why do i read too much books about problems and miseries? for me, the worst the state the character is in, the better it is.
i want to be drifted in the wave of emotions of the character, till i forget my own tornado. i know mine is not as much as a tornado, but since i think its the worst of my life, so i have the right to call it whatever i want. unless i have had something much terrible before this one, so i might think this tornado isn't a tornado after all. i might even think its a breeze of the sea.
and i read that kind of books too, to know about other people's lives. to learn what are they suffering from. to make myself feel better, to make me, whats the word you guys say? 'grateful'.
but i always find something to make me jealous. to make me think i would switch my life with the character. after all, i would be just a fiction character. my life's not real, its created with the flowery words of an infamous author. i would be the author's asset to sell her books. i would be a reason for the readers to cry. i would be sympathized with. i would be understood. the readers will follow my path devotedly, will stand for me, and back me up whenever necessary. i can entertain people if i am a fiction character, and i wouldnt even care where's the ending waits for me. after all, i'm not even real.
but i am the reader who reads the sad novel and who wishes to cry for someone else's problem.
i envy the character, their downs are indeed awful, but even how sucks their life is, it is happy ending that awaits them. whereas my life might be just A LITTLE sucks, but i cant guarantee how my ending goes.
and they always have at least a person to turn to, a shoulder to cry on, a feet where their heads can lay at. at least some one who is really faithful.
for instance, the novel i'm reading now; 'LIFE AS IT COMES'.
the factor for creating the whole story is that the parents of mado were killed in an accident. leaving her with her wild, carefree sister. the biggest problem in this story is that her sister was someone who is, ok, wild. and being wild, pregnancy is something hard to avoid. with patty, her pregnant carefree sister who is the current guardian of mado, the studious genius, what would happen to mado's lives? her sister isnt an evil antagonist, but usually her decisions bring out the worse. and mado's the one who is in charge for her sister's mistake, being the new parent and all.
sounds pity, but hey. as careless and wild as patty is, she's still a fun sister to be with, try so hard to provide a good shelter for her little sister, a joker, and make sure life isnt hard after their parents left them.
not a total loser and a sucker, isnt it?
i hate reading sad books. always something good happens around them.
something good ALWAYS happens around me, yes.
but couldnt it be better?
i want to be drifted in the wave of emotions of the character, till i forget my own tornado. i know mine is not as much as a tornado, but since i think its the worst of my life, so i have the right to call it whatever i want. unless i have had something much terrible before this one, so i might think this tornado isn't a tornado after all. i might even think its a breeze of the sea.
and i read that kind of books too, to know about other people's lives. to learn what are they suffering from. to make myself feel better, to make me, whats the word you guys say? 'grateful'.
but i always find something to make me jealous. to make me think i would switch my life with the character. after all, i would be just a fiction character. my life's not real, its created with the flowery words of an infamous author. i would be the author's asset to sell her books. i would be a reason for the readers to cry. i would be sympathized with. i would be understood. the readers will follow my path devotedly, will stand for me, and back me up whenever necessary. i can entertain people if i am a fiction character, and i wouldnt even care where's the ending waits for me. after all, i'm not even real.
but i am the reader who reads the sad novel and who wishes to cry for someone else's problem.
i envy the character, their downs are indeed awful, but even how sucks their life is, it is happy ending that awaits them. whereas my life might be just A LITTLE sucks, but i cant guarantee how my ending goes.
and they always have at least a person to turn to, a shoulder to cry on, a feet where their heads can lay at. at least some one who is really faithful.
for instance, the novel i'm reading now; 'LIFE AS IT COMES'.
the factor for creating the whole story is that the parents of mado were killed in an accident. leaving her with her wild, carefree sister. the biggest problem in this story is that her sister was someone who is, ok, wild. and being wild, pregnancy is something hard to avoid. with patty, her pregnant carefree sister who is the current guardian of mado, the studious genius, what would happen to mado's lives? her sister isnt an evil antagonist, but usually her decisions bring out the worse. and mado's the one who is in charge for her sister's mistake, being the new parent and all.
sounds pity, but hey. as careless and wild as patty is, she's still a fun sister to be with, try so hard to provide a good shelter for her little sister, a joker, and make sure life isnt hard after their parents left them.
not a total loser and a sucker, isnt it?
i hate reading sad books. always something good happens around them.
something good ALWAYS happens around me, yes.
but couldnt it be better?
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