 55A
56C 57A 58B 59A 60C

GEOGRAFI:
last day utk first week PMR, die je plak tu, so dpt balik awal. dah balik awal bukan nak belajar, tp aku terlalu rilek sbb geo agak best, so hanya habeskan hari jumaat tu bersembang, tidur, internet dan TV. rase mcm dah habes PMR je. Geo salah 2 kot.

1.D 2.B 3.D 4.B 5.A 6.B 7.D 8.A 9.A 10.A
11.C 12.C 13.B 14.A 15.D 16.A 17.D 18.A 19.B 20.A
21.B 22.D 23.B 24.C 25.A 26.B 27.C 28.A 29.C 30.B
31.C 32.B 33.C 34.A 35.D 36.C 37.B 38.C 39.B 40.D
41.A 42.C 43.D 44.C 45.D 46.B 47.C 48.D 49.A 50.B
51.D 52.C 53.A 54.D 55.B 56.D 57.B 58.A 59.D 60.B

PENDIDIKAN AGAMA ISLAM:
SUSAH. SUSAH. PADA AKU SUSAH. PADA ORG LAEN SENANG. TIDAKKKK. aku bace tajuk laen, tajuk laen pulak keluar. aku hafal yg susah, yg senang pulak keluar. tp hofkos jadi faktor peluh merembes2kan sebab tak bace. sangat tensyen bila aku dah kire terer lah menterjemah surah utk PMR, tetiba soalan terjemahan tu, kalau tak belajar pun tau. al akhirah. azab. wa jannah. lil muttaqin. i mean watteheck? orang punye hafal tah hape2, last2 tak keluar. tp kire ok lah kan. cume bengangla bile piagam madinah, pembukaan kota mekah segala yg banyak fakta tu dah hafal, tak kuar pulak. dogaan betul. kalau tak PAI sangat ok. sabarrr. padahal org laen semua seronok kate senang, tensyen.

KHB:
the best. the best. haha, takdelah the best among the rest tapi dpt buat dgn senang hati. Alhamdulillah boleh buat, insyaAllah dapat yg diinginkan. ade 4 je yg aku target boleh, dan inilah salah satunye. EMPAT??? AMALINA TARGET 4?????? ya kawan kawan, better be prepared for the worst. aku target 4 tu pun dah kire konfiden dah la, kalau nak ikut hati ape pun aku tak target. anything can go wrong. and EVERYTHING can go wrong with me. nauzubillah.

FOR PMR, utk subject yg aku rase ade peningkatan maybe Mathematic, KHB, Geografi. BM penulisan, mmg menurun performance. tak pernah buat camtu. dahlah itu kekuatanku. ni kekuatan pun dah jadi kelemahan, macamane la yg laen. kalau nak kire belajar last utk PMR, aku memang tak mula drpd awal sampai akhir. jeles dekat budak2 yg bace setiap tajuk dr form 1 tu. name pun last revision kan, aku blaja la mane yg rase tak ingat, mane yg tak sempat cover. utk SEJ aku bace form 3 je. sebab trial aku tak sempat habes form 3. SC aku tak bace sgt except tajuk susah sbb yg laen time mighty minds dah boleh cover. ade jugak guna mighty minds tu w/p kalah. so generally, last study utk PMR aku buat latihan model kertas PMR je.

frust jugak, kenapalah aku tak jadi rajin mcm org laen yg awal tahun dah serious, hari2 belajar, tak tengok TV tak online, aku ni petang PMR pun tidur beb. orang laen tak tidur, aku terlebih tidur pulak bila nak periksa, org laen bila trial dah ulang 2, 3 kali belajar. aku trial pun ade yg tak habes lg, tapi Alhamdulillah result selalu mengatakan sebaliknya.

sebab kemalasan aku aku selalu expect yg aku dapat teruk, tp Alhamdulillah, Allah salu tolong makbulkan doa walaupun aku banyak sangat dosa. rase tak layak. kalau korg bace blog aku, dulu pun aku pernah emo pasal ni. aku harap aku dapat balas macamne Allah kasi aku, tp aku just tak kuat. aku terkejut bila aku dapat ape yg aku nak, termasuklah 8A semua tu. rase mcm bila2 Allah akan ambek. kan banyak cerita pasal budak yg selalu dpt bagus, tp bila rsult periksa besar, die dpt teruk, semua terkejut, semua tak sangka, semua kate die lupa diri.

drpd dulu aku rase aku akan jadi budak tu. sebab aku mcm senang dpt semua ni, bukannya aku belajar tak berenti, bukannya aku pandai sangat pun. aku senang dapat sampai aku rase bila PMR sebenar, aku akan dapat hasil yg baru setimpal dengan usaha aku. NAUZUBILLAH ramai2. usaha ciput satu hal, hukum karma is another, dan dosa aku tu nak campak mane. aku rase semua akan kena dekat aku nanti bila ambek result PMR. bukan result PMR je, yg agak takde hal dlm dunia sebenar ni, tp aku takut utk semua benda yg aku ade sekarang, sme yg aku sayang. nauzubillah lagi.

tolong doakan aku dpt lapan A utk PMR tahun ni ek? aku rase kemungkinan aku dapat keputusan bagus lagi sikit drpd org laen. walaupun korg sme ingat akulah manusia paling rajin belajar dlm dunia, aku sebaliknya lg adela. ni aku tak masuk lg bab aku tensyen aku dimisunderstoodkan dengan something yg aku bukan. baek tak payah sbb nanti korang pulak disalahkan, dah sme org nak tensi. biarlah aku sorg je tensi kali ni.

nak belajar utk UKKM ni pun tak terbuat lagi. bukan aku tak cuba, tapi aku tak dapat. aku dah pandang buku tu, buku tu pandang aku. bila aku start bace, tak sampai 3 minit aku dah give up. aku tak bolehlah nak jadi rajin. terutama untuk something yg aku taknak. tapi korang pleasee, doakan utk aku. doakan aku dpt ape yg terbaik, AMIN.

Love's Keen Sting

"ah, to be young and to feel love's keen sting"
-Albus Dumbledore, Harry Potter and The Half Blood Prince.

yeah, to be young. and to feel how the love is in the air. i dont feel that anymore, am i old already? i would like to call myself a matured young woman, yes. hoho. definitely because if i think about boys now, i would think if they can make it as a husband.

GATAL? no, bukan gatal. tapi MATANG.

all the things Taylor Swift sings in Fifteen about love, rather naive of her to have feelings as such. even when i was eleven, the age which i found out how it was to really like somebody, i was self-conscious enough to always ignore the rumours that i was fancied, even when the person shouted it on my face.

i didnt believe, and i still dont. unless if you behold the most beautiful features, then it is maybe safe for you to do so.

if you were me, all you would think is the bloke is making fun of you, maybe in a bet or challenging a dare, god knows. seriously, for a girl to easily believe a BOY's confession of love for her, she has not been spared from one step beneath me. meaning? i would think she is less intelligent, as simple as that. not brainy intelligent, but logic and simple senses in the term.

sometimes of course i have instincts and succumb to my intuition as others do, but i never let it go that far. i'm being pathetic to think someone actually like me. and i am always right to build the walls. i will never make myself a fool, as alarmingly a large number of girls have been.

however, while i'm in the middle of teenage years, looking back at what happened when i was in primary school, i started to believe there were really some boys who indeed liked me, as odd and humiliating as i sound. bah, only talking about admitting i think i was liked, even years ago, make me blush. its never easy for me to share it, maybe self esteem issues i got here.

ask my friends. sometimes i annoy them. sometimes they dont even know. point is, i feel like a whore admitting i had admirers once. i wonder how some girls have the gut to really be sure about this stuff, and to tell people a guy is adoring them. it is as if they are Paris Hilton to say so. but i am not insulting, just merely curious and slightly annoyed. and sometimes if i need to talk about it, i even admire their confidence and how they open up easily.

but i do it too, only rarely. out of depression to ask for opinions or because it happened in the past. and then the thunder of embarrassment would struck me, and i feel idiotic to no end. to me confessing that someone likes you is even harder than confessing that you like someone. that, i mean to the third part la.

so what i can guarantee here, is, boy you dont have to worry if you like me,
i'll keep your secret forever! bahahaha