two weeks of fooling around has ended. a period which i supposed to use it 'wisely', studying every minute of the time. two weeks that i'm sure my friends have had the liberty of spending every hour revising. and two weeks in my case of doing nothing.
i know there's no use crying over a spilt milk. but frankly i dont regret, that regret if u know what i mean. i dont want to miss the fun, i dont want to miss my teen moment. i have had two weeks of stalking some of my friends myspace who dont even talk to me anymore, two weeks of making up my mind what to do with him, two weeks of hugging and kissing my malmal gemok, two weeks of texting with my bestfriend and hearing his problems, two weeks of doing nothing but living and kicking.
and now school is about to start, and i have to set my mind to climb up the mountain. i know i havent give much of an effort to get 8 As, i know him and her have surely done everything whereas i'm stuck here being 'alive', i call it. but at least, i did normal things everyone should do during the holidays, and i WILL do and pull my best try to be serious starting tomorrow.
walaupun aku sangat malas, that will not be the reason i wont get 8 As. i am surprisingly and worryingly overoptimistic now, but i guess thats just a start of a day of a girl who sees nothing but her future. i AM going to the states no matter what although it is very unlikely now, but i'll do what it takes. ceh dramatic.
i have had my ups. and i have had my downs. will face another tomorrow i think. i dont really care about what my mid year result says, but i will try hard to turn a deaf ear towards stinky mouths which will condemn my mistakes and make me regret over every step i have taken. you are not me, so why even bother? dont u should be thankful that i dont get as good as i did before, and that gives u a chance to have your ups? thats the spirit i want.
hope this wont be temporary. although i dont say it often. although i goof around so much. although i'm not as serious and as study head as some of my fellows are, i know i want this than anyone in the world. for so many reasons.
amin.
now get back to my homework.
i know there's no use crying over a spilt milk. but frankly i dont regret, that regret if u know what i mean. i dont want to miss the fun, i dont want to miss my teen moment. i have had two weeks of stalking some of my friends myspace who dont even talk to me anymore, two weeks of making up my mind what to do with him, two weeks of hugging and kissing my malmal gemok, two weeks of texting with my bestfriend and hearing his problems, two weeks of doing nothing but living and kicking.
and now school is about to start, and i have to set my mind to climb up the mountain. i know i havent give much of an effort to get 8 As, i know him and her have surely done everything whereas i'm stuck here being 'alive', i call it. but at least, i did normal things everyone should do during the holidays, and i WILL do and pull my best try to be serious starting tomorrow.
walaupun aku sangat malas, that will not be the reason i wont get 8 As. i am surprisingly and worryingly overoptimistic now, but i guess thats just a start of a day of a girl who sees nothing but her future. i AM going to the states no matter what although it is very unlikely now, but i'll do what it takes. ceh dramatic.
i have had my ups. and i have had my downs. will face another tomorrow i think. i dont really care about what my mid year result says, but i will try hard to turn a deaf ear towards stinky mouths which will condemn my mistakes and make me regret over every step i have taken. you are not me, so why even bother? dont u should be thankful that i dont get as good as i did before, and that gives u a chance to have your ups? thats the spirit i want.
hope this wont be temporary. although i dont say it often. although i goof around so much. although i'm not as serious and as study head as some of my fellows are, i know i want this than anyone in the world. for so many reasons.
amin.
now get back to my homework.
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